"You guys never told me that."

"It didn't really come up because of the giant gash that was on my face." He had come off the wall and leaned towards me as a breeze made my hair fly in my face and he fixed it. The moon was shining toward us on the astronomy tower and his green eyes were swirling.

"So you and Draco are supposed to get married? And it was decided before you were both born?"

"Yeah, pretty much."

"That is just... wow."

"We were both mortified, Draco said that we'll work it out, that we can escape it somehow. But I know that my father will do more than slash me across the face, so I told his parents to not worry about the arrangement because I wouldn't be alive for it."

"Did you really mean that?"

"I'm not sure, if there's another way then I'll take that. But I don't want my life to be planned, especially not with someone who I'd never go there with." He paused for a moment and looked down.

"Why uh- why don't we just kill your father; if you don't mind."

"My father is like yours, except he has a nose and is a coward about his psychopathic tendencies."

"So?"

"What I'm saying is, is that he is impossible to kill."

"That's too bad."

"I know, I want to see if he likes it when I slash him across the face."

"Has he ever done anything worse?" He was hesitant about the question, probably because he knows I don't talk about my Father much. Especially about what he's done. The answer to his question is the one single aspect of my life that Draco, or anyone doesn't know about.

"Yes." I said, bluntly. His jaw tensed.

"What was it?"

"It was nothing."

"You just said it was worse than the gash across your face, and now you're not going to tell me?"

"Draco doesn't know either," with that knowledge he realised that it was bad if Draco doesn't even know. 

"Do you have a scar from it?"

"A few." His eyes widened but he didn't ask about it.

"Then Cedric and Michael know."

"No, because I use a charm to make them invisible when I am engaged in naked-type activities."

"That means they're really bad scars."

"Oh, it's hardly a scratch."

"If they were visible right now would I be able to see them."

"One of them, yes."

"Okay." I stared up at the sky, waiting for a few minutes to pass to let my thoughts about the time I received the scars to go back to the pit of my mind. "Revelio."

"Mattheo!" I covered my bare legs with my robe as soon as I saw his wand.

"Just show me."

"No."

"I won't get mad. You don't even have to tell me how you got it."

"You really want to see? It's not pretty."

"I don't care."

"Fine, and don't get uncomfortable, it's on the inside of my thigh. When I was being healed the person healing me was uncomfortable in that area, so now I'm left with a permanent scar because of their prude-ness."

I thought he would laugh, but his expression was very serious. I took the robe off my legs and I got goosebumps; from nerves and the cold. I lifted my school skirt and opened my legs slightly. Then I lifted my shorts on my left inner thigh.

"Davina, it looks as if it just happened." His breathing was very uneven and he was taking deep breaths as if the oxygen wasn't reaching his lungs.

"I shouldn't have shown you. I told myself never to show anyone."

"Why?"

"Because, that moment I felt so helpless and so small that I didn't want anyone, even Draco, to know. I saw him right after it happened, and I didn't tell him anything. I just told him the usual, that it was his cane and that he shoved me or something."

"How old were you?"

"I was around 13."

"We were in our 2nd year, you were still a child."

"Technically I was a teenager."

"This isn't at all funny. I know I said I wouldn't ask but I will. So what caused that scar?" I realised that it was nice to be with him like this. For us to be like we used to. I missed him so much. I took a deep breath and started telling him.

"My father was using crucio on me and he had two other minions helping him. One had cast the sectumsempra charm and the other cast a stupefy charm. I was being cut all over my body and every part of me was crumpling from the inside out. It felt like my bones were turning into dust. I was constantly going unconscious but I was under imperio and was forced to stay awake. It was the one thing that made me really, truly hate my father with every atom in my being."

"Dav, talk about something else because it is taking everything in me not to apparate to your family's manor and kill your father... slowly." I basically jumped on him to take his wand away and then I held his arms.

"It's over now. I have no pain from it." He closed his eyes to control his breathing but his arms were still stiff under my touch. "Just stay, for me." He relaxed and opened his eyes.

"Why are our lives so fucked up."

"It's not us, it's our parents, and we just get the brunt of it. Just think about when we start our own lives and we escape them. Or they die tomorrow."

"That is a nice thought."

"You want to go back?"

"I want to stay with you." For a moment I thought he was leaning closer to me, so I slowly leaned back, just to make sure. He's just tired.

"You can, but we need to go back." I stood up and he was still leaning against the wall on the floor.

"Okay." I held out my hands and lifted him up and we walked back together, walking in and out of step and laughing as we knocked each other.

We got to his dorm, and everyone was sleeping so we kept quiet. He let me shower and gave me one of his long sleeved t-shirts that reached mid-thigh.

While he showered I was already half-asleep in his bed, almost shivering. Luckily he got into bed and his body heat made me warm.

I turned over to face him and he was on his back with his eyes closed. He was wearing a shirt this time, but it still outlined his impressive torso. I finally closed my eyes and I fell asleep to the sound of his breathing.

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"Be quiet he's still sleeping." I had gotten out of bed to talk to Draco, who was dressed and on his way to breakfast.

"I was just going to ask if you two were coming to breakfast." He smirked.

"Why wouldn't we?" He looked confused for a moment and then he began for the door.

"I have no idea?" After he left I was confused for a moment, and then I heard Mattheo talk. I turned and realised he was talking in his sleep, but this time he seemed calm. Hopefully it was a good dream.

"Stay with me forever." He mumbled, it almost sounded like a question. I sat next to him on the bed and brushed his hair out of his face. He was smiling and I laughed at him. He looked so warm and happy which made me warm. I put on my uniform from yesterday and as I was putting on my shirt he woke up. I started buttoning so my bra was covered and he sat up and gazed over me.

"Morning. I didn't want to wake you, you looked peaceful. You sounded happy as well."

"Sounded? I was talking."

"Yeah."

"What'd I say."

"You were mumbling so I don't know if this is exactly what you said."

"Just tell me."

"What were you dreaming about anyway"

"Tell me what I said, and then I might tell you."

"That's not a good deal but whatever. You said, stay with me forever." He didn't answer and I started doing up my tie. I was already struggling, and I remembered how Michael would have it ready for me every morning. I was getting really frustrated and I didn't know wether to cry or hit something. "Arghh!"

"Just wait, I'll do it." He got out of bed and swiftly walked over to me. He finished my tie and he stood there, hovering over me.

"I really want to know what you dreamt about, you seemed so... happy." He scoffed and went to get dressed. I turned around and waited for his response. 

"It's just a good day I guess."

"Sure. Just tell me I won't judge." I turned my head slightly and saw him half naked, pulling up his pants.

"I know, but there's nothing to tell."

"Fine, I'll get it out of you."

"Good luck with that." I scoffed and turned my head again to see him buttoning his shirt. "You know the point of turning around is that you're not looking." I faced him now because he was dressed and I crossed my arms.

"Good point. So what happened this morning with my bra?"

"I didn't even see anything. Plus I had just woken up."

"Still."

"Why were you facing me."

"Oh shove off. Lets just go." He was laughing as we headed out the door and walked to the great hall. 

As we headed for the Slytherin table Mat leaned down and whispered in my ear.

"You looked good in your lacy bra by the way." So he did see, what a git. Nonetheless I couldn't stop myself from blushing. 

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April 1998

"So what are we doing this fine Friday evening?" Mat asked as him, Draco and I walked into the common room. 

"All of us or just you two?" Draco said and Mat nudged him. Draco has been making these innuendo jokes for a couple weeks now. Ever since the night I was up with Mat when he had that nightmare. 

"Um, no, just you two actually." I said.

"Where are you going?" Mat asked, and as he did Ana came up to us.

"Out with me." She grinned and looped her arm around mine. I saw Mat tense and Draco was eyeing us both.

"Mat, it's fine, I don't need a babysitter." Ana guided me to her dorm and we got ready.

"So where are we going?"

"There's a small party in the Ravenclaw house." I turned on my heel.

"What!"

"Oh, it's fine, he may not even be there, and if he is you'll have a great time and act like he doesn't matter."

"Still, I don't think that's a great idea."

"You'll be fine, there will be alcohol and you won't even need to pay him any attention. If something happens I'm there, so it'll be okay."

I nodded and finished putting on my dress. It was a black  long sleeve dress, with a square neck that reached my mid-thigh and hugged my figure. I paired it with some high top sneakers and then I faced Ana who was wearing a short red slip dress that hung low on her chest. She wore boot heels and was applying red lip stick in her mirror.

"You ready?"

"Yeah, let's go."

We reached the Ravenclaw common room and we were confronted with a riddle. 

"Feed me and I live. Give me a drink and I die. What am I?"

"Oh, this is a hard one, it will take ages to figure out." I chuckled at her lack of hope and I faced the door.

"A fire." I glanced at Ana who looked a bit surprised and then the door opened. I had to get in the Ravenclaw common room a lot so I'm pretty good at answering riddles. 

We walked in and a couple dozen people were standing and sitting around, sipping their drinks. I forgot how mellow Ravenclaw parties were, and they thought they were cool. Slytherin parties are just dancing and drinking to loud music. I remember going to parties with Cedric and they wouldn't even have alcohol and one time there was karaoke, it was horrible. 

I gazed around the room and I locked eyes with Michael who was leaning against the wall gulping his drink down. He looked like he choked once he saw me and then Ana nudged my arm.

"Let's go get drinks." She dragged me with her and I poured myself some bourbon with ice. Then everyone in the room faced the middle where a guy stood on a table as he yelled to everyone.

"Everyone, make a circle, we're playing spin the bottle." He jumped down and grabbed an empty bottle from the drinks table and brought it to the middle of the circle that Ana and I, along with a dozen others gathered. Several people chose not to play, and I noticed it was because they were all couples. 

"Alright, let's start with the gorgeous outsiders." He turned to us and I glanced at Michael who was already looking at me, and Anthony next to him looked excited. 

"I'll go." Ana said and I gave her grateful smile as she went to spin the bottle. It spun around and it went pretty quiet as it stopped right in front of a Ravenclaw girl. The girl stepped into the circle and Ana walked to her and they they kissed briefly. Then it was the girls turn and it landed right in front of me. The guy who suggested we play, complained that the guys weren't getting any action and I just laughed as I went up to the girl and kissed her. 

It was now my turn to spin and I was nervous. It turned and it landed right in front of Anthony. Great.