'Quick retreats fill the void of missing words that could've, should've and would've been said...

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"(Y/N), come please." Your Kami called to you from her room as she did nothing but lay like a sloth. She had only done what you, her familiar, had informed her to so she decided to oblige. Only for now.

"Of course, my Lady and Mistress." You answered smoothly, disregarding your wet plates in the sink to attend to your Lady. You dried your hands and made yourself presentable before sliding the double doors open to her bedroom where she laid as her onibi - warashi servant continued to pour the finest sake you could provide for her.

"What can I do for you this evening Lady (G/N)?" You asked politely though the sly smile growing on her young and pretty face made you feel a bit uneasy on the inside. Although your lady was a God with powers that grew each and every day, she was also quite the impulsive and mischievous trouble-maker who loved to pull pranks and act like a reckless teenager. You knew these thoughts were extremely unacceptable but your Lady also knew of your thoughts and only giggled in reply. It irked you immensely.

"I have a request for you, as your lady and Mistress, would you please oblige to my... desires?" She spoke cooly, that voice made you shiver with regret of even walking into the room. You should've been fulfilling your duties as a Familiar; cleaning the Shrine to keep it in it's best condition but your Lady had other unnecessary thoughts that you couldn't deny due to your tight bond and the mark of the (G/T) on her forehead.

"I've told you many times before, I'll comply to all of your wishes and desires to the best of my abilities; speak your mind woman!" Your eyebrows had furrowed as your hands tightened around each other in the large sleeves of your yukata. You Lady, (G/N) only laughed in response as she scrambled herself off of the floor to rush towards you. She silently grabbed your hands, watching your eyes as she stood eye-level to you and you only saw mischief in her shining orbs that were shining as if she had mashed together one of her greatest ideas. You would only beg to differ.

"(Y/N) You shall accompany me to the Mikage Shrine.. Where you will confess your love to the Familiar known as Tomoe."

You stared. Stared and complied, nodding absentmindedly as she only cheered and ran around you to leave the shrine before the words could replay through your mind,
'Confess.'

'Love.'

'Tomoe.'

"WHAT!?"

The onibi - warashi squealed in surprise, watching with wide and frightful eyes and now you realised why your Kami was in such a hurry to evacuate the shrine before you heard what she really said. It was a command as well so you couldn't not do it. How did she even know about your unrequited feelings towards the fox yokai?

As your God appeared to be the same age as the Land God; Nanami Momozono, they both hit it off immediately though you knew Nanami was quite intimidated by how 'in-your-face' your God literally was but you could tell she felt less alone in her shrine whenever the two of you visited.

You usually did nothing but admire the shrine silently as your Lady did as she pleased for as long as she liked as long as she wasn't becoming a disturbance nor a nuisance. And so after a long and quiet ride on your end because of your internal fuming as you consistently restrained yourself from exploding at (G/N) for delivering such a ridiculous command, you arrived.

You swore you could've left immediately when she repeated her request, making sure to put emphasis on the words you hated hearing come from her sly mouth, 'Oh, and this is a Command.'
Arriving to the Mikage shrine brought a heavy feeling in your stomach, your internal feelings were keeping your feet still but your bond towards the Lady and Mistress skipping in front of you made your feet lift off of the ground to come nearer towards the place you suddenly loathed.

Tomoe stood tall at the sound of feet patting on the freshly cut grass located at the front of the shrine. He remained impassive at the sight of the (G/T) God and only looked behind, knowing you would be right on her tail. You looked troubled and pale which only slightly brought some concern into the kitsune before he dragged himself into the shrine, though he held himself highly as he walked, announcing your God's unexpected arrival to his own Lady and mistress.

Nanami's head had risen up from her homework to hear your Kami's cheery voice greet her familiar, "Tomoe, the shrine is looking very impressive- it's good to see you!"

"Yes, good to see you too, Lady (G/N). I will go and fetch Lady Nanami for you." You almost cracked a smile when you heard Tomoe murmuring about a 'Lazy schoolgirl,' automatically knowing he was talking about Nanami before you took a seat by the well in front of the shrine. You noticed two shadows in front of you and a smile was planted on your face at the sight of the Mikage shrine onibi - warashi; Kotetsu and Onikiri.

"(Y/N), (Y/N) how are you this evening?" They rushed out in their high-pitched, cheery voices. You smiled lightly, almost cringing at the uncomfortable movement on your face as a result of the predicament you were in, "Oh, I'm okay- My Lady has given me quite the... peculiar command and I must fulfil it.. Even if I don't particularly want to."

The servants seemed to have dimmed at your words, as if sympathising with you before you only offered your kindest smile to reassure them. They had relaxed at the sight as they were also quite fond of you because of how long you had known Mikage, Tomoe and both of them too. They sucked in a breath to, what you assumed, assure you everything would be fine before they were ushered off because of the yokai who wouldn't leave your mind. The fox appeared out of nowhere causing you to visibly still in your seat, before you impulsively jumped up to stand.

You only felt slightly better when you heard both, Nanami's and (G/N)'s laughter from inside the shrine but it didn't help the rapid beating of you heart and the fact that as a familiar, you had to complete all duties to the best of your abilities. The elder yokai stared at you with his head slightly tilted, an emotionless face in front of you as his delightful, white hair drifted lightly in the wind. How badly you wanted to run your slender fingers through his soft-looking tresses.

"Was there any particular reason Lady (G/N) and yourself decided to interrupt my cleaning, along with Nanami's studies?" He asked plainly, his dark and smooth voice rung in your ears as if it were igniting the electricity you felt whenever you were near him. You wouldn't admit it but even the mere though of him was internally enticing.

You felt a pull in your heart strings at the sound of how fond yet nonchalant he spoke of his Human God. You only looked to the side so he wouldn't pick up on the pink hue appearing on your cheeks, the wind blowing in your favour when it blew your long (H/C) locks in front of your face like a curtain to mask how vulnerable and feeble you felt in the moment.

"I..I bel-believe that uh.. La-Lady (G/N) enjoys.. Lady Na-Nanami's company," You hated the fact that you had to literally take a breath to ensure yourself you wouldn't verbally vomit your confession that was bound to pour from your mouth and to the fox's pointed ears, "I do believe it is definitely better than my own." You finished, feeling proud when you didn't stutter out your last words.

You were intrigued when a look of uncertainty crossed Tomoe's face, he opened his mouth but then his pink lips closed and you felt defeated especially when you realised how eager you were to hear his thoughts.
You felt awkward in your position, fingers once again tightening around themselves in the sleeves of the traditional yukata and only when your mind was completely blank, did you suddenly comprehend the sentence escaping your mouth, all at once and in a single breath, "We also arrived so I could tell you that I'm in love with you."

You breathed, feeling slightly ashamed but also as if a heavy weight had been lifted off of your chest, both because of the task being complete but also having been relieved of your feelings after harbouring them for something just under twenty years. You didn't dare take a look at the familiars face in front of you and after muttering, "That is all, thank you."

You were gone, missing the brightly, visible red glow that covered the pale fox's face when he stared after your retreating form.

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Days turned into weeks and you spoke nothing of the words you spoke to Tomoe. His silence was enough to confirm he had silently and respectably rejected you. You weren't surprised though because of the brewing romance Nanami and Tomoe shared, they were quite the sweet couple to bystanders and you only wished happiness for them..

Scratch that, you never wished for such a thing at all but there was nothing you could really do. You would rather be selfless than selfish anyway so when (G/N) stated she had invited Lady Nanami and her fox familiar over, you almost freaked.

You could visualise steam emitting from your ears with your red face burning in anger and embarrassment when the two guests arrived the second the sentence had left your Kami's mouth. You knew it was intentional, the way she purposely said it right before they arrived so you would have no where to hide after all you were told, commanded, to inform her on all the details of the events that occurred with Tomoe.

The two entered the shrine, Nanami holding smiles and all as her familiar stuck right by her side just like you knew he wanted to be even if you hated it. You had turned immediately when your eyes met the violet orbs of the fox, claiming to help the onibi - warashi to make lunch before Nanami also quickly turned to you, wide eyes full of playful naughtiness and slight caution when she opened her mouth, "Tomoe will help you!"

Trudging into the kitchen automatically brought a thick and abundant cloud of awkwardness and uncomfortable feelings to there peak. You weren't sure about what it was like in Tomoe's opinion- the man was a master at the art of stoic and impassiveness but you wanted to escape the moment you found a chance. (G/N) even had the audacity to send her obiri - warashi out of the kitchen so you two could be completely alone and now it was only the two yokai familiars.

The fact that Tomoe hadn't spoken a word didn't sit right with you but you knew the moment your voice was heard you wouldn't be able to stop so you could only continue cutting the vegetables in silence.

"(Y/N),"

Maybe not.

"You fool, you didn't let me speak before you left."

You only continued to nonchalantly chop the food before you, the fox already well aware that you were listening and hanging onto every word he would speak, "I'm not sure what brought on your confession so it.. It startled me, I was going to go after you but both Lady Nanami and (G/N) ordered me to stay back,"

"Hm, so you didn't let me tell you that I also lo- are you crying?!" His voice cut through the silence besides the sound of the boiling pot of water on the stove. Your quiet and minuscule sobs reached his ears and you did your best to conceal them, almost ready to laugh at yourself in this state, "Oh.. U-uh no i-it's just the on-onion.. con-continue please To-Tomoe." You stuttered with burning cheeks, once again.

Tomoe sighed and placed his kitchen utensils down, turning to face you where he caught you wiping your eyes of the fresh tears because of the stinging vegetable in your shaky hand. He grabbed your hand, not softly but also not hard enough to hurt you, turning your body ninety degrees where he made you stare up and into his bright yet compassionate eyes that only held yours as his soft fingers made contact with your moist cheeks to wipe away the salty liquid.

You held in a gasp, feeling in a trance at the feeling of having Tomoe so close as if you were the sole keeper of his attention. His breath lightly fanned over your face and you basked in the feeling, never wanting to leave. The man sighed, glancing down before he looked into your eyes again after your eyes and face were now clear of tears because of the cursed food.

He continued to hold your face in his hands and as much as you didn't want to, you opened your mouth to tell him before the Lady's and Mistress's came in the kitchen but you didn't because he spoke first, "Idiot, crying because of some onion and you interrupted me. May I finish now?"

He didn't wait for you to answer because he simply allowed you to close the distance between you both. His eyes wide, staring into yours that were scrunched closed before he melted. It was impulsive and completely random but you also didn't regret it. Only feeling slightly brainless because you interrupted him again and also with a short kiss.
You immediately pulled back, both yours and his eyes wide with wonder and shock because of your mindless action that rendered you both silent as you thought about what really happened and how tingly your lips began to feel, his taste and touch still lingering.

"I- Oh my Go- Tomoe I'm so so-sorry!!" You let out all at once, cringing at the loudness of your voice in the previously silent kitchen. Tomoe also cringed, his large ears more sensitive to the loud sound before he rolled his eyes, looking tiresome because of your unpredictable behaviour as he silenced you more forcibly than most likely intended.

He kissed you, hard too. It was sweet but it wasn't, revealing his feelings after these interruptions. It seemed as if he was embarrassed because he only wanted to let you know how he really felt and he only got interrupted and it began to irritate him to the point of insanity. You were pushed against the counter behind you, his hands still gentle as they caressed your face.

His tongue lightly reached yours, earning a groan to emit from your mouth as you felt his lips curve up against your mouth. Oxygen was a need that annoyed you as the white-haired male let you breath when he moved back.
He leaned his forehead on yours, smiling slightly at the sight of your large eyes in awe with a red face. He thought you were cute and all you could think about was how god damn attractive he was and ravishing him.

"I wanted to say, I also love you, okay (Y/N)?"

Smiling, you connected your lips once again, "Hmm."

... Though not as long as they are worthy of being chased after.'

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(G/N) ~ God's Name.
(G/T) ~ God Type.
(Y/N) ~ Your Name.
Kami ~ Divine Being.
Onibi- Warashi ~ Will-o'-the-wisp Child.
Sake ~ Traditional sweet, low-alcoholic Japanese drink made from fermented rice.

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- Oriana__3 (A sucker for white haired people - Tomoe & Killua Zoldyk <3 etc)