(A/N): Don't play song until I say, I honestly thought about this but I was like what the hell, let Vanoss Rap. 😂, this maybe a little long. Enjoy.

3rd Person POV
The raven haired Asian man smiled at the amount of subscribers that came when he got his girlfriend. She lived a couple blocks away but ever since they got together, it was like magic, the subscribers came rolling in, I guess you could say he was succeeding with her. But here's the catch, Evan has never really seen what his girlfriend looked like, it was just like those 'Hey wanna go out?' Because of the sound of her voice, but now it all changed when he got a Skype call from her, showing her beautiful features. "Wow, you look amazing," she blushed "Better then what I expected." Her heart cringed in pain a bit but she shook it off. They chatted throughout the night, until one of them eventually fell asleep.
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Evan looked out his window, seeing the sun again, like always. It used to rain a lot when he looked out his window but now with (Y/N), the sun was happy to show itself too. As he looked out, he remembered her (E/C) eyes, how they would make him believe that she was his heaven and that heaven was real. His lips formed into a smile just thinking of it. Evan frowned though, cause he was lying to her. He told her that he was an artist that grew up in California and not a YouTuber that grew up in Canada, he thought that lying to her would be ok, but little did he know that it just made it worse.
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"I think we're crazy in love." (Y/N) smiled at Evan through the camera. "Yeah,Yeah, whatever." Evan said, focusing on his bills. "Do you need help? She smiled again and he sighed in annoyance. "No. Now shut up." "Why are you pushing me away?" He looked at her and put his mouse over the end button, "I'm not pushing you away, I'm shoving your way." And with that, he ended the call. She was hurt but she didn't care, she thought it was a faze.
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"What the hell are you doing?" She asked angrily at Evan who was pouring gasoline on her car in GTA. "Having fun." He giggled as he set it on fire. "You prick! I hate you!" She ended the call, Evan felt his heart crack, did she care that she hurt him? Better yet, do they care that they hurt each other?
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"Go away Evan, stop calling me." She said as she crossed her arms. "Why are you pushing me away? Like you don't even know me?" "Oh, I'm pushing you away?! You did the same thing to me! Fuck off!" She hung up and he leaned back. He really did love her, with all his heart, he truly did.
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He missed the times that she came over, when he would just hold her and kiss her and run his finger through her hair, he didn't know how he could do her so wrong. He really wanted to hold her, he really needed to know her like no one else could know her. She was his number one, always in his heart and he cant I that their love was being torn apart. He just wanted to hold her and kiss her cause the truth is, he really missed her.
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He sat on his couch, running his fingers through his hair, upset because she found someone else who can treat her right. It made him sick to think about them holding hands and him getting the kisses that he wanted, it jut made him break down in tears. The thought of them holding hands shatters his heart, breaks his soul and tears him apart.
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The subscribers he lost was all to much and now he was really scared to show her and tell her who he really was because he knew that she would never even think of getting back with him. Her name was forever planted in his brain and without her, the world around just seemed all to strange.
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He was crying again from the hurt and pain and he just wanted to make it work between them again. He remembered when she would tell him she loved him and look into his eyes right before the warmest hug she gave all day. Now he's assuming that everything she said was a lie and thinking about brings more tears to his eyes. But to her, he wasn't even a thought in her mind.
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Evan just wished could have turned out differently cause he had a special feeling about her and he thought that maybe she felt the same. But no matter what happens, if her and her new boyfriend do get married, she always remain in his heart. He still remembers the first time they met, it was magical, and the first time she came to his house, she looked like an angel wearing that blouse. They were doing perfect if it wasn't for him and now he can't stand the pain that he feels.
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"What Evan?" She snapped. "Please, reach in your heart, I know I'm still there. I hate hearing how you say you don't care. Remember the time? Remember our kiss? I'd never think you'd do this. I kept quiet, I knew you never liked to see me depressed, so I thought you would be there for me." "I said you were my best friend-" "Was that a lie? Cause now I'm nothing to you cause your with another guy! Cause now I try, I try, and I'm trying but the inside it feels like I'm dying." "Evan wait!" He hung up and went to his room, locking the door. "You were my everything and I really miss you." He whispered before breaking down. He looked up and walked to his recording room again, "And I do miss you. I just thought we were meant to be I guess now, we'll never know." He said as he turned and locked his door, then sitting down in front of his face cam. He sighed and looked at the camera.
"Hey guys, Vanoss here, and today I'm making a video/face reveal for you guys. Actually, mostly for someone else, so here it goes. Hope you like it (Y/N)." He took a deep breath before starting the song.

[Play]

'This goes out to someone that was once the most important person in my life. I didn't realize it at the time..

I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don't really expect you to either..

It's just..I don't even know..just listen...

You're the one that I want, the one that I need, the one that I gotta have just to succeed.

When I first saw you, I knew it was real, I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel.

That wasn't me; let me show you the way. I looked for the sun but its raining today. I remember when I first looked into your eyes, it was like God was there, heaven in the skies.

I wore a disguise cause I didn't wanna get hurt but I didn't know I made everything worse.

You told me we were crazy in love, but you didn't care when push came to shove, if you loved me as much as you said you did then you wouldn't of hurt me like I ain't shit.

No you pushed me away like you never even knew me. I loved you with my heart, really and truly.

I guess you forgot of the times that we shared, when I would run my fingers through your hair. Late nights, just holding you in my arms I don't know how I could do you so wrong.

I really wanna show you, I really need to hold you, I really wanna know you like no one else could know you

You're number one, always in my heart. And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart. I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you, you were my everything and I really miss you.

I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you, you were my everything and I really miss you.

I know your gonna sit and play this with your new man, and sit and laugh as you're holding his hand. The thought of that just shatters my heart, it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart.

At times we were off I was scared to show you now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you. Without you, everything seems strange, your name is forever planted in my brain.

Damn it, I'm insane, Take away the pain, Take away the hurt. Baby, we can make it work. What about when you looked into my eyes told me you loved me as you would hug me.

I guess everything you said was a lie. I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes. Now I'm not even a thought in your mind. I can see clearly, my love is not blind.

I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you, you were my everything and I really miss you. I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you, you were my everything and I really miss you. '

"I just wish everything could have turned out differently..I had a special feeling about you, I thought maybe you did too and you would understand but.. No matter what, you'll always be in my heart, you'll always be my baby." He smiled, teary eyes.

'Our first day, it seemed so magical. I remember all the time that I had with you. Remember when you first came to my house? You looked like an angel wearing that blouse.

We hit it off, I knew it was real. But now I can't take all the pain that I feel. Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there I don't wanna hear that you no longer care.

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed? I didn't think you would ever do me like this. I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed, I thought you'd be there for me, this I confess.

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie? Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy. I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying now on the inside it feels like I'm dying. I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you, you were my everything and I really miss you.

I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you, you were my everything and I really miss you. '

"And I do miss you, I just thought we were meant to be. I guess now, we'll never know. The only thing that I want is for you to be happy, Whether it be with me, or without me. I just a want you to be happy.."

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Evan smiled as he took off the cap to the pills and swallowed, he fell to the ground, his body already feeling limp. He helped himself up on the desk again and hit end, also uploading it before he fell again, this time never getting up. Thought, little did he know, that (Y/N) didn't laugh at his video, she was the first to see it and cry. "I'm really sorry, I miss you too.."

(A/N): Ooooooh! When I ended with the 'too' it said '2015 words' what a coincidence!! It doesn't say that anymore but tang was awesome! Hope you enjoyed!
~Claw😎   

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