/⁠ᐠ⁠｡⁠ꞈ⁠｡⁠ᐟ⁠\ warning : mentions of blood , throwing up , harsh words . The characters in this story does not depict what they are in real life .

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Jin heard everything . Everything that the doctor remarked about Jimin's situation . Not from the members ; he had been standing outside Jimin's room from where he could here them .

A pang hit his heart when the doctor said that the younger mustn't dance for atleast 2 weeks . Jin felt extreme guilt creep through him as he tried not to break down again . He felt really bad for the younger as he know the hardwork and effort that he poured out these days to give a flawless performance for their fans .

He got startled when the door was opened revealing their personal doctor . Jin greeted him with a smile and bowed to him who returned the same . The doctor would always talk with him and ask about his well being but this time he just left without speaking anything .

Maybe the members would've told him .

He heaved a heavy sigh , still concerned for Jimin . From what he heard , it was a minor burn but since Jimin was tired and weak , his body couldn't tolerate the pain . A well needed rest and refraining certain physical activities was advised by the doctor .

Just as he was about to walk from there , others opened the door revealing Jimin who seemed to be slightly limping even though he was balanced by Taehyung and Hoseok . All of them seemed to be dressed like they are off to somewhere . Jin furrowed his eyebrows in confusion as he approached them ,

" W-Where are you guys going ? "

" It's none of your business "

" But Yoongi-ah , I have made--"

" Oh please , we don't want your fake concern . What you did now was more than enough for us " , Jin couldn't hold anymore as he was lost in his words . His heart is too pure to handle this amount of hatred .

Once , when people who claimed themselves to be army spread hate about him everywhere , he couldn't handle it and went through a minor depression for a short period of time . That time it was his members who stood beside him and supported him through it .

" Y-yoongi , please listen to me , I really didn't mean- "

" NO !! Stop right there , don't approach us !! " , Jin got scared of his deep voice and his legs became glued to the ground as if stopping in his tracks abruptly .

Yoongi heaved a big sigh before continuing , " Can I say something ? To be honest , I am scared when I got to know about your condition . Not for you but for my members . What if ......what if one day you harm them for your cravings ? I-i can't tolerate that . The moment I get to know about this I actually wanted to warn you to stay away from my dongsaengs . I regret for not telling you this earlier . Because of my careless actions Jimin is now injured .

So now I took a decision ,

Promise me that you'll stay away if you are really sick , if you are not then prove yourself that you are worthy of being called BTS "

Jin was stunned at his words . So this is what he was thinking the whole time . Maybe this is what everyone around thought when he got this condition . They were putting up a fake façade around him . He became a fool infront of them .

On the other side , Jin was really hurt beyond his breaking point . His members was his everything . Without them , he had no idea on how to survive in this world full of hypocrites . Not only Jin but other member especially Hobi was surprised at Yoongi's words .

Hoseok knew him longer than anyone except for Namjoon . Maybe Yoongi was too angry to watch out the words he spoke to Jin . Hoseok knew Yoongi didn't mean it . Somewhere , he also knew that Jimin's injury would also be an accident considering the carelessness of the young dancer . To be Frank , he also got sad when he saw the hurt expression in his bestfriend's face . His thoughts were interrupted when Yoongi spoke ,

" Why are you so silent ? Promise me Jin "

Jin closed his eyes to calm himself in order to not burst out in tears in front of them . He swallowed the lump in his throat before speaking with a cracked voice , " I-I pro-mise "

Yoongi gave a stoic expression to him and signalled everyone to follow him . He twisted the knob to step out of his room but stopped dead in his tracks when he heard Jin's words .

" So y-ou always t-think a-bout me l-ike that "

To say Yoongi felt hurt was an understatement , however his anger overtook his soft spot for his only hyung .

He didn't speak anything anymore and stepped out of the room with others following him .

Everyone thought that Yoongi was talking about Jin's lethargic involvement in group activities except for Hoseok who knew that this was something more serious . There's gonna be a long talk between Yoongi and Hobi regarding this matter .

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Jin's body shook and trembled as he stiffled his tears . He was picking the broken pieces of ceramics with his bare hands . His sensitivity to sharp objects made his palm draw blood which blended with the spicy red hot soup .

The event kept on replaying on his mind taunting him like an unforgettable nightmare . He couldn't hold on anymore and burst into silent tears . His body trembled more violently now as he struggled to supress his tears .

The pain on his hand felt nothing compared to the inner storm that was forming in his chest . Tears fell on his face as he slumped against the dining table feeling defeated . He really can't do this anymore .

He wiped his tears with his forearm and continued his cleaning . When he stretched his trembling hands , he noticed blood on his forearm which he used to wipe his tears .

He wiped his tears with the other forearm and gasped loudly when he saw blood again . He could feel his fangs coming and his body turning pale . A tremendous panic went through him and he wasted no time to get up and run towards his room .

He then went inside the bathroom and saw his face in the mirror . A shrilled scream left his throat when he saw that he was shedding blood tears .

The impact of the scream caused every fragile mirror to crack into pieces of shards just like his heart . He violently wiped his tears as his panic level rose to maximum . He let out painful sobs after seeing his reflection from the broken mirror .

Every tears that came out was blood which covered his pale face continuously even though he wiped off now and then . This sight of him made his stomach churn and he knelt infront of the porcelain toilet bowl to throw up .

He dry heaved since he didn't eat anything which made his throat burn with pain . Once again , he cried at his miserable state feeling pathetic at his life .

All of a sudden , his phone rang in his pant pocket . He was too broken to even answer the calls but something in his mind urged him to pick it up . Hence , he answered without looking at caller ID .

" SeokJinnie , my son , Happy Birthday dear "

He immediately recognised the voice , it was his mother . Did she just wish him birthday ? Jin tried hard to keep steady and asked her , " b-birth-day ? "

" Yes !! Don't tell me that you forgot you birthday again SeokJin-ah , that is why you shouldn't overwork yourself and concentrate on your health . By the way , why is your voice hoarse ? "

" I-i've been sleeping eomma , it's 12'o clock right now "

" Oh no , my baby was sleeping . Sorry eomma forgot that it was 12 am . Since it's my youngest child's birthday I had to wish him or I won't get any sleep "

Jin clasped his hands to his mouth trying hard not to let out a sob . But deep down , he wanted to run away and hide in his mother's embrace . Unfortunately, he let out a sob which made his mother concerned.

" Jin-ah , Is something wrong ? Are you crying ? You know eomma is always there for you "

Jin shook his head and softly uttered still crying making the other worried .

"J-just mi-ssed y-ou , e-omma "

" Aww , are you crying for that ? Don't worry when you return home this holiday , eomma will shower you with lots of kisses and hugs . I will treat you like my prince when you get home . Don't bother about your hyung and appa . I will kill them if they tease you "

SeokJin couldn't help but laugh in between his cries as he choked on his tears .

" Now my son , don't stain your handsome face with tears , got it ? "

" Yes , eomma "

" One more thing , promise me that you will return home during holidays . Everyone misses you "

Jin don't wanted to promise on that . He already agreed to Dr.Yun that he will come for treatment during holiday . He internally apologized to his mother and crossed his fingers .

" I promise eomma "

Little did he know that this was the last promise that he would break .

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