Lana's pov

When I finally gather the courage to get out of bed I walk downstairs and look for my kids.

How could I forget that jimin also meant so much to them.

J wasn't so sad. He was still young so he didn't really understand what was going on.

Minji in the other never left her room. Tae had told me he slept inside her room a few times because her loud cries would wake up everybody in the middle of the night and she needed someone to comfort her.

Lanie was depressed. Jungkook did everything to help her out but nothing was making her feel better. Instead he gave her space and took care of Eunwoo since she wasn't stable to do it.

"We have to make a funeral" Namjoon says as I sit in the couch looking down.

"With what? There's no body to burry."

"We're going to burry his favorite things." -Namjoon

"We have to do it soon before the world finds out. I paid the airport to stay quiet." -yoongi

I felt my warm tears slide down my cheeks. I hated this so much.

I'm never going to forgive you for this.

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It was a new day. Today was the day we burry 'jimin.'

We all had our black outfits on. J sense my sadness and that's when he realized daddy wasn't coming back.

He cried for a while but the guys did their hardest to comfort him which worked.

I haven't told dad about jimin yet. I was scared. I was afraid of him asking me to return home.

It was going to be hard to leave this house behind. The house where all my memories with jimin took place. The house where my children were conceived and raised.

I can't leave the boys behind either. Not when they lived with jimin all their life.

"We're going to burry it in the backyard near the garden." Hoseok said looking at me with red eyes.

I nod and grabbed j's hand to walk to the backyard with the others.

Lanie was holding her chimmy plushy that jimin gifted her and Minji was holding roses.  I in the other hand had a candle.

The coffin was open. It was empty but each one of us placed in it something that reminded us of him or his favorite stuff. I placed 2 letters.
One I wrote for him in high school and never gave it to him and the other one was about how much I was going to miss him.

When Taehyung puts his final gift in it Namjoon closes the coffin and Jin lowers it to the ground.

My heart ached terribly. I no longer felt sane. I didn't notice how my vision went into a dark red when my tears came out.

J didn't stop looking at me when he realized I was in dark vein mode. I kneeled to be close to his height and he used his sweater to wipe my bloody tears.

"Mommy's okay." I say trying to smile at him.

"Daddy will be watching us."

I nod and burst out crying. Jin kneeled next to me and hugged me super tight. Jungkook joined hugging me from the other side.

"You have us. You won't ever be missing anything." -Jin

"Thank you guys," I say wiping my tears. "Since jimin is no longer here to be boss I think one of you guys need to step up and take the lead."

The guys looked at each other before looking down at me.

"Don't count me in." Taehyung said putting his hands in the air.

"Nor me." -jungkook

"I think Namjoon works well with this stuff since you were Jimin's helper in the office." -hoseok

"I agree." -yoongi

"You should be his helper yoongi." -Jin

"There you go we have it solved already." -jungkook

"I'll let you guys figure it out I'm lightheaded I need to go lay down."

Hyuna walks by my side and attached her arm with mine to walk me inside.

She laid down next to me and played with my hair until I fell asleep.

When I woke up in the night I walked downstairs to find everyone chilling in the kitchen.

"Why are you guys partying?" I ask confused.

"Lana." A deep voice calls catching my attention.

"Dad."

"You're awake. I've been waiting for you to wake up." He was sitting in the table looking straight at me.

I passed by the boys and stare at them trying to figure out if they told him about jimin.

"It's strange when you sleep for a whole day. You hated afternoon naps." He smiles. "Are you pregnant again?"

A frown appears in my face and my dad noticed it. "Are you okay Lana?"

I was fighting my tears and the urge to run into his arms to let everything out.

"I-" my voice cracked due to the lump that had formed in my throat.

He furrowed his eyebrows at my strange behaving and when I can no longer hide my feelings I became a crying mess.

Dad was quick to get up from the chair and come to my side. "Honey what's wrong?"

"I-it's jimin." I cry trying to wipe my tears that would not stop coming out.

"What's wrong with him?" He cups my face holding me firmly so I can make eye contact with him but I was forcing my head down due to the tears.

"He left me." I say looking at him.

"What?" He asked confused.

"H-he's dead."

His hands become lose from my face and his eyes become glossy as he looks at me eye to eye.

"Wha- how?"

"His plane crashed and there was no remainings of anyone who was on it due to the explosion." -Namjoon

"Oh god I'm so sorry Lana," dad says hugging me. "I'll be here with you. I'm going to help you get through this I promise." He reaches his hand out signaling Minji, lanie and J to join.

When they run into the hug he kisses each of our heads and rubs our back. "I'm going to help all of you through it I promise."