Chapter 263 Sadness

The next morning Yuki gets up before Zero does getting the kids breakfast and cleaning up the mess from the night before. Zero comes downstairs. She gets him some breakfast. Being nice, but he can see something is still very wrong. "I know it's my day off today, but I think. I will go to the Cafe anyway. I don't have anything to do here." Yuki states. "Are you sure? I think you can do with the day off." Zero says. "The kids are in school and you're at work. I am just here alone. I will get some work done there and be around people. I will see you tonight" Yuki says kissing him on the cheek.

Zero heads to work as well. Still wondering. What is on her mind. When he gets there Yagari is waiting to hear the verdict."So what happened? Did she ravish Kaname?" Yagari laughs. "No, she didn't go near him in that way. But something is wrong. She just watched there child and got really upset. The child was her main focus. Not Kaname."Zero states. "I knew you were going to open a can of worms. You need to stop this." Yagari says. "Yea I am seeing this. I just wonder. What she was thinking. What is that the child was Kaname's? Zero asks. "I have no idea. You are playing with the woman's emotions. What the hell do you want from her? I think if she was going to screw Kaname, she would of already." Yagari states. "Maybe. She did cuddle up to that damn wolf last night. She hung on to him for dear life."Zero states. "Maybe. She feels that's the only thing she has." Yagari comments. "Shit. I guess I really screwed up." Zero says. "You sure did!" Yagari responds.

Zero thinks about this all day. Feeling he really messed up. He can't stop seeing Yuki's face from last night. What was bothering her? He can't take it anymore. He leaves work and goes to the Cafe. Walking in. Seeing her sit by the window, just looking out. LIke so many years ago. The happy bubbly Yuki not there. A piece missing. So into her inner thoughts. She didn't even notice Zero walked into the Cafe.

"Hey, babe." Zero says. "Oh, Hey Zero. I didn't see you come in. Sorry." She answers. "Babe are you ok?" Zero asks. "Yea. Fine." SHe answers. "Look, I know something is up. I wish you would talk to me. I know. I haven't been the best lately. I want to say. I am really sorry. I let a lot of things get to me. Things that weren't even happening anymore." Zero states. "It's ok. I know you're dealing with your own things. You don't need my crap on top of it." Yuki states. "Yuki does it bother you to be around Kaname's child. Because you wish it was yours and his?" Zero blurts out. "No, Not at all. I already have two children with him. " Yuki answers. "Than what was it last night.? I saw it all over your face." Zero responds. "They were there talking about teething and all milestones. It reminded me of when we had ours. That we won't be able to ever have any more. That time for us is over. It just bothered me. I know we said we wouldn't have any now. But we always had it open for the future. Now with what happened, that is taken away. I don't want to be around them with the child Zero. I know its not fair to them. Just right now I would rather not. " Yuki states.

 Zero feeling terrible. "It looks like that bothered you more than us not able to have sex." Zero admits. " To be honest it did. I am over that part about sex. I'm happy with you. I will get over this part too. It's not like we don't have enough kids. It was just the thought that it was taken away. It's one thing to say you don't want them. And another not able to. "Yuki answers. "Well, to be honest, we haven't tried in a long time. Maybe we should. To see if anything is working." Zero says. "I don't want to set you up and it doesn't work." Yuki says. "We will never know unless we try." Zero comments. "True." Yuki says.

Zero seeing still a sadness. Not even the trying to make love changed her mood. She is so sure now that it won't work. She doesn't even want to try. This isn't what he wanted. He didn't want to break her. Hurt her. He let all his insecurities take over. He had no power and was vulnerable and this was a way to have control. He just did it to the wrong person. He knew if she ever figured out he lied. She would be pissed.