Chapter 202 Let go of the Fear.

Its been two weeks, since Kaname and Rai have been gone. Each night since, Yuki will make dinner and wait for Kaname's call. They sit on the phone talking like two School girls. Telling each other how their day went. What happened? What's new? Zero just shakes his head and goes into the bedroom. Sleeping alone. She stays on the phone until she knows Zero is asleep. Then she crawls in going to sleep herself.

"it's been two weeks since I been gone. How is your back?" Kaname asks. "It still hurts now and then." Yuki admits."How are you and Zero doing?" Kaname asks. "We are ok. He works a lot. I have been tired and going to bed early. We don't get a lot of alone time." Yuki confesses. "You two? Bet that doesn't stop you two jackrabbits." Kaname chuckles. "Not, Funny Kaname. Actually, we haven't since that night." Yuki admits. "What? That's like three weeks. Is that a record for you two?" Kaname chuckles louder. "I am glad you find this amusing. I don't seem to want to." Yuki says in a low voice. "I guess. I wouldn't want to with someone who threw me across the yard either." Kaname states. "Kaname, I'm serious. I don't have that...Desire. Something is wrong." Yuki says. "You can't make love and let go with someone. You fear Yuki. You need to talk to him. Let the fear go. If you don't your never going to get that back."Kaname states. "If I bring things up. it's only going to start a fight or make things worse. I am just trying to work through it myself. I am hoping this passes."Yuki admits. "If you say so. I don't see that working out well."Kamane replies. "Enough about me. What about Martha? Have you heard from her? Are you missing her?" Yuki asks.

 "I talked to her before I left. She thought it was a good idea as well. The separation. I do Miss her. I just don't know if that's going to be enough to make this work."Kaname responds. "I think you need to take some of your own advice. You need to let go. Maybe when you come back. You take her out to dinner. Let her meet Rai. Try to show her you want her in your life." Yuki comments. "That is a big step Yuki. Letting her met Rai. I don't want to hurt him." Kaname states. "How can you hurt him? You just say this is my friend Martha. She works with Zero. How hard is that? Your not afraid of hurting Rai. Your Afraid of hurting yourself."Yuki remarks. "Well, aren't we the pair?" Kaname responds. "Yea. We sure are. I will talk to you tomorrow. I am tired. You get some rest Kaname." Yuki replies. "Night my girl. I will call you again tomorrow night." Kaname responds.

Yuki hangs up the phone, Checking on Anna and Kj before heading to bed herself. Tonight Zero still up reading the paper in bed. "Hey, Babe. How is Kaname tonight?" Zero asks. "He is good. He misses Martha. Just still scared to give in. I guess he is as bad as me." Yuki Replies. "Looks that way. It might have taken a while, but I did get my Yuki back."Zero says with a smile. "Yea, you did." Yuki says getting into bed. "I am sure Kaname will let go too. This is all new to him. Martha is beside herself. She hasn't been herself since he left. She is so upset, I find her crying at her desk." Zero explains. "Oh, that's terrible. I feel so bad for her." Yuki comments. "Me too. I am just so glad it's not us anymore. I am happy we are over whatever that was. It's great coming home to you every night."Zero says. Moving closer to Yuki. "I am glad we are over that too. I like us being in our own home together." Yuki responds. "So is this every night calling going to be for all the time? I would swear the two of you are teenage girls. Rattling on about everything. I never saw Kaname as that type."Zero Chuckles. "We enjoy talking together. I am sure once he is home, and back with Martha, it will stop. He will want to do other things, then talk on the phone with me." Yuki replies. "True. I wouldn't mind the other things as well." Zero states. Moving even closer to Yuki. Zero kisses her on her lips. 

Inside Yuki trembles. Fear running through her. Doing her best not to let Zero notice. "Zero, Can I have a raincheck? I am just really tried. Can we just lay close together?" Yuki asks. "Sure babe. If that's what you want. Are you sure everything is ok?" Zero asks. "Yes. Just tired." She replies. Her heart beating fast. She gets close to him laying her head on his shoulder, putting her arms around him. Zero kisses her head and holds her close. Wondering what is wrong. This isn't like her at all. It's been three weeks. Normally we can't go three hours. He lets it go. Feeling it could be nothing. She isn't bolting for the door or doing her cold shoulder. Whatever it is. Things will be fine.