Chapter 79 Part 2

Zero sees that when she is deep in sleep, how her body moves close to snuggle with him. How her head just lies on his chest and her arms wrap around him tightly. Like they use to. He can tell she is taking in his scent as she nuzzles her head close. The soft blanket covering them both. This is the closest they have been in almost two years. Zero for the first time since then loving her being this near him. Not wanting it to end. He just couldn't have her go to Kaname's bed. Making love to him, instead, when deep down he knows its for him. She just won't give into herself. Zero doesn't fall asleep. He just enjoys her being this close to him. Watching her peaceful rest in his arms. Knowing something has to be there besides just desire.

The morning comes, Yuki stirring around in his arms. Still snuggled up close. Lifting her head to look at his face. "I guess I fell asleep. I'm Sorry." Yuki says. Moving her arms away from his waist. Sitting up normally. "It's ok. It was nice. For the first time in a long time. I felt where I was supposed to be." Zero states. Yuki just gives him a light smile. Standing up. "I need to take my shower and get ready for the day. I also need to let Kaname know I am home. I am sure he was worried all night." Yuki states. "He knew you were on the grounds. So I am sure he knew you were back in the house." Zero answers. "True, I just try not to spend the night away from him," Yuki replies. "I see." Zero answers. Not sure what else to say. Knowing she still feels safer with Kaname. That he is her go to feel loved. Still not knowing why that fully was. Zero felt she was hiding some of her feelings. Why she truly wouldn't give into. Get close to him.

Yuki goes upstairs walking in, to sleeping Kaname. Going over to him giving him light kisses on his lips, nose, and forehead. SLiding over into his arms. "I missed you. You spend the night downstairs?" Kaname asks. "Yes, I fell asleep talking to Zero. He is trying." Yuki admits. Kaname smells her without her knowing. Seeing nothing took place. He keeps his calm. Letting her be open with him. Holding her close to him. Kissing her on her neck. "What set you off yesterday?" Kaname asks. "Wendy. It just reminded me of Nicole. How he slept with her. Was close to her. It hurts me to think of him with someone else. I know. I have no right. Just something yesterday hurt deep within. She took all that we had away." Yuki replies. Cuddling up even closer. "You didn't like me with Sara either. I don't like you with Zero. It's normal not to want to see the one you love with someone else."Kaname answers. "I don't know if I still love him. I don't know how I feel." Yuki responds. Kaname a bit surprised about that statement. "You still desire him. I know you do." Kaname comments. "Yes, It could be just the bonds? Or memories? I am not sure which. I am so confused at times." Yuki remarks. "How did it feel being close to him?" Kaname asks. "Peaceful. Like this calm just washed over me. I could have stayed there forever. I am just not sure if I want to. To fall that deeply for someone is scary." Yuki admits. "Am i going to lose my girl?" Kaname asks bluntly. "No. I already told you. I am never leaving you." Yuki answers. "Is that what you truly want? Or do you feel stuck with me?" Kaname asks. "Its what I want. I know before all I did was try to run away from you. That was the old you. This one is different. Its what I thought our marriage would be. I want to keep our marriage." Yuki says. "What about the one to Kiryu? Are we keeping it? I don't mean just in name Yuki. I mean like it was meant to be?" Kaname asks. "I am not sure. I need time. I am not sure the Real or spelled Zero can handle the way its suppose to be. I understand why also. If I feel that way about Nicole, its how he feels about you. And you about him? I always just hurt the ones I care about." Yuki says closing her eyes.

"I already told you in the past, that I can make this work. I see you do still have feelings for him. I just ask that I'm not the one looking on the outside like last time. That hurt me more, then sharing you. I wasn't sharing you. I never had you. He did. I know you love him more than me Yuki. Your feelings for him take over your whole being. I have seen that this whole time. I have grown to be ok with it. As long as you stay." Kaname admits. "It's not that I love him more. Its I love you both differently. Or loved... " Yuki answers. "If he stays here, sooner or later I am sure your feelings will come back. Unless you truly have gotten him out of your system? I don't think I would be that lucky." Kaname hisses. "Can we just drop this issue? I just want to lay in your arms. I just want to forget all the pain all this has caused." Yuki responds. Kaname pulling her closer, moving his hand around her body. Placing light kisses on her neck down. Enjoying that she offers her body to him, anytime he wants now. Just knowing deep down inside, she does love Zero. She is just too scared to give in to her feelings. The way she loved Zero frightens her. Kaname knows it.