Thoughts? Feelings?

Chapter 60 part 2 Stirring.

The next day, Kaname is at the breakfast table. Happy as happy can be. Zero just stares at him. Wishing he would die. Or at least he could kill him. Knowing neither was going to happen. He just takes a sip of his coffee. Seeing Yuki bring in there breakfast. Kaname not able to keep his emotions to himself. Which was rare. He had to touch her hand or her waist. Just to be close to her. He was more into her now than ever. Zero knew this was bad. It would just make it harder for him in every way.

"Are you feeling better Zero?" Kaname asks. "Not really. I am trying to get something in my system since I only ate a little bit in the last few days. My head still hurts badly." Zero replies. "You can stay in your quarters and relax then. Berta is here if you need anything. " Kaname responds. "Thank you," Zero says. Kaname seeing that Zero isn't being an ass. Which surprises him. He just shrugs it off and moves on. Doing his best not to take anything Zero does too seriously. He got want he wanted, he wasn't letting Zero get in his way.

"My love. Ruka called early this morning. She has some news. She wants to share with us. She will be here along with Kain for Dinner. I hope that's ok with you? She was so happy. I couldn't tell her no." Kaname states. "That's more than fine. I haven't seen her in a while. It will be great to have them here. I will make extra."Yuki says with a smile. Zero seeing how these two are so nice to each other. How things are so different. When he wasn't himself, he really didn't take notice. He really didn't care. But he did now. "Zero will you be here for dinner?" Yuki asks. "I will try to be. I will spend the afternoon in my quarters and try for dinner." Zero responds. "Ok, I will make sure there is enough for everyone," Yuki says. Going off on her own. Kaname going into his Office.

Zero noticing that she doesn't hang around him. She will be nice and let him stay. But the closeness they once shared isn't here. She has more of a closeness with Kaname. Just at the moment, his head hurts too much for him to do anything about it. He just goes into his room and lays down.

When dinner time comes, he comes down. Trying to at least be around her. Knowing if nothing it was something. He takes his seat at the table. The kids there. He gives them both a smile. He loves them both. He sees Ruka and Kain come in. Ruka all happy. They all sit down to a large meal. Yuki made for them all. Zero also seeing how Yuki is now full time with the house and kids. Taking over the manor, like she did the townhouse. How Kaname lets her do anything she wanted. It was a regular marriage. Both of them happy and free together. This was very new and rare for Zero to witness. It's far from what used to be. 

"Its so great to see you two," Yuki says. "Same here. We wanted to share our great news with all of you." Ruka says with a gleaming smile. "Well, Stop keeping us in suspense," Kaname says. "Ruka and I are going to have a baby," Kain admits. "Congratulations," Kaname says. Yuki nods and just smiles. Looking into her plate. Zero sees a bit of hurt go through her. Kaname does the same. Neither of them saying a word at the dinner table. The night goes on, Yuki treating Ruka and Kain very nice. Telling them congregations. Bringing out a big cake to celebrate with. Doing her best to keep her own feelings intact. Once they leave, she goes to clean up.

Kaname goes into his office, there isn't much he can do or say. Since he wasn't supposed to know about the Miscarriage. He has to keep it that he has no idea. Which hurts him in a way. This way he can't support her the way he would want to. 

After Yuki cleans up, she puts the kids to bed. Then goes for a walk on the grounds. Just to get some air. To get some alone time. Zero follows her out. "Hey, are you ok?" Zero asks. "I will be. I am happy for them. They deserve everything good." Yuki replies. "I know that had to hurt you," Zero responds. Yuki stands under the tree. Looking up at Zero's face. A tear sliding down her face. "It did. I know things are not good. That you hate me. But I really did want that child. Your child." Yuki answers. Looking down at her feet. "I know you did. I am sorry. And...I ...Don't...Hate you. I just have a lot of things to work though." Zero replies. Putting his arms around her. Holding her close to him. She lets out all she kept in about the miscarriage. Crying into his arms. He feels terrible. Holding her even more closely. One hand on her head, the other on her back. She sobs letting all the hurt out. Then realizes who is holding her. She pushes her self back. Wiping her tears. "I'm Sorry. I know you don't like being that close to me. I know you see me as a crybaby. ...i "Yuki says. Stopping herself. Walking back to the manor. "Wait," Zero says. Yuki not stopping. She just keeps walking. Disappearing into the Manor. Zero looks for her but knows she went into Kaname's Quarters. He knows not to go in there. He also knows all the words he said to her, are sticking. Its also stopping her from being close to him. This is going to be more than he bargained for. He will have to rebuild her trust. If he even can. At least they had their moment, they should have had. When the miscarriage took place. He wanted to comfort her. Tell her how sorry he was. That he really wanted that child too. She just wasn't giving him that option. She wouldn't stay alone with him for too long. Or get too close to him. He always noticed she was on edge when she was alone with him. Never being her true self. Like if she made a wrong turn, he would do something.  He knew he acted like a fool. Just didn't know he did anything to make her scared of him. Or even act like this. 

Was she scared he would use her again? Scared he would say something to hurt her? Or scared she would give in to him again? He wasn't sure of any of it. Just knew, he damaged there once very loving relationship.