Chapter 26 Part 2 Coldness.

Its been a few weeks since Zero has been at the manor. He spends every day with Ren. Giving him full attention. He will be with Ai as well. Just Ren is who he wants. He wants to make up for the last eighteen months he has missed with the child. He will talk to Yuki when he sees her. Being as nice as he can. Just not really spending time with her to get to know her again. Really having no interest in it. She tries her best to not show him how hurt she really is. It takes everything she has.

One night when Zero is out playing with Ren, Yuki goes into Zero's quarters. Getting in the king size bed. Like she use to after she thought he was dead. Just to cuddle up to his pillow and take in his scent. She can't hold him, so his pillow had to do. It was all she had. While there she just falls asleep.

Zero comes up from putting Ren down for his nap. Seeing Yuki asleep in his bed. Holding his pillow tight. He knows this is hard on her. He feels bad. He just can't help his feelings. Not really appreciating her in his bed either.

"Yuki." Zero says lightly shaking her. Yuki opens her eyes. Looking around at where she is. "Oh, I am so sorry. I must have fell asleep. I am sorry for coming into your private space. It's just something I use to do. After...your death.." Yuki says. "It's ok. This really is your house. So I can't say much." Zero answers. "It's yours as well." Yuki states. "I don't mind if you come in here once in a while. If it makes you feel better. Just please don't do it too often." Zero admits. "I won't I promise. Thank you for taking it so well. I better be going now. You have a nice night." Yuki says. "You do." Zero answers.

"Yuki walks out of Zero's quarters. Her heart beating fast. Her tears not able to stand it. They roll down her face. As she clutches her chest. She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. Trying to gain her composer. After she does, She goes to Berta, Telling her to please make supper as she doesn't feel well. She won't be able to. She goes to Kaname's quarters, getting in bed and cries herself to sleep.

"Thank you, Berta, for dinner. It's odd that Yuki isn't cooking." Kaname says. "Yes, my lord. She wasn't feeling well. She asked me to make you, the kids and Kiryu dinner." Berta answers. "That's fine. I hope she is feeling better." Kaname says. Zero overhearing. "I hope everything is ok." Zero says. "I am sure it is. This is a lot for her to handle Zero. She isn't used to this new relationship you two have. No matter what you two were at least always friends." Kaname states. "I am sorry. I just don't feel anything towards her. I don't like that she hurts but the love you all tell me about. Isn't there. I did find her in my bed this evening. She fell asleep there." Zero comments. "Oh, I hope that didn't make you too upset." Kaname answers. "No, I told her it was fine. Once in a while. Just not to do it too often. I do like my space. I don't want her getting any wrong ideas." Zero replies. Kaname just looks up at him. Not believing what he just heard. Knowing that had to hurt her, its why she isn't here. " I see. I will check on her in a few. You can just lock your door if you feel that way." Kaname responds. "It's her house, it's not really for me to do. We are adults I am sure she won't do it too often. Maybe she will stay away." Zero comments. Kaname just nods. Saying to himself, you really don't know her do you? How she would give anything to be with you.

After Dinner, Zero goes back to his own room. Kaname goes to his quarters, Seeing Yuki sleeping in bed. Knowing this is weighing her down. Something has to give. He just gets in bed and wraps his arms around her. She opens her eyes, wrapping her arms around him tightly. Crying in his arms. Kissing him gently on his lips. "Do you still love me Kaname?" Yuki asks. Feeling empty and lost. "Of course. What in the world ever made you ask that?" Kaname says. "I just needed reassurance I guess. I know this isn't any easier on you. You have been wonderful about the whole thing. I just don't want to lose you too." Yuki says. "You will never lose me. Ever. I am sorry you have to go through this. I never thought he would treat you this way." Kaname answers. "It wouldn't be so bad if he would want to spend time with me. He just does when he has to. It hurts so much to be around him. He is so different." Yuki admits. "It will take time. Its like he just met you."Kaname answers. "It was hard enough to break his walls the first time. It took years. I am not sure I can do it again. Or that he will even let me." Yuki comments. "I am here no matter what you decide. If he doesn't change, I am not sure what to do about our marriage to him. He isn't going to let his son go. What is keeping things quiet is that the child is with us. No one even knows Zero is alive. This makes a lot of new problems." Kaname says. "I am not giving up my son. No matter what. I gave my daughter up once for him. Just to make him happy. I am not doing it again. He wants to see him fine. But he is mine as well." Yuki answers. "I am glad to hear that. We will just take it as it comes." Kaname replies.