Chapter 10 part 2

Its Christmas Morning, Yuki sitting up in the high back brocaded red chair. Next to the fireplace in Kaname's room. She sits there and thinks about years ago. When her and Zero went to the townhouse. That back then was just Zero's apartment. How they spent there first Christmas together after being apart for so long. How she told him, she was going to have Ren. Her eyes well up with tears. How she wished, she could go back to them. Even if it was to get one more hug. To kiss his sweet face one more time. She looks over to the man sleeping in bed. The very handsome man, that has been there for her. Taking care of her, and most of all never leaving her. She is grateful that he is there. She just wishes deep down it was Zero instead. Or at least he was still here. She loves Kaname but nowhere near the love, she has for Zero. It's a different love. One that will never die.

She gathers herself up, taking a half of a blood tablet. The sash going down. Soon there were be none left. She didn't know, what she would do without them. IT was the only thing keeping her going. Keeping her from losing all control. It was like in a way he was still here with her. When she missed him terribly she would take half of the pill. Sometimes it wasn't enough. She craved more of him. She just knew. She had to ration the pills. It would be a hard time for her when they were over. She would truly have nothing left of him.

She goes over to Kaname. Wiping her tears and gathering herself together. Waking him up. "Its time to get up sleepy head." Yuki says. "Its so early. Why?" Kaname says. "It's Christmas. The kids need to get up to open there presents. I will go down and put the coffee on. Why don't you gather the rugrats." Yuki says. Remembering waking up in Zero's arms last Christmas. Them both getting the kids. Opening there presents and being together. The thought kills her. Her heart pains her just by the memories. Ones she hope never fade from her mind. She just does her best to stay on her feet. Not letting Kaname know how hurt she is today. "Ok, I will go get them." Kaname says groggily. Putting on his robe. To walk over to each kids room. Gathering them up.

Yuki goes downstairs putting the pot of coffee on. The kids running down the stairs to open there presents. Wrapping paper all over the place. Yuki just sitting in the chair watching. Not even opening hers. Kaname watching the kids, and her. Seeing she is a bit down. "How about your open this one. It's from me." Kaname says. Handing her a small box. "Ok." Yuki replies opening the box to reveal a diamond stud set of earrings." Kaname they are gorgeous. Thank you." Yuki says. "Very welcome." Kaname answers giving her a kiss. "You didn't have to. You have given me so much already." Yuki says. "I would give you the world if I could. All I really want is for you to be happy." Kaname remarks. Yuki just smiles at him. Knowing he means well. She just isn't sure, she will ever be truly happy again. Not like she was, with Zero. Even with everything they had in the middle of them. Just being with him, made her the happiest.

The rest of the days goes very well. Kids playing with there gifts. Yuki making Christmas dinner. Watching some TV and just spending time together. Zero always on her mind. He always was, no matter what day it was. She would never forget him.