Chapter 62 Kaname's feelings

Back at the Mansion, Hanabusa goes to tell Kaname how things went at the Charity. He walks into a quiet house. Where only the maids are around doing their daily chores. The house was dead, even more now that Yuki was no longer here. It held a coldness to it, one Yuki always saw it had. It just had gotten even darker since she has been away.

"How did the Charity go?" Kaname asks. Sitting at his desk, looking over work files.

 His black shirt half undone, his long brown wavy hair in his face, that looks like he hasn't even been combed.  This wasn't the old put together perfect Kaname. It was the unraveled one. Even having a bottle of red wine finished and it wasn't even noon yet. Drinking only at events was no longer. He drank daily trying to get away from everything that was happening. Even though it did nothing to take the pain away.  At this point, he would try anything.

"It went ok. You know how these things are. They just want your checks." Hanabusa asks. "Did anyone mention me?" Kaname asks. "The stories are still going around but no one asked me anything about them. They were all looking forward to you being there yourself. They were a bit surprised you didn't show." Hanabusa says. "Why, they got my check that should have been enough, like you said. There was no point in going there. They all just want to ask questions about things they have no clue about." Kaname barks. "My Lord, You don't think they will really put your on trail for this?" Hanabusa asks. "Who knows. I don't understand, how they could think, I would kill her. I loved her with everything I am." Kaname admits. "I am not sure either." Hanabusa states. "Was he there?"Kaname spats. "Yes, he was the one monitoring it. He didn't say anything, he was just there doing his job."Hanabusa says. "What about this so-called wife?" Kaname says.

"Yes, she was there. Some blonde. I didn't get to talk to her. I just know she was there with him. Its no one we know, he must have met her in China." Hanabusa admits. "That bastard gets to have a life. To start over, to be with someone he cares about." Kaname hisses. "My Lord. I know you loved her dearly, but maybe you should do the same. It would be good for Ai to see you move on." Hanabusa mentions. "I am not looking for anyone. No one could make me feel like she did. She was my soul mate. We were bonded from birth. I just let other things get in my way. Instead of giving her my time, I regret that most. If I only would have listened to her. I thought we had so much time, I would be able to when I was done doing what needed to be done at work. I never thought she would take her own life. That she would act on her feelings with him. I guess I wasn't paying attention like I should have been. He was supposed to love her so much. He moved on and she is dead because of him. That Bastard!" Kaname confesses.

"I am sorry. I wish things would have turned out better." Hanabusa says. Me to. At least I have our daughter. She is my life, I know she will never leave me. She sees me for what I am and loves me anyway. I don't hide with her. I learned that the hard way. She will be queen one day. She will take over my region, and I have every confidence in her." Kaname replies. "She is a lot like you, She will be able to run things a lot more than Yuki ever could. She isn't like her mother much at all." Hanabusa admits. "You mean Native? No, she isn't. She can be caring and giving. I just told her to watch with that. Being a pureblood that could get her into a lot of trouble. People will take advantage of her. She was raised in this, she knows the rules. Yuki wasn't. She was raised as a human. She saw the good in people. Its what I loved most about her. She was kind, she made sure that Kiryu would survive. She always did everything to protect him. I needed him to do the same for her and he did. It just got out of hand. I can't change any of it." Kaname answers. "Going over the past isn't going to fix it either. You need to let go." Hanabusa replies. "I am not sure I can. It is nice to see you again. Thank you for doing me the favor." Kaname responds. "No problem at all. If there is anything else you need me for, just ask." Hanabusa answers. "That will be all for now. Enjoy your family, you never know when they won't be there anymore. "Kaname responds.