Chapter 52 Crossed  feelings

"So what was this about Kaito and you being a thing?" Yuki asks while eating her steak. "Oh that, Some lady we work with was trying to come on to me. When I said no thank you. She said then the rumors were true. I was like what rumors? She said of you and Kaito. I can't believe just because you keep to yourself they think that. Kaito of all things? I could do better." Zero huffs. "She was coming on to you?" Yuki asks.

Not hearing the rest her mind went blank after Zero said it. Zero notices her jealousy and likes it.

"Yes, she was coming on to me. Asking if I needed anyone warm in my bed?" Zero smirks while eating his huge steak and potatoes. "How could she ask you something like that? Be that forward? Thats just rude!" Yuki spats. "Really? I thought it was asking for what you want. Letting it be known. I didn't see anything wrong with it." Zero replies. "I bet you didn't." Yuki huffs. "It doesn't really matter anyway. She thinks I'm with Kaito." Zero chuckles. "Good. That was the best rumor I have heard." Yuki answers a bit pissed. "You do know you have nothing to worry about right?" Zero asks. Yuki doesnt answer. "Yuki you know I was teasing you, right? I wouldn't ever do anything with anyone but you." Zero states.

Yuki still doesn't say a word. She just tries to finish her steak even though now she isn't very hungry.

"Yuki are we ok? I mean, we are not as close as before. You kiss me here and there, but thats about it. You never come over to my side of the bed. Or even initiated any kind of sex. Do you even still want me in that way?" Zero asks. "Of course I do. I am just tired from taking care of our children. You come home beat from work. I feel if I slide over to you, you had a rough day, you need sleep. I don't see you sliding over to me either. You don't even look at me the same." Yuki says sadly a tear in her eye. "Wait? You mean we are just both worried the other is tired? Look at you the same? Really? Tonight I wanted to just take you after watching you come down the stairs. It took me everything to hold back." Zero informs. "Then why didn't you?" Yuki asks. "I wasn't sure you would like that," Zero admits. "So we are just scared the other is going to reject us?" Yuki answers. "It looks that way. We need to be closer and not feel this way. I think we have been friends for so long, it's hard to move it to sex. Even though I want you so badly, I feel like I am going to explode at times. " Zero replies. "I feel the same. We need to tell the other what we want. We need to make this marriage be about us and not only the kids. I want to be close to you. I don't want to lose you. " Yuki admits. "Same here. I love you Yuki." Zero responds. "I love you too. Very much." Yuki replies.

Now both of them feeling a little better knowing that the other still cared and wanted them. It was just them not able to show how they felt. Worried about the other. They saw to make this work, they would have to open up more. Have to be able to show how they felt. Zero still saw Yuki as his childhood friend. The innocent sweet girl, which she was. Just she was also a woman with needs. Yuki saw Zero the same. Forgetting that neither of them were kids anymore. Also letting other things get in the way of being close. It was just something they would have to work on.

Yuki was still scared in a way, the thoughts of what Kaname did to her never really left her. She just tried to push it in the back of her mind. It was another reason she didn't come on to Zero. When they first had sex, she felt in control. She felt herself nothing holding her back. Now was different, she was always scared Kaname might come to hurt them. To do what he did to her before or even worse. She knew she had to push that away. Now the thought that Zero put in her head didn't help her any. Someone coming on to him? Wanting to take him away? She couldn't have this. He was hers and always would be. She had to fix t