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Chapter 5 Pushing back.

Yuki and Hanabusa head back to the manor. Hanabusa can tell, Yuki isn't herself. He knows whatever Zero did say or even do. It hurt her badly. She just wasn't telling him, which surprised him in a way. They told each other everything. Being the closest thing they had to each other since Yuki had no one else.

Back at the Manor, Yuki just heads up to her room, taking her shower and heading to bed. Not eating or even visiting Ai. Her heart and mind everywhere but where it should be. She felt defeated, more alone now than she ever was. She always had hope that someday, she would see Zero. That she would be able to be with him, in some way. Even if it was just as friends again. It would be better than nothing. Instead, he wanted nothing to do with her. He treated her as if she was nothing. They meant nothing to each other, It hurt her through and through.

She wondered if he even read her letter If it meant anything to him, or he just ripped it up instead. Maybe Hanabusa was right? Maybe it was a bad choice to go there. To see him again, even after all he said, She still longed for him. Wanting to be close to him take in his scent. How she missed him. If only he understood, If only he could see all she was going through since she left. That being a pureblood wasn't all he thought it was. How she wished she wasn't one.

The next few days, Yuki just gets into more of a rut. Feeling lower than low. Not only because of Zero but also because of the whole situation. This isn't what she wanted. She needed out of this house. She needed her freedom to be herself. Not what Kaname wanted her to be, not what society wanted her to be. She just never thought it would happen. Hanabusa sees her going downhill. Knowing this wasn't good for her or for Kaname. This could lead to all bad things, he just didn't know what to do.

Later that night, Kaname comes home, finding Yuki sitting in the den. The light of the fireplace lightening up the room. Which was elegant, to say the least, with its burgundy sofa, matching chairs. Dark hardwood floors, covered in riches. Everything in this house was the most expensive things you could ever imagine. Kaname never denying himself of the better things. Making sure they never wanted for anything.

"Yuki what are you doing up this late?" Kaname says walking into the den. Pouring himself a glass of wine.

 "I can't sleep. I am tired of being here, I am tired of this life." Yuki states. 

"What happened now? What do you need? Hanabusa can get you anything you want. Just ask." Kaname responds.

 "You don't understand. I want freedom, I want to be able to walk in the sunlight. Pick flowers, talk to people. Be me, you won't let me. You keep me locked up and hidden away, I am so tired of it." Yuki snaps. 

"You know why you can't go out. It's too dangerous. There are so many who would want to hurt you. I can't take the chance." Kaname replies.

 "You're going to have to. I want to go see my father, I miss him. I want to go to Cross, spend a few days, I will be safe there. He wouldn't let anything happen to me." Yuki comments.

 "What has come over you? Why are you being like this?"Kaname asks.

 "I have been saying this for a while. You just don't seem to hear me. You want to be close to me, but then you push me away. You never let me know who you really are, but you don't let me leave either. I can't live like this anymore." Yuki remarks.

 "I see. I will let you go under one condition." Kaname says.

 "What's that?" Yuki asks. 

"That Hanabusa can come with you. You only stay for three days and come right back. No messing around. You do everything that Hanabusa says." Kaname says. 

"Thats fine. I don't mind Hanabusa coming, as long as I can go." Yuki says.

Kaname walks up to Yuki. Grabbing her and pushing her close to him. Kissing her on her lips. 

"You will never leave me Yuki. I rather you kill me, or I kill you. I can't live without you. Your mine always will be. " Kaname comments.

 "I love you Kaname, I just don't understand you." Yuki answers.

 "I don't think you ever will. I would like that Ai stays here. She will be safer. Hanabusa has enough to take care of with you." Kaname chuckles.

 "That's fine. I just need some time away." Yuki answers.

 Kaname keeping her close to him. Kissing down her neck. His hands on her back. Moving them up and down, being ever so gentle with her. Like he always was. She knew he loved her. She just wanted more.

He picks her up carrying her to their bed. Making slow passionate love to her. Holding her close to him. She falls asleep in his arms, Kaname knowing something is up. That her need to get out of this mansion wasn't good. He figured she would be safe at Cross. Kaien wouldn't let anything happen to her. It's just who else would be there, that bothered him.