Chapter 4 Letter.

"How did it go? You look upset. What did that ass say to you?" Hanabusa asks.

 "Nothing." Yuki answers.

 Holding back her tears, trying to calm her trembling. 

"You don't need to lie to me. I can see right through you anyway." Hanabusa states.

 "He asked me to leave. He is still very mad at me for everything. It will take him time to adjust." Yuki answers. 

"I think you give him too much credit, at least you have seen him now. I hope you got that out of your systems So we can go home and go back to normal. It's not like we can do this often. Kaname will have our heads." Hanabusa comments.

 Yuki doesn't answer, she just looks out the window. Feeling down. Hurting more from this than anything else. She didn't expect him to run into her arms, but at least have a conversation. Maybe be friends again? Not this.

It's a few hours later, Zero still sitting on the sofa in the same position. The food he took home, sitting on his table, now cold. Not touched, as he wasn't hungry. All he thought about was her, which wasn't new. Its all he ever thought about. How he missed her, chasing him around, being as stubborn as she was. Never giving up on him. How he wished so many times he would have told her to stay. Instead of pushing her away, just like he did right now, again. 

"I never learn. I just shut down and push her away. I never listen to what she has to say. I just react." Zero says to himself. Shaking his head. 

 All he could think about was her big brown eyes filled with tears, looking deeply into his. She just slipped through his hands again by his own doing.

The note still laying on the floor under his door. He just looks at it, not sure if he wants to read it or not. If he was ready for whatever it said? He leaves it there, getting up and going into his bathroom. Getting ready for his shower, then bed. He takes off his clothes getting into the hot steamy shower. Letting the water wash away all the stress of the day. 

Yuki still on his mind, and in his heart. Visions of her when she was young, smiling and being silly enter his mind. How she would torture him to drink from her, to keep him alive. He thinks of her soft neck. The blood he craves, how good it was. His blood lust starts up again, after being under control all this time. He does he best to take some tablets to just contain his urges. Knowing it will be hard to try to calm himself down again.

After his shower, he goes back into the living room. Staring at the note on the floor, finally picking it up and placing it on the table. Wondering what it says, he picks it up again sitting on the sofa opening it up.

Zero,

I know. It's been a very long time. I just wanted you to know. I never forgot about you. You are always in my mind and in my heart. I wish I would have done things differently. I wish I would have never left you. I regret it every day of my life. Finally seeing and realizing what my true feelings are. I know you said you hated me for what I become. That you would kill me. I just wish you didn't feel that way. That you felt the same way I feel about you. I hunger for your blood, I hunger for you, even if you don't feel the same. I just needed to say it. I needed to let you know. I am sorry for everything. I hope in whatever you're doing now you're happy.

I love you.

Yuki.

Zero sits there thinking was he reading this right? " Crave my blood? Crave me? Could she feel the same way I do?"

 It bothered him, that she felt he hated her. When in reality he didn't far from it. He loved her dearly. Needing and wanting her so badly he could scream. He just didn't think she felt the same, until now. He knew he needed to talk to her, just wasn't sure how. He knew Kaname would never let him on there property. Not to mention, this isn't something he would want to discuss there. Too many eyes, Too many ears. He knew Kaname wouldn't be too happy with how she felt. Zero wondered if he knew?