Thoughts? Feelings?

Chapter 22 Oh, No.

The next few days, Kaname does his best to be sweet and kind to her. Which only makes her feel worse inside. She knows soon she will work her plan. Leaving him forever. She knows this will kill him. She just has no other choice. He was never one to make things easy, no matter how much he says to trust him. She can't. All she sees is revenge if he finds out the truth. She knew he would take it out on Zero. She couldn't have that. She had to protect the ones she loved. Even if it hurt someone else she loved.

Yuki waits until the end of the week. Not telling a soul what she is going to do. So it will be a shock to even Hanabusa. She has her dinner with Ai and Kaname like every other night. Sitting at the table listening to him speak. His calm sensuous voice, that always sent her into a tizzy.

"I am going to bed early. I will see you later Kaname." Yuki says. Walking up to him. Kissing his head."I hope all is well?" Kaname asks. "Yes. Everything is fine."Yuki responds. "I love you Yuki," Kaname replies. "I love you too, I just never will understand you." She says walking away from the table.

She goes upstairs in her room putting on a pair of jeans and a blue sweater. Talking off her wedding band, earrings and any other piece of jewelry. She goes to say goodnight to Ai telling her she loves her very much. Giving her a very tight warm hug before leaving her room. Taking in the site of the lovely child. She knows she will never see again. A strong pain in her heart appears looking at this small child sleeping in her bed. The only thing that helps her, is knowing that she will be safe. Kaname would die before he let anything happen to her. She would be more than safe with her father.

She goes back into her bedroom, wondering if what she is about to do is the right choice? To leave her daughter and even him. Then she thinks of Zero, being with him. Happy in a regular life with their child. Being and doing things a regular couple should do. Feeling safe. She knows what she has to do. She goes into the bathroom opening the window just a tad. Then heading back into the bedroom near her side of the bed. She sprinkles the ashes. Laying her ring and earrings in the dust. She then gets a dagger, sticking it in her arm, filling it with her blood. Letting it hit the floor. She turns into her Familiar and flies out the window. Saying her goodbyes as she goes. Knowing she will never see this place again or the people in it. Which in a way brings a tear to her eyes.

Kaname is in the living room when he smells Yuki's blood. He panics and runs upstairs. Hanabusa right behind him. He opens the door to see a pile of ash, her clothes, jewelry and dagger on the floor. His heart stops. Falling to the floor, Screaming No. Every window in the house shatters just like his heart. He can't believe what he is seeing in front of him. He never thought she would do this.

 "Why?" Is all Kaname could say.

Hanabusa just looks at him, falling apart on the floor. Holding her clothes. Rocking himself. Never seeing him fall apart like this before. He feels bad.

 "My Lord Please," Hanabusa says. "She hated being with me so much, she killed herself. Did she want him that badly? Did she hate me that much?"Kaname cries. " I don't believe she hated you, my Lord. She just didn't like the things you did. She wanted to be free. I guess now she is." Hanabusa replied. "I hope where ever she is, she is happy now," Kaname says. Just sitting there not able to get up. 

Not able to even think. The woman he loved dearly was now gone. For what he thought was forever. How would he go on with eternity without her?

The morning comes and Kaname is still sitting there rocking himself back and forth. Still trying to process what took place. How he didn't see this coming. He never saw Yuki as the type to take her own life. It just makes him feel worse. Thinking that life with him was that bad, she would do anything to get away from him. Even kill herself and leave their child. It hurt him to his core.

Hanabusa has people come in to take her ashes for burial. Getting them away from Kaname before he comes back to himself to notice anything. Kaname just sits on the sofa in his room, not able to even move. So taken with grief he sees nothing else. He just feels hopeless. Becoming more hard and bitter than ever.