Travis was crushing papers and throwing them on me " So I don't know about this guy you're telling me about huh?"

He scoffed.
I rolled my eyes.
"No you don't. And he needs me."

"Valerie valerie listen" travis spoke in a rush as i packed my bag and tried to walk away.

"That abel guy .... i don't know about him girl he seems sketchy.." Travis warned.

My heart sank. I knew Travis was right. But I also knew what I had to do. Travis was my boyfriend but I never loved him the way I loved abel. I don't know how i managed to roll my eyes and shut the door behind me; it felt like everything was going wrong. Something was. I couldn't put my finger on it.

Vancouver stadium , 9oclock show

Backstage pass.

11/03/11

That's what La Mar had sent me in the text message. It was a 4 hour drive from here. Abel had a gig with Nas. And i didn't for the love of god know why i was being called to the rescue 4 years later and it gave me a pit in my stomach.

I revved the engine angrily and shooted off into the long road.

5 HOURS LATER

"Lamar , I don't see him and you're not telling me where he is so how am i supposed to know!" I raised my voice.

Lamar seemed quieter than usual.
"Where is cash?"

"He won't talk to me! He won't talk to cash! He says he wants you." He replied rolling his eyes... he then signalled me to the bathroom door and told me to go in.

"Why would he call me in the middle of the night after four years I'm not going in." I stared at him blankly. The steadiness of my voice surprised me but the void in my heart grew bigger.

"We don't have much time." Lamar's eyes softened and he cautiously made his way out of the room.

I sat down on the bed in dismay.

I hear a soft whimper coming from the bathroom and that's when my eyes widen.

I knock.
1...2...3

"Abel?"
I wait for 2 minutes in the spazzing silence.
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Warning

I enter the bathroom and to my dismay I was right. Something horrible had happened.
Abel was lying on the bathroom floor, unconscious and had several deep cuts on his wrist.
It's like my worst nightmare came true.
Travis had been blasting my phone with calls and texts - so I broke it. I broke my phone.

I pick abel up and wash his scars. His head was resting against the sink and i'd put my body weight against him to get him to stop falling. I wash his face - twice in a hurry. I had no thoughts in my mind. It's like i'd frozen. I couldn't think ..
. All i wanted is for him to be okay again and then i could think or ask or do or breathe.

His eyes fluttered open and i didn't realise he was staring at me.
I propped him up to face me but he wouldn't look at me.

"Look at me!" I was shivering.
A beat passed by. He looked at me with his red eyes finally. My stomach churned.

"I know I'm a dick."

I couldn't process half the things he said. My ears had- given up. His mouth was moving and he was spewing apologies at me but all i was doing was looking at him up & down at his state.

"- but when i told you not to leave me i was telling the truth." He finished.

I close my eyes.
I close my eyes for little too long.
And soon enough , I know it abel's whiskey flavoured lips touched mine. My heart stopped. My eyes flutter open and it's like i travelled back in time. I was in his arms again.

He tightened his grip around my waist and kissed me, what a tease . I fucking missed him. He kissed me right on the corner of my lips but not on my lips. And it drove me insane.

He. He drove me insane.
I couldn't stop myself. I lock my lips with him and deepen the kiss. I was intending on biting his lip but he was quicker. He surprised me by placing his veiny hands on my chest. I was breathing quicker, slower, my breathing was forced.

He stole my breath away.

I didn't even want to ask him about the scars at this point. I knew it'd be too painful.

"Ba-be" I retract my lips.
"Oh don't you call me babe and come back four years later." He hissed.
He roughly grabbed the back of my neck and started planting fiery, feverish kisses down from my collarbone... to my... shit i stopped counting.

Time slowed.

Before I knew it - the least expected thing happened.

"Dance with me?" Abel purred.
"Abel first tell me who did this to you... " i demanded.

"You." He smiled.

I rolled my eyes and grabbed his already outstretched hand.
He was slow dancing with me.

How did it go from a nightmare come true to a dream come true so fast?

I guess that's the difference between normal boys.

And this... man
Abel.