"How's he doing?" I asked softly, gazing at Cody's sleeping form. His mouth relaxed in an 'o' and his arm was flung across the pillows. Obi-Wan looked up and pursed his lips, staring at the clock on the wall. It had been only twenty minutes since we had fled from the Death Star.

"The lightning not only burned his physical form but his mind as well. Only time will tell. How's your arm?" I shrugged, the white bandage poking out from under my short sleeved tunic.

"It's alright. Thank you," I responded, avoiding his gaze.

"How is Anakin?"

"He's all right I guess. He's in pain and the Force is raging inside him. He doesn't who he is." I rubbed the bridge of my nose. "I can't even be in the cockpit with him right now, as my Force blocking isn't keeping his torment out of my head. Another howl tore through the Force and I jumped.

"Like father, like daughter." My gaze snapped to Obi-Wan as he rolled a knot out of his neck.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"It means, he is able to slip through your mental block because of your shared blood, as well as the fact that his torment is stirring your unease. You don't know who you are either."

"I know exactly who I am," I spat, turning on my heel.

"You keep telling yourself that!" he called after me as I stalked to my personal quarters. A hastily thrown up curtain separated my bed from the rest of the bunks, providing the illusion of privacy. I stooped and gathered a bundle in my arms before I straightened and perched on the edge of my bed. I gently removed two lightsabers from the fabric; one gleaming in the artificial light and the other one's shine dulled from years of use.

I set the newer one on my pillow and stared at the older one, images dancing across my vision. I watched as twelve-year-old Skylar ventured into the caverns on Ryloth, searching for the kyber crystals that would power her very first lightsaber. A silent tear leaked down my cheek and splashed onto my hand as the purple blade bathed the bunk in violet.

Memories of joy and peace ripped through my heart as I ignited the crimson saber, pain swamping my head. I moaned softly as I deactivated both sabers and curled up on my side.

Obi-Wan was right. I growled, punching my pillow in frustration. I hated it when Obi-Wan was right. I thought I was finally at peace with my decision, but once again, I was at war, torn between the light and the dark.

A searing wave of terror tore through the Force and I screamed as millions of lives were snuffed out as I watched the Death Star explode. My head spun as a wave of conflicting emotions washed over me as the Force mourned the loss of the innocent lives but rejoiced as a great darkness was destroyed.

"Skylar?" My curtain was yanked aside and I blinked as Cody's terrified face swam into focus. He collapsed to his knees beside me and stroked my forehead.

"You shouldn't be up," I murmured, reaching up to touch his cheek. He leaned over a brushed his lips over my forehead.

"I heard you screaming. What happened?"

"The Death Star." I shot up, narrowly avoiding bashing my head on the top bunk. "The rebels managed to destroy the Death Star." I grasped Cody's hand and helped him to his feet. "I have to speak with Obi-Wan and my father. But first I have to put you back in bed." Cody leaned heavily against me and didn't protest. He collapsed onto his bed and I cast a worried glance at him as he drifted back into the arms of sleep.

I found Obi-Wan and my father in the cockpit, heads bent together. They both looked up as I walked in.

"You felt it?" I asked. They nodded solemnly and I perched on the chair behind my father. "Now what?"

"We will continue our path to the planet D'Qar to stock up on supplies and lay low for a few weeks while the Emperor and the Rebels make their next moves. We will then track the rebels to their next base and offer our assistance in their battle against the Empire."

"They're never going to trust you," I said, folding my arms across my chest.

"Maybe not, but they know Obi-Wan and they know you, and trust you both. Perhaps they will come to trust me in time through your assurances."

"I'm not coming with you," I blurted, leaning forward.

"What?" Cody leans against the doorframe, clutching his side, wheezing from the effort to drag himself out of bed.

"You shouldn't be here," I snapped, standing to my feet. "You're never going to heal if you don't stop caring about me. I'll help you back to bed."

"No." he limped to the unoccupied chair and lowered himself into it, legs visibly trembling. I scowled at him and sat down with a huff.

"I'm staying on D'Qar. I can't come with you."

"You can't or you won't?" Cody accused, glaring at me. I felt his anger roll through the Force, alongside with his exasperation at my refusal to allow him into my heart.

"I can't, I won't, however you wish to phrase it. I am staying on D'Qar."

"Why?" The question came from Obi-Wan, who had fallen silent when I declared I would be remaining on D'Qar.

"Why what?" I snapped. "Why won't I help you? Why am I being so selfish? Why can't I put the galaxy's well-being above my own like a good little Jedi? Because I'm not a Jedi!" I screamed. Obi-Wan just gazed compassionately at me, waiting for me to let it all out.

I turned to my father. "And I'm not the diabolic Sith apprentice you need me to be either! I don't know who I am, okay?"

I faced Obi-Wan, tears of defeat shining in my eyes. "Are you happy now? You win. I don't know who I am." I collapsed back into the chair, shielding my face with my clammy hands. My shoulders heaved as I felt someone stand and wrap their arms around me. I looked up and stared into the glassy eyes of my father's mask. His mechanical breathing echoed in my ears as he cradled me to his chest. I sighed and let him hold me as I turned to Obi-Wan.

"I can't be the Jedi the galaxy needs me to be. I can never be the Jedi you need me to be. I can't. I've tried for so many years, but it's tearing me apart," I sobbed, begging for Obi-Wan and Cody to understand. A look of sorrow crossed Obi-Wan's face, but he nodded.

"I understand Sky. I do. All I've ever wanted is for you to find your place in this galaxy." I nodded, a small smile creasing my lips.

"Thank you," I whispered. "That means more to me than you could ever know." I then faced Cody.

"I've been a horrible person to you Cody. I've betrayed you, I've nearly killed you and I've taken advantage of your feelings for me. I'm so sorry. I know you'll probably never forgive me." He stood shakily to his feet and knelt in front of me, cupping my chin in his hand.

"I forgive you, my Sky. I love you." I hiccuped and gave him a wobbly smile. He leaned forward and brushed his lips over mine. I inhaled sharply and ran my fingers through his hair. He pulled back and smiled tenderly.

"I love you too," I whispered, pressing my forehead against his. Obi-Wan smiled and my father's pride rolled through the Force as Cody laced his fingers through mine.

My father then stood up suddenly as my ship dropped out of hyperspace. I took my position in the pilot seat and my father settled himself into the copilot seat. We worked in perfect harmony as we prepped the ship for landing. We touched down on the outskirts of Darth On'kayak's compound. A familiar figure stood waiting for us to exit. I lowered the ramp and motioned for the others to follow.

"Welcome back my dear." I smiled broadly and stepped forward into the welcoming arms of Chief Chamundi. He released me and his gaze drifted over my family who stood at the base of the ramp, looking uncertain.

"This is my father, Obi-Wan Kenobi and Cody. My family." Chief Chamundi grinned and shook their hands.

"Now my dear, why don't you tell me why you're here?"

"I have come to learn to balance the Force, once and for all."
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A/N

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