[ a/n : school au because why not? uwu ]

"Soraru-san! Are you going to the cafeteria today?" An albino asked a third year male who's busy reading a book

"Not today, I ate too much at home earlier" Soraru said not sparing a glance at the albino

Mafumafu pouted and looked at the other male who have yellow hair "Senra-kun?"

Senra raised a hand "I'll pass today, Mafu"

Mafu walked out of their classroom with a pout on his face

"You should've gone with him" Soraru closed his book and looked outside

Senra chuckled and looked behind him, seeing you in your headphones, peacefully sleeping

"What are you looking at?" He flinched as he shook his head at Soraru

"Nothing! Just an angel" Senra smiled at Soraru which made him confused

"If you say so" Soraru returned on reading his book

Senra stared at Soraru's back then chuckled "If you only know Soraru-kun"

December 25 

Soraru became aware of your presence and unknowingly fell in love with you

"Merry Christmas Soraru-kun!" You said giving a cheerful smile at him then held out a cute box with harpen-san designs

Soraru stared at the box with his mouth shaped 'o' then smiled "Thank you (Y/N)" He gladly accepted the box

Senra stared at the two of you "I hope you realize already, Soraru-kun"

You and Soraru have cheerful smiles on your faces while enjoying the christmas night then suddenly...

"Hey! There's a mistletoe above Soraru and (Y/N)!" One of your classmate said while pointing at the plant above you

Senra looked at the mistletoe before shouting "Kiss!"

You flinched as you felt two big hands holding your shoulder

As if everything went slow, you felt a warm sensation on your lips

Soraru had his eyes closed while you had wide eyes with warm tears

Senra was agape when Soraru made the first move instead of you

Next year

On the first day of his college, the male went to his chosen college then went on the crowd

He looked for your name at the list of students

You told him that you went the same school as him

But...

He didn't saw your name nor Senra's

He's quite confused but shrugs it off and went on to his class

Time skip

He was already at the train, waiting for the next stop

Then suddenly his phone vibrated, he fetched it in his pockets

7:22 PM

From: Mafumafu

Subject: None

Soraru-san, please come to this address

[Mafumafu sent am attachment]

He raised an brow and saw that the location is in Shinjuku

"What am I supposed to do there?"

Meanwhile

You were hyperventilating in your bed while the doctors are trying to stop your bleeding

Soraru arrived blankly, seeing Senra pacing back and forth

"Senra, Mafu sent me a message to come here" Senra looked at him with dark bags on his eyes

Soraru looked at the doctor who just went out and mentioned Senra to follow him

Senra obediently follow the doctor then gave a signal to Mafu who nodded back

Soraru looked at the albino then raised an brow

"Soraru-san, I want to say sorry" The albino started and tears flooded his eyes "(Y/N)-san, she--" Mafu was cut off when Soraru bursted in your room

He stared at your fragile like figure

Mafu stared at the two of you with Soraru not moving on where he is standing and you with an oxygen on your mouth, heavily inhaling

"Since when?" Mafu flinched and held on his arm

"Since after your graduation but she already told us before meeting you" He held on tightly on his arm "Even before the party, she's been mentally unstable"

Mafu gulped a large amount of saliva "She lost her parents at a young age after that she also lost her grandparents and now, she's been all alone"

Soraru went to you as he hold your hand, tears drip on to your hand as he held on tight

"I'm sorry, I never asked on how you feel" He put his forehead on the top of your hand

Senra arrived holding out a piece of paper in front of Soraru

Soraru took the paper then read it with small tears in his eyes

"Soraru-kun! If you receive this message it means you already know about my condition!

Well, things have been rough when all of them disappeared in my life, I never thought that I would meet a person like you!
You rarely smile at me and Senra
But I never think of liking you...
I've been always watching you from the side

I don't want to disappear too...
I want to see your smile more
I want to hear you sing (if you do)
I want to see those sky like eyes of yours
I want to ruffle your fluffy messy hair

But now, I guess this will be a goodbye Soraru-kun...

I love you!

Also, happy birthday Soraru-kun

Goodbye...

From (Y/N)

Date Written: November 3

Water dripped down at the paper you wrote for Soraru

As soon he was done with reading it

The three of them heard beeps and saw a straight line

Senra closed his eyes as tears caressed his cheeks 'Goodbye, (Y/N)'

Mafu stared at your body with gentle eyes and a smile 'He received your message, (Y/N)-chan'

Soraru gushed out all of his tears as he cried at your pale, cold body

'Thank you for feeling the same, (Y/N)'

Years later

Soraru become the famous utaite and never had a girlfriend even if the boys said to do so

"Soraru-san, every time it's your birthday, we come and visit the same person" Urata said grumpily as he crossed his arms and his tanuki imitated him

Luz nodded his head, agreeing on Urata's statement

"You two, there must be a reason, right?" Shima looked at Senra who's having a gentle smile on his face

"Soraru-san do have a reason and that is also why he rejected Lon-san" Mafu giggled as Lon pouted at him

Soraru caressed your name carved on your grave "Hey, how's it going? I want to tell you that I become a successful utaite and also to say that I want you to hear you sing" He scratched the back of his head "But now, I'll always remember your smile and the way you pout"

He put down a small box "That's a ring, I hope you like it" He stood up and walked towards the others

"Soraru-san, you're crying, you know" Sou stated as Soraru wiped his tears away

Mafu and Senra had their eyes widen while looking where Soraru was

Soraru raised an brow and then looked back

His blue eyes went wide as he saw you sitting above your grave, smiling cheerfully at them

Shima and the others also saw you

"(Y/N)...?" Soraru whispered your name as you went towards him and leaned towards his ear

"I like the ring, Soraru-kun"

Soraru was about to hold you but you disappeared into thin air

"She's beautiful..." Lon said then flinched as she saw Soraru's wet eyes

"She's the most beautiful woman, right?" Soraru's smile was sad but also happiness

"Soraru-kun! Let's walk home together, okay?"

[ a/n: meeeeeep sheet of paper i  wub dis 

also requested by Silent-Daydreamer I'm sorry if it sucks

also sorry again if i only published this now ]