[ a/n: i love this oc of mine uwu]

warning ⚠ cursed words

Were you left alone?

He simply shook his head, disagreeing on his own thought

People tend to ask you if you're okay, right?

What did you say?

"I am fine, there's nothing to worry about" He replied, his pink orbs were no more shine, his cyan messy hair became even more messy

You fool! Why don't you just open up?

"They're going to think that I'm dramatic" He replied to his own thought

Do you think venting this to yourself makes it all go away!?

"Stop!" He covered his ear to not hear anymore remorse

Then fucking open up! You'll never know what it will do!

"Just stop! I don't wanna hear anything anymore!"

Shadows from behind removed his hands away from his ear

His tears continuously falling, his screams on disagreeing is not helping

He saw his own self in front of him

"Stop making this hard for me, self"

"No..."

"AAAAAAAAAAH!" He shot up from his bed and continued on screaming

This alarmed the people in his apartment

"Hikaru-kun!" Senra rushed to his side and held him

But he scratched his cheek making his yellow orbs went wide

"Fuck off!" He exclaimed completely oblivious of who he is talking to

The other utaites stood there, listening to his painful, frustrated, and tired cries

He eventually came to a stop and fell asleep

Urata's tanuki had tears in his eyes as he slept beside the male

Kashitaro punched the wall "Damn it!"

"Just how long is he supposed to suffer?" Lon said looking at Hikaru with a sad frown

Senra pushed away strands of his hair away from his face "Suffering from this kind of thing is hard"

Soraru caressed the dark bags under his eye "What should we do?"

Kradness sighed and leaned against the wall "We can't leave him, he'll do something bad again"

"The doctor also said that his condition got worse" Eve was patting Sou's back, refraining Sou to cry to hard

"We're not allowed to show any signs of sadness because it will trigger something on him" Sakata mumbled then but his lower lips

The next day

Soraru and Senra woke up in the couch

They both wondered why they were there when they were at Hikaru's room

The two looked at each other before rushing to the cyanette's bedroom

"Shit! He locked it!" Soraru kept on turning the knob

"Hikaru! Please open the door!" Senra knocked on the door too hard

"Hikaru! God damn it!" Both of them have tears in their eyes

Minutes later, the others arrived and helped the two with the door

Luz kicked it down and it successfully broke down the door

Mafu's eyes went wide and screamed

"NOOOO!"

Un:c followed the trail of thick red substance

Araki's eyes went wide at the sight of the male

Shima saw the tons of cuts on his arms

Nqrse fell down on his knees and covered his mouth

There it lay, the corpse of their dear friend, Hikaru

Laid down on his own pool of blood, with the blade has it hold on his hand, his slightly agape mouth

Senra placed a hand on his eyes to make it shut closed and put a lavender on his mouth

"You idiot! Are you being so rude right now!? At this situation!?" Soraru exclaimed at him

"Shut up! This is how he wants to look like!" Senra exclaimed back

Sou looked at him "How he wants to look like...?"

Senra held tightly on his hand as the memories came back to him

"Well, I wanted to have something like, flowers surrounding me. You know, just to make me look bright."

The smile he gave him pained him so much

It was so fake

What he thought

But looking back at it again

Senra put a kiss on his hand

Shima and Sakata left a soft peck on his cheeks

Kashitaro and Amatsuki gave a warm sensation on his palms

Araki and Un:c brushed their lips against his feet

Eve and Sou put their lips on his forehead

Soraru putted a snowflake hair clip on the left side of his hair

And lastly Mafu, he removed the lavender from his mouth and gently put a handkerchief on his face then placing the flower on his intertwined hands

Nqrse patted Lon's back as they both mourned for his death

"Luz, if you may" Luz was shaking while trying to carry Hikaru's cold body

"Oi aren't you heavy?" He carefully placed him on the bed and fixed the handkerchief that was on his hand

Reol came in with Kuroneko, flowers on their arms

They surrounded Hikaru with flowers such as daisy, rose, tulips, lilac, and more

but what caught their attention was the sunflower under his hand

"Just what you requested" Senra sadly smiled "Hikaru-kun"

There is his corpse, his face covered by Mafu's handkerchief, the snowflake clip on his hair, and the lavender that is between his middle finger and ring finger, the sunflower that is under his hand and the flowers surrounding his body

"It was never fake to us, Hikaru"

[a/n: author-san is here to explain!

well basically, there is my oc hikaru, messy cyan hair and dark pink orbs, and has pale body complexion

now on to the story!

Hikaru suffered from his own thoughts, he never opens up to anyone, never told anything at all

and his utaite friends secretly asked a doctor for it

and it was only confirmed that he has a depression

as days went on, it became worst as it shouldn't be.

that's all UWU ]