This is a rant so scroll past if you want

I'm done.

I'm done with being treated like I'm fucking two years old.

I'm done.

This last week was good, my family plus my grandma and grandpa went on vacation. It was good.

But I still get fucking babied.

I'm not even the baby of the family, that's my brother.

He doesn't get it like I do, I can tell.

For starters, he's always asking people to get things for him.

I, on the other hand, am constantly being told "If you want this, just tell me."

No. Shut the fuck up.

If I want it, I'll get it myself.

I want to being my own independent person. How am I supposed to grow if things are just given to me, both figuratively and literary?

That won't get me anywhere. It'll just teach me to be a spoiled brat.

We go shopping. I simply look at things. "You want this? I'll buy it for you."

No. Shut the fuck up. I hate inflation.

Everything is priced too high for what it's worth.

I don't want it. It's too expensive for what it is.

I don't want you wasting your money on something I want because-

1)it's not worth the price it's being sold for.

2)If it's anything other than clothes, I'll forget about it within a week.

3)If it is clothes or food, I'm too picky.

4)I don't want a whole lot. Realistically, I just want to be left alone. So I can be independent and not depend on others.

5)If I want it, shouldn't I use my money on it, and you not waste your money in something you don't see purpose in? I'm 14, nearly 15, and I have quite a bit of money. I'm not broke like my brother.

If I had a better memory, I could probably count the amount of times I've actually opened and closed the car door this week.

I can't be home alone for two hours without being checked up on. I want to ignore those calls because I don't feel that I need it.

I can handle myself.

I'm so fucking done.

On a note unrelated to being babied, I really don't think it was fair of my Dad to call me a lazy bum because I didn't want to get his cooler for him. I, of course, retaliated, saying he was too, but he was not convinced. I may have been closer, but I'm done doing things just because other people want me too. I've been done with that for a long time. Unless you give me reason, I don't want to hear you ask me to do anything.

I also feel so misunderstood in my own home. I'm the "smart girl who is lazy and is avoiding us."

No. Shut the fuck up.

No, I'm absolutely not smart. I just get lucky. I don't even pay attention half the time in class.

No, I'm not lazy. I physically cannot sit through ten hours of boring stuff, but I absolutely can sit through days of reading a single fanfic because it catches my interest. I can write for hours on end when I'm not stuck. I'm not lazy, just unmotivated to do things that aren't interesting to me.

No, I'm not avoiding you. I'm avoiding everyone. I'm avoiding the world where I'm babied in favor of a world where I'm my own independent being and don't require anyone else to live. A world were I can be on my own. Because I like it better that way.

I want to be my own independent being. That's all I want. Why wouldn't anyone let me be that person?

I'm so fucking done with the world.