I'll feel absolutely nothing for a bit and then I'll just feel mad or anxious or nervous randomly because something small set me off and then I'll go back to feeling nothing.

And by feeling nothing, I don't mean feeling emotionally numb, that happens randomly too. It's not like there's supposed to be emotion there, I can tell there's not meant to be anything there. I just kinda exist.

Everyone around me asks me if I'm feeling something, whether it be excitement, happiness, sadness, or another emotion, but all I can do is shrug. I admitted don't know what any of that feels like.

I suppose I'm just in a near constant state of being content.

Have I just somehow learned to suppress my emotions?