It's been 2 weeks since every one listened to the song, and the rapper line have to write their lyrics. Every day they come to me and ask me if it's ok, if that go with the image that I want to give. Everyone beside Hoseok hyung. I understand that it's akward between us,because this song is for him and writing lyrics for a song destined to himself must be hard. Jungkook, Jimin and Jin hyung are gone watching a movie. It's our only rest day of the week but Namjoon hyung, Yoongi hyung and Hoseok hyung are in the record room writing their rap.

I lay on my bed, it's been a long time since I've been in this room alone. I turn my eyes to watch Hoseok hyung bed at the other side of the room. I remember watching him sleep when I can't. Some music are playing on my phone and I turn in my bed like a sushi a little bored, when the door open. I watch who walk in and it's Hoseok hyung. « Oh.. you're here ? You didn't go watch the movie with them ? » « No, I'm a little tired. And you, you're not writing your lyrics with Namjoon hyung and Yoongi hyung ? » His face flushed a bit as he walk to his bed. « Ah.. no I think I finished. » I stand on my bed.« Oh really ? Can I see it ? » I try to smile,even tough it's hard and akward. He nod and give me his note book. The paper is used, and there is words scratched everywhere. It look at lot like mine. « Thanks » He go lay on his bed, not looking at me as I begin to read.

« Your arms, your warmth, your heart
I want to see it all, I beg you
This moment,even the warm flower scented wind
Even the sky without a single cloud
Everything feels cold
and I'm even scared of the clear sky
If you're not here, I'm just a corpse,
so how can I breathe?
It hurts, I'm always cry cry cry
I'm going crazy,exhausted without you
I think of you without stopping
I hate itall, I hate every single day
It makes me cry, ring ding dong
If there's a chance, I'll catch you
I'm running, it's starting, count down
I'm ready to be cut by your rose-like embrace
as I hold you again »

The tears are falling as I begin to cry my heart skipping to much beat, going wild. I can sense Hoseok hyung coming to my side. After finishing reading it I look up at him, his eyes are worried and I can see fear in them. I put aside the paper and open my arms to him. He look at me confused before climbing slowly on my bed. He look at me, his eyes a little red and his breath quicken as he gently take me in his arms taking all his time. Once I feel his chest against mine I grip on him tighly afraid of him going away again.

My tears don't stop. This feeling is more than everything, the sensation of his body against mine, his scent that I missed so much. The strengh he put in his hug almost break me, but I don't care because his hug his the best way to ease my pain. « Hyung » My voice shake so much because of the tears. I keep calling his name. He caress my hair trying to confort me as he cry too. He make me face him, and one minute don't past before we kiss each other.

This kiss is nothing tender, it's desesperate, painfull, needy, wild, passionate, intense, none of us have to ask for the other the permission to slip his tongue it came naturaly. This kiss ease all my pain, but hurt me so much at the same time because the feeling is too good. I have the feeling that my whole body is on fire. I'm sweating, I'm shaking, I'm crying and him too. We bit each other lips in a fight with ourself. We beat ourself because we've been dumb. I scratch his back and he pull on my hair,we need to breathe but none of us stop. We don't want to be apart, we missed each other too much. Groan escape our lips and fill the room.We slowly get our lips away, breathing heavily.

We look in each other eyes, we look like a complete mess, our lips are swollen and I can see mark of bite on his lower lips. « Hyung.. » He gently pull my hair backward and caress my cheeks. « I love you so much Tae. So.. so much. » « I love you too Hyung ! »Our voice sound like we are in pain saying this, this feeling is too strong, and it's like it explode at this moment. « I'm so sorry Tae.. » Before letting him finish I begin to kiss him again, starting a new heated kiss who quickly slow down to a gentle kiss full of love. I break it and rest my forehead on his. « Hyung.. I can't live without you.. It's not a child love, it never been. Don't go.. hold me tight and never go away of me again. »Hoseok hyung gently kiss me again making my heart speed up. « I won't Tae.. I love you. » He peck my lips, and I lay down on the bed with him in my arms. After criyng so much I can't keep my eyes open, and I slowly fall into sleep as I keep Hoseok hyung in my arms. Him too don't let got of me gently stroking my hairs. The last thing that I hear is the beautiful voice of Hoseok hyung. « Never again I'll let you go. You're mine. »