Hope you guys don't mind me ranting in this chapter ^^"

IF YOU GUYS DON'T LIKE RANTS, Kindly move to the next chapter :D

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SO! Okay. OCs.

I bet some of you are wondering why I don't have tons of OCs by now, cuz I mean.. this is like the 4th book?!!

And so far It hasn't even reached 20 OCs yet..

Okay, so (this is made up, just so you know)... I guess this is what I have right now.

OCtitis and Charactephobia *tries not to laugh*

Okay. I'm pretty sure that explains a lot.

*Media* I JUST LOVE MAKING OCs I mean in one week I can create up to 10 OCs (without backstories ofc)

But I am afraid to post them up here in wattpad because I get attached to them for a few weeks, even days... and then forget about them... which is really hurtful in my part.

It's like showing people a new friend of mine, and for a few days/weeks I keep sharing good stuff about them until one day POOF! I literally stop (in drawing case, forget) about them.

I'm trying really hard not to make OCs and then stay with them for MONTHS maybe YEARS.. but the only OCs so far that stand and stayed with me are Usagi and Lezah.

that's like 1 in 100 chance of happening.

I'm still not caught up/attached with Myu, MB and K yet... but I really want to. (That's the reason there's more Lezah and Usagi drawings rather than the whole group or solo with Myu, MB and K)

It's really amazing other artists (not just here in wattpad please note) can keep up with hundreds of OCs and still remember each and every one of them.. WITH THEIR BACKSTORIES.

One of those amazing people is Vivziepop. She is such an amazing Artist and I look up to her as a fellow one too. She has tons of Furry OCs, yet she still remembers each and everyone. She makes lots of speedpaints about them even though they are only side characters... she has a webcomic (its amazing you should literally check "Zoophobia") and in that comic are all her OCs. Main ones and Side ones. And every single character has his/her own story which is just literally mind blowing. I look up to her as much as (maybe) you guys kinda look up to me? I want to create stuff and stay with them forever.

About Backstories. I love making stories, but I always stop at the middle.. why?

Cuz I get tired.. I would feel like it misses something, like I just made a huge mistake and I can't erase it cuz it's already published, I would forget important stuff like: At the end of the chapter, "What's ___'s childhood friend name again?" or "How did ___ created life again?". AFter that I just gave up and new ideas came up that's different from the story I unfinishedly made. (You guys can check my other books that aren't Art Books)... Unrelated stuff: I have this Jelsa Fanfic called "Frozen Bounderies", and it's been months since I updated.. and I'm on the last chapter already. I just feel like I need to add more feels and then make it and then erase it again, frustrated, I stopped and then I went back to write again, and over and over stuff happens.

I'll just share this with you guys so I can completely let this off my head:

This is Lezah's draft backstory (THE FIRST EVER BACKSTORY in like 2+ years)

I do not know if this is canon or not..

She is suppose to be the only Wolx hybrid left. She is a descendant of an amazing well known wolf clan. She had a male bff that was from another wolf clan. Boy's clan and her clan are enemies. She is a loner and people in her village/clan are afraid of her because of her gene/breed. She often escapes her village at night and go to her "secret place" which is just a hugeeeeeee beautiful lake not far from her village. There she meets the boy and soon every night they meet there. The boy wasn't scared of Lezah because of her gene, instead he befriended her and told her how cool it was, and that was the time Lezah start to hate herself less.. soon they both knew stuff about each other. The boy is really such a jokester like sans, caring and friendly + such a cinnamon roll like Papyrus, and like those type of anime boys that are just too hilarious, caring, brotherly type... andd uhhh idk kinda the brotherly prankster type...And then "ROMEO AND JULIET" story plot happens.. but instead that they both die at the end this happens: After both of their parents know that the 2 were meeting each other.. the 2 were banned from seeing each other again, and in that case they were both being watched full time at night. Times pass, humans attacked both of the clan because they were too scared that the wolves might get pass through them, it's like undertale like seriously wat is wrong with me... so the two clan made a temporary peace treaty and worked together to fight back.. and they won. Somehow during the fite, leaders of both clan kinda saved each others butt and got friendly and nice with each other. So because of that they, both the 2 clans, made the peace treaty legit. Because of that the Lezah and the boy got to know more about each other. Though people, also from the other clan, are still scared of Lezah.. but the boy still didn't care about that. Lezah's parents already approved of the boy, and treated him as their own son.. so did the boy's family to Lezah. Then time skip, maybe the 2 were around the age of 8 or 9? i dunno. The hoomans attacked again for revenge. even though the 2 clans were merged together they failed. Somehow the humans know about traps more and their skill are improved dramatically. Both of the 2 child's parents died. And only the boy and Lezah escaped (are they really the only one? ;w;), and because of that Lezah got really depressed, because her parents are the only ones who really care about her well being except for the boy. The boy, as the brotherly type, was sad too but didn't show it.. instead he console Lezah. And then this scene happens:

Lezah sat comfortably on top of a fallen tree, getting cozy with the fire that 'the boy' made for the two of them. She took a bite of her newly cooked meat that the two of them hunted a few hours ago. Looking at the blazing fire, she suddenly remembers a memory that she wished she forgot. A burning memory. A burning village. She lost grip of her food. She looked as her food was set to waste by the dirty soil. She shrugged it off. "I'm not hungry anyways.." She reasoned out. Her dead eyes watches wearily as she heard sounds on her left ear. As soon as she smells someone familiar, she sigh. "It's just you.".. "Ouch, 'it's just you'.. can't you say something else rather than that lin-" the boy said. Lezah looked at him as why he stopped at his sentence. The boy rushes towards her, "Are you okay?! Did anyone hurt you?" he cried. Lezah was confused, then she felt something cold on her face. She touched her cheek and she felt water. "Huh? Did I cry?" She muttered. "Oh it's nothing, maybe something got caught on my eye." she smiled. The boy knows that smile, like he has seen it for months. "Fire.". As soon as he said that, Lezah bursted to tears. "DAMNIT. WHY DIDN'T I SAVE THEM BEFORE?! I THOUGHT WOLX HAVE POWERS TO FIGHT HUNDREDS. WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I DIDN'T HAVE ANY POWER AT ALL?". The boy hugged her and shushed her very calmly, as if he knows what to do. When Lezah finally stopped. The boy kneeled down in front of her and pledged that he would protect Lezah for the end of eternity. And at that moment, the stars above them shined brilliantly as the sun does in mornings.

Ya. That's all of it so far. And this is the truth... I was so engrossed with this plot that I made comics about it.

Here:

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And I was so engrossed with the plot for only like a week. After that I just stopped.. and was like "Nawh, I can't share this plot.. it looks kinda dumpy." and then frustration happens like "What is they ask about these kinds of stuff and I answer them.. but then moments later I would realize that what I answered is wrong and would make plot holes and then I would not remember these stuffs."

LIKE DAYUMMMMMMMMM.

This is like the longest rant yet. I AM SO SORRY.

If you guys are still reading this.. I am ashamed. ;///;

So sorry... I am really an emotional person ;-;

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So to rewind you guys: These are the OCs that I have so far.

IRL me.

Tint and Shade

These adorable young couple

The Valentine Sisters <3

This Demon Singer

'Pencil'

And these F'IN ADORABLE BROTHERS THAT I LOVE TO DEATH. (Skull is like The Sans in my Ocs. He's Bae... also he's like a mix of Napstablook's shyness and Papyrus' kindness + Sans' caring and over protectiveness.. also he's really lazy around his brother only/more like his true self shows only with his brother)

And then you guys already know the main 5.

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So still... I am very afraid at sharing my OCs with you guys because of these 'things' *wiggles hands*

Like right now I have this OC that I love to draw... but I am afraid of sharing her cuz I might forget her and then you guys will be like "Usagi why u forgot about her? Is dat wat u also do in real life, forgetting people?" or "Usagi, Did you forget --- or something? I really love that OC of yours and you just stop drawing dem making me sad. ;0;

Here's a peak of her:

So yep..

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one moreeeeeeee thing..

I have fears, and the one fear that I really fear is people hating me (also flying cockroaches).

Please note all of these are all in honesty.

I got really scared at that one time I had a hater. (some of you might remember)

I get really scared when my friends start to argue at me... so even if he's/she's wrong I'll just tell that he's/she's right and I was wrong to avoid conflict.

Even if I don't like that person, I don't want them to hate back so I just try to befriend them.. and sometimes It'd end up that I actually really like them.

 So basically I end up being on both sides so that they won't hate me.

Like how I have this friend that she has a weird stalker.

I console her in her condition, telling her that he is weird and that maybe he just likes you to notice him or stuff.

but at the same time,

I also console the stalker, telling him stuff like he should lay off a bit, he should confront me friend like a friend not like a weird stalker, and stuff.

and ends up me: helping a stalker to be with my friend who doesn't like the stalker herself (cuz she just wants a friend and not a suitor, and also bcuz she wants to study first than couple'y stuff.. WHICH I APPROVE)

YUP. That's all. I'm Done. :)