Tae warned me several times about you, but I never listened. How could I? You made me feel like I was someone who deserved to be loved and cared for. You came into my life when I was all alone inside after being heartbroken from being dumped from a two-year relationship. You became a warm cup of coffee on my cold winter morning.

I still remember the day I fell for you! We were in your studio when you hugged me, listened to all my pain, and wiped my tears. You even sang for me with your guitar. I felt light after a long time. That day I fell for you, Yoongi!

You, not me, ever proposed properly, but we knew we loved each other so much. (At least I thought that).

I threw a party for your success in the music world with your friends. (wait! I did not realise that I lost all of my friends slowly)

After four years of being in a relationship, coping with ups and downs, and fighting with our families, it was the day of our marriage. It was the happiest day of my life. Being from a poor family, working hard to earn money to take care of them, and being tested by God so many times, I was finally getting to start a happy life with my love. Our family also finally agreed to our marriage. In the photos that were taken that day, I was always smiling. That smile was meant to stay with me forever, right?

I was wrong! I was so wrong from the start!!

Our honeymoon period was not like a fairytale but it was great. I was so happy. But slowly you were becoming odd. I still had the job and was working from home to take care of my family and Tae. I was doing all the house chaos, working for my job while taking care of you, your moods, and demands. But you, you were always inside your studio, making music, watching movies, or playing online games. We were used to meeting each other only at night on the bed or while eating.

Then suddenly your mother came to stay with us as your father had to go somewhere for two or three months. I was happy that at least I could talk to someone or she would help me with some house chaos. You never allowed any maid or servant in the house who could have helped me. But I was wrong again.

I loved and respected her as my mother but she never liked me. She was so proud of her and her husband's highly reputed families and always looked down on me for being from a poor family. She always behaved badly with me, ordering me here and there. I started to feel so tired managing my personal and work life daily while giving you my tired body every night for two or three times. I never complained. I just wanted your attention, your love, and your care. I gave everything I had to you, but I only got the loneliness inside.

******* House Of Cards *******

"As time passes by
We only mess it up even more
No way, no way, it's collapsing again!"