I will not tell you how old I am, but I'm at a very crucial part in my life, people tell me. My mom tells me I'm figuring out who are friends, who are enemies, who to trust, and all that biz. I feel like I'm going through an existential crisis every 5 minutes. I just figured out yesterday what I've been trying to prepare myself to realize for years- life isn't supposed to be easy. It's supposed to put you through pain and torture and expects you to come out on top. People who commit suicide are extremely selfish, and they are utter cowards. Suicide is a horrible thing. By committing it, you are not taking the pain away but merely transferring it to someone else. They are cowards because they cannot handle the shit life is supposed to throw at you. Life is supposed to test your strength in heart and mind, which matters more than strength in muscle. 

What is life worth if everything is easy? What is the point in doing things if everybody can do it? If it was easy everybody would do it. You can get through it. Life throws obstacles in your way you can get through if you simply try. So try. Try and you will succeed, whether you win or lose you tried, and that is better than anything else you could have done. Life is supposed to test you, it's supposed to make you think, and feel, and you won't appreciate anything unless you feel or know the opposite of it. For example, you wouldn't appreciate happiness without sadness. You wouldn't appreciate light without darkness. Or the other way around. 

"Work for a cause, not for applause. Live life to express, not to impress. Don't strive to make your presence noticed just make your absence felt." -Unknown