Hi, guys.

So..........
I...um.....

Might be taking a break from Wattpad.

Its just.......
*takes deep breath*

Everyone's expectations of what I can do (IRL) are TOO HIGH!!!!!
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I can't do it.......

I can't strive any higher than I am right now.

For me, I'm under so much pressure to succeed, that I'm drowning.

Drowning in MY own struggles.

Drowning in MY problems.

Drowning with the pressure and expectations I set for myself.

I'm really hard on myself, and I'm pushing so much, I think I might explode.

I can't......

One of my friends has an issue that I can't help.

I can't do anything about.

I help their problems. Easily.
I can't reach out for help from others.

So I'm reaching out. Or at least, trying to.
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*crying*

Please, help me.

I need some kind of support and I need some happiness in my life.

I've faked happiness for so long, I've forgotten what it really is.

I can't.

I've closed my eyes at night, so that I'd stop the tears from bursting from my eyes.

I can't.

I've put on so many fake smiles, I don't remember which one is my real smile.

I can't.

I've kept it to myself for so long, I worry once I tell someone IRL, I'd cry and never stop.

I can't......

I haven't......

Told anyone

In real life.

Ever.

Now I'm telling you.

I need some encouragement.

Probably not as much as others, but I still need it.

Just like everyone else in the world.

I can't believe in me.

Can you believe in me?

Comment if you can.

I'm sorry to bother you and your happy day.

Bye.

*can't stop crying*