I realized that I obviously haven't updated on any of my bts stories or put an edited chapter of my persona fanfic. There are a few reasons why I haven't posted. You may get annoyed but i am trying.

Reason# 1

EID MUBARAK.

To all my muslim readers and to basically everyone. I managed to fast almost the whole month. Some days I couldn't do because of my medication. But I am proud I was able to survive through most of the month.

Some of you might understand me when I say that I am tired when I am fasting. Others may not but I don't blame them.

The difference between me and when I am fasting is that my laziness intensifies and I stopped doing things that I would usually do.

I somehow don't feel the energy to talk and my friends know that when I start talking, I will talk for who knows long until it gets awkward. The only good thing I can do properly when I am fasting would be playing basketball. It's wierd how I haven't fainted again.

Reason# 2

I don't find an inspiration in life anymore. Life is boring. Plain.  A colorless void. I feel like I don't exist here.

In my bio, it says I need friends. I do need friends. It makes me have a mental reality check. I have no friends, except for like three or four but they never answer me unless it's urgent. 

In this world, I feel that there is no space for me. I have no value. I'm just someone who could be easily replaced with someone else.

I make everone's life miserable and everyone seems to hate me. I am very self concious of myelf and I don't feel like living in such a harsh world.

Reason# 3

It's the end of the school year. I have summer homework to do and I'm lucky I don't go to summer school like the rest of the students in my year. My summer homework is almost done but I really don't feel like going anywhere near my phone, games, or computer.

Not only that, I have alot of make up work to do. Like alot and my school gave us alot of school work.

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I will try to update or I might not update all of my stories until I am done writing the endings to them. I plan to make Loopy Nightmare around 15 chapters or so. Choreography is still all over the place and maybe, I will be able to finish it in time.

 I have a deadline for it.