Soooo... it's 2025.
How is everyone doing?

I haven't been venting or ranting in awhile... well, at least not on here 😅

So, I'm trying to stay positive... but I really need to let out my emotions. So yeah, let's just get into this.

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Here's a list of stuff bothering me lately:

- Winter brought seasonal depression.

- January and February bring up my ptsd and that sucks.

- I had a safe place here on Wattpad... that's now ruined. So I got the fuck out of there.
Get the hell out of dodge 😂... yeah 🫤
wtf man... I let my guard down... trust you.

- Stress... school, jobs, life... eta.

- Being around my toxic family that doesn't even know me... 😐 such a great feeling.
There's SO many things u what and need to say.
Just watch their faces change as they met the true me.

- Reaching out to friends randomly, but they never answer... it's not their fault...
But, do they even try? I give them so much. Or at least try to...

- Feeling jealous or left out, even though I shouldn't feel that way.

- My sleep schedule has been a wreck. And having bad dreams.

- More and more days pass... nothing happening. Wasting away.

- I can't do what I want to. Because of depression or the weather or money... it fucking hurts.

- Wanting to write or draw, or do anything creative, but being stuck.
What happened?... 😔
Throughout my entire life there's this cycle of loving art, then falling out of it. Again and again.

- Desperately wanting to be in one certain place.
But I'm not there. When will I ever be?...

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Ummm. Yeah. I think that's all for now.
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Time to blast music and try to find my creativity. And overall motivation... for life.
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