Meera's POV

He is ready to give me divorce. The first thing that's coming in my mind now is what will I do after that.

Definitely I'm not going to live with mom and dad now. They will surely know about this and will force me to live with them only but I find it very very awkward now.

As of my own parents... I can't go to them !!

I'll not go back to India... I'll live in NY only . New York is so big..I'll work some where and take a house on rent or a PG. I'll go back to India for giving my exams and then come back here.

And what about life!! It never was good before then how can I expect it to be good now !

World knows me as Meera Abeer Malhotra!! That's of course gonna affect me but I hope I come out of this soon !!

Your mind will come out of it soon but how you'll let your heart come out of it or more specifically him !!

Shake it off Meera !!!
It's about you now ! Think about yourself!!!

He's ready to give divorce. I'll tell dad everything first and then Slowly I'll tell mom about it. I can't tell everything to her all of a sudden. She can't bear it !!

He went out for I don't know what reason.. May be to meet Advik !! His face has only one emotion.. Don't know whether true or fake one..but they are showing only pain and sadness!!

Why are you sad Abeer Malhotra!! You should be happy that you'll be free again to do anything in your life !! You'll not have a name tag of wife !!!

He made dinner for me. Why he's doing so when he now knows that we're going to part away!! He shouldn't do all this...
I'm getting addicted to this all...it will take time for me to forget all this and here he's doing more that I can't forget easily!!

Will you be even able to forget anything ..even a bit !!

Can I ??

The next shock I got was Scarlett aunty was coming. I was really very happy but she'll see me like this !! She'll be hurted so much .

I know I can never have a good relationship with him...

It's getting end actually...

But I don't want him to go away from his people.

Close to very few people but those few people means world!!

That's the only common thing between me and him !!

He thought Scarlett aunty would hate him!! But I know she can never hate him. She'll definitely be very angry with him. She'll scold him..but can never hate him...because she's like a mother to him and a mother can never hate their child !!!

He's caring for me too much..I told him to stop faking all this but he didn't reply and instead gave me my medicines. I gulped them and went to bed.

After some time I heard a chirpy voice and tears pooled in my eyes.

I stood up from my place and saw a home staff there.

"Mam please don't stand up" she said

"What. Why" I asked

"Sir have told us to take care of you and not let you go anywhere in this condition" she said and I gritted my teeth

"Your sir is a maniac ..I've not fractured my legs...I'm not that weak that I can't even walk" I told

"Sorry mam but sir told us to be with you for every second" she murmured lowering her head.

"He's surely a lunatic. I'll walk myself " I groaned

I really can't understand this man!!

I didn't say anything to her and went out of the room slowly. I saw her downstairs and tears pooled in my eyes.

"Hey Sweety" she shouted in joy and I looked towards her smiling.

"Sweety. What happened to you. Oh Jesus !! What happened to your hand.

What did you do Meera" she asked and I hugged her tightly.

"Aunty" I whispered and cried.

"Sweety. What happened. Tell me. See your aunty is here now..tell me what happened" she asked and I looked at her.

How can I tell her anything!!

" What did he do Sweety. Tell me. I'll not leave him this time. Is this because of him. Did he hurt you physically " she asked and I denied

"No!! He didn't do it. I did it.. I tried...to k..kill my..myself " I admitted

"What. Why !!! " she shouted

"No..nothing" I said

"Meera. Tell me." she cried and I sobbed! 

I narrated everything what happened in these last days.

"How can he be so cruel ..how can he go heartless" she whispered

"His over protectiveness and over possessiveness is not good aunty and he'll never understand this. He'll never" I said wiping my tears.

"I know he's very possessive but this is of no use. What he did to you!!  How can he even do this. He has no right to do so" she yelled in anger

"Aunty I missed you so much. If you would've been here then this won't have happened" I said and she wiped my tears

"I told you that I'll not go but you're so stubborn that you didn't listen" She snapped

"I know aunty. I'm very stubborn. I was stubborn to even marry him" I said and she looked at me with sadness and tears in her eyes.

"Let him come today. I'll tell him what he did" she told angrily 

No! Their relation should not spoil due to me. And note over he'll blame me only for spoiling his relation with aunty!!

Before I could say anything else I heard him.

"Aunty..." he called and aunty looked at him fuming with anger and went near him.

I gestured aunty a no!  I don't want their relation to suffer in any way. I don't want to be a reason behind it!!

"I leave your job right now Mr. Abeer Malhotra" aunty said and we both looked shocked at her

"Aunty what are you even saying. No.  You can't do like this to me. " he said

Damn! My eyes are hurting now and head is spinning too!!

"And what you did huh. Are you for real. Are you even a human or a devil" she shouted and he looked at aunty

I've never seen her so angry. Aunty please don't!

My eyes were getting closed and I stumbled on my feet

Damn!!  The effect of  high doses.

"Meeraa" he shrieked and ran and held me on time.

Don't touch me Abeer Malhotra!!

"Leave me Abeer Malhotra" I said in low voice

I don't know why he didn't listen to me and picked me up going towards room.

I was not even in condition to shout or argue with him. My eyes were feeling heavy and the side effect of high doses was working!

He made me lay down on the bed.

"Meera sleep. " He said

He went to talk with Advik .

"Did you talk to Advik" I asked in a low voice and he nodded.

He has talked! About Divorce!!  We'll part away!
But why am I feeling bad when I'm the one who demanded for it!! 

"sleep for now" he said and I looked away from him.

Why did you do that Abeer. If you wouldn't have done that then nothing would've happened!!

I don't know when sleep overpowered me. I woke up when sunlight fell on my eyes.

I looked at my surroundings and my eyes fell on couch.

There he was sleeping. How uneasy he's sleeping!

Of course  if a man of  5'9" will sleep on a couch of 5' it will be small for him!!

And he's still so stubborn that he don't  listen and didn't let me go to my room and he's sleeping on this couch. Now his back will pain the whole day!!

But why are you thinking so much about him Meera!! 

Stop thinking about him!!

Did he even thought of you once before doing that with you...  NO!!  Then why are you!!

You can't be good to everyone in your life and specially those who don't deserve goodness!!

But still my heart can't do anything bad with him...  Don't know why!!!!

"Oh you awake. Good morning" he said and I looked at him coming out of my thoughts !!

Correct yourself !
His thoughts !!

"My morning already started bad seeing your face" I snapped and he sighed.

"Just two days more Meera. Then your every morning will be Good" he said and I looked shocked at him.

Two days!! 

Just two days..  It means after two days our divorce is taking place!!

Damn!!  Just two days!! 
Am I doing it right God !!

" Good morning " I muttered and he smiled

"Mine is good just for two days " he whispered and I looked shocked at him again.

Does he really mean what I'm thinking!!

"How are you feeling Meera" He asked

"Better " I said.

My left hand's pain vanished and right hand was still paining but not that bad.

"I'll tell aunty to help you" he said and I looked at him

"I've not fractured my legs. I can walk on my own" I snapped and he nodded

I stood up and freshened up and came to walk-in closet after bathing.

I wore a comfortable long shirt dress and came out.

"Morning sweety" came aunty's voice and I smiled

"Morning aunty" I said and she came near me.

"Need help in hairs" she asked and I smiled

"No aunty. I'll manage" I said and she nodded

"Come breakfast is ready" she told and I nodded

"I'll come with your medicines. You go and have your break fast " he Said and I looked straight.

"I'll do my work by own Abeer Malhotra. You don't need to do anything for me. You're freeing me that's enough" I told and moved out of the room.

"See today I made you your favorite" said aunty plating my break fast

"Thankyou aunty. I'll be missing this and I'll be missing you so much" I told and she wiped her tears.

"Abeer told me about divorce. Think nicely Meera. I'll not force you to take back your decision but please think once " she said and I looked on my plate

"Aunty. I can't live in that place where my self respect gets hurt everyday. Who knows he'll once again become angry and repeat the same or who knows he might do more worst" I told looking down on my palms.

"Eat Child. It's getting cold" she said and I nodded.

"Meera.. Abeer told me everything again last night.. and I've seen guilt in his eyes. He's feeling more bad then ever. Do you think he'll repeat the mistake" She asked

"Aunty you know that day when he said ill about me and my parents and I got hurt by that vase.. That day also I saw change of emotions in his eyes. I thought he felt bad about whatever he did. I thought he realised  his mistake and will never repeat it again...you know he even tried saying sorry to me..but you know right what happened now. You know what his anger caused. I thought he'll not do anything wrong.. but he proved me very wrong. He crossed his limits aunty. I know we're not a normal couple but still these ten days of curfew gave me a hope that we can give a try to this relationship... but you know what aunty.. that hope died!!  It died so badly that I can't ever hope for it now because I know it's not possible." I explained and she looked at me

"I know what he did was wrong.  Really wrong. But please don't loose hope" she told and I smiled painfully

"Hopes died aunty. Know why?   Because for him his ego and anger is more bigger then anything and for me my self-respect is more bigger.. And the problem with both of us is that he can't put away his anger and ego and I can't put away my self respect. " I said and she looked down.

"It's up to you Meera." She sighed and I smiled

"Will you come to meet me frequently aunty" I asked

"You can come here whenever you want. These doors will always be open for you. It will be your home only" came his voice and I looked at him.

"Thankyou Mr. Abeer Malhotra.  You've already done very much for me. I'll prefer not to take any more favor from you.. Who knows next time again I'll be a gold digger" I accused and he sighed

"I didn't say that Meera.. and trust me I'll never say that" he said and I smiled painfully.

"Trust you?  My newborn trust on you died that night Abeer Malhotra and my heart is now not able to trust you back. I regret trusting someone who was not worthy of it" I shot and finished my last bite. 

 I thanked aunty and  started moving back to the room.

"Advik will be coming in noon  for talking to you before... before signing those papers " he said and went away while I moved upstairs with my mind repeating what he said right now!!

Vakt dete thoda to...
ham tumhare liye khuda se bhi intekaam kar lete!
Par tumne to hamse hmaari aabru hi maang li....
Ab btaao ham apna guroor kaise de dete!!

Dil mai ek ajeeb sa dard bhi ho raha hai...
Abhi tumhare paas aane ko raazi nahi hai!!
Kashmakash to kuch esi hai ki...
shayad tumse door jaane ko bhi razi nahi hai!!

{ If you would've given time..
i would've retaliated with god too!
But you asked me for my self esteem...
Now tell me how could I give you my pride to you !!

There's a strange pain in Heart...
It's not ready to come near you !
But see the dilemma is that..
It's not either ready to go away from you!!!   }

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Hey guys!! Hope you all are doing great!!  So Divorce is gonna take place !!  Meera wanted this and Abeer is giving her what she wants!!  I know it's heart breaking💔💔
What will happen now?  Stay tuned to know!!

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