Meera's POV

Don't know whatever happening is correct or not. I don't know what to do. His behavior changes every time. Firstly he was so rude and arrogant jerk. Then he blamed me everyday for marrying me.

Then suddenly he started being very nice to me. He cooked for me...he did so much for me. Then now he crossed each and every limit. He did what I never thought. I'm not able to understand him a bit.

Sometimes he's caring and the next moment he's harsh. Some times he behaves as if I'm an important part of his life and the next moment he behaves as if I'm some unwanted person.. really some sort of trash.

And now what he did overpowers all his positivity if he has any! He said sorry to me. First time I've heard these words from his mouth. I don't know if  that's real or not. I don't know if he's genuine or not... Because how can I trust him when he shattered the very new trust which was being built for him..

He cooked breakfast for me. I know that. I know the taste of his hands now. 

Indeed tasty !!

Seeing those soup and all I was feeling as if I'm gonna vomit it as soon as I'll eat it...but the taste was good.

I said him to leave me. Won't it be better for both of us. He'll be free to do everything he want.

 And I'll be going away from this house and these memories...His memories!

Not to mom and dad now. I can't!!

He didn't react to this and said he's in office room.

Why isn't he going to office.

See Meera. There you want to go away from him and here you can't even stop thinking about him. How will you go away from him then !

I sighed thinking all this. I'm feeling sleepy again.

Side ffects of  medicines !!

One minute!! What's this under the tray !

I looked there and found chocolates and here I smiled after don't know how many hours !

You know Meera right..that who left these !!

Why are you being good Abeer when I know if I try again I'll be shattered completely.

I'll talk to Naina !

I called her.

"Hey Naina" I said

"Hello Meera. How are you. How are you feeling. " she asked

"I'm good Naina. Don't worry." I replied

"Okay. You took medicines" she asked

"Yes. Naina...Where's Advik" I asked

"He's in bathroom. You want to talk about...emm.." She was going to say

"Divorce. Yeah..I want to talk about the same" I said

"Meera..are you really sure" she asked

"I..I'm sure. I don't want to live with him" I said

Will you live away from him !!

Yes I'll !!

"Meera..I'll tell Advik you called" she told

"Okay Naina. Thankyou" I told

"Meera..never forget, I'm always there for you" she said

"I know. Okay bye..I'm sleepy. Side Effect of medicines" I told and she chuckled

"Yes. Now go and sleep. Bye" She said hanging up the call.

I slept after eating the chocolates.

Meera!! Wake up!!! Wake up Meera!!

"Meeraa!!" Shouted someone and I opened my eyes and as soon as I opened my eyes I closed my eyes.

I don't want to see that face !

"Meera wake up. It's lunch time" he said again and I turned myself to another side

"I'm not hungry" I replied

"Meera. It's two pm and you're saying you're not hungry" he told and I looked at him

Why his eyes are red and... Didn't he sleep !!

Yes..his eyebags under eyes and telling that!! Did he cry!!

He is sleep deprived!!

"Meera. Come out of your dream world and eat your lunch" he said and I looked at him

"Didn't you sleep" I asked and he looked but soon he smirked

"You care right" He asked and I looked at him

"The hell I care. Remember that!!" I snapped and his face fall

"You can never be stone hearted Meera and I know that" He said

"You don't know a bit about me Abeer Malhotra.. So you can't even think what I can be or what I cannot" I stated

"So why don't you tell me about yourself" he asked

"So that you can ruin me more" I said

"Why can't we talk normally like humans talk" he asked

"Are you a human?" I asked and he sighed.

"Fine. I'm not. Okay. I know I'm a beast. A beast who eats people. But have you heard those stories where a beast turn into a human when he gets lo..." He was going to say when he stopped himself.

"I mean I'm not that bad. " he said

"Yeah. You're worst and this is not any fairytale.. and my life can never be a fairy tale. I'm not princess and you're definitely not a prince" I snapped

"Fine. I'm worst if that gives you happiness.  Now eat food" I said

I know who cooked it. Don't he have another work. And one minute...why didn't he go office.!!

"You don't need to pretend that you care Abeer Malhotra. And please stop cooking  for me. " I said

"I do care Meera. Shake it off. It doesn't matter anyways right . You have your lunch " He told taking spoonful of rice near my mouth and I looked at him.

Wow!! So now he thinks I don't value his care !! Do he really care??

I've seen his amazing care in the form of wrath!!! The wrath which I didn't even deserve!!!

I ate the food silently because I very well know that he has a bad habit of not listening!!!

"It's yumm.." I was going to say when I stopped myself from saying further and he chuckled

"I know it's delicious " he said and I looked away.

"Meera you ate chocolates" he asked and I looked at him

"Didn't you left them to eat" I asked back

"Of course I did" he said

"To mai kya Inka achar daalti ( so should I have made pickle out of them) "  I asked irritated and he looked shocked.

"I was just asking" he said and I looked at him

"I was also just saying" I scoffed

"Fine. Take the medicines" he said handing me the medicines and I looked at them making faces.

These are so disgusting.

"I know these are disgusting still you've to take them to recover" he said and I looked at him shocked.

Did he just hear me !!

"It wouldn't have happened if you would've not done anything" I whispered and he looked at me.

"I'm sorry" he said looking at me and I gulped the medicines.

"I want divorce" I told and he looked at me

"You won't get that..put it in your head Meera" he said standing up

"I will get that Abeer Malhotra. It's just you've to think you want to do it easily with mutual decision or me dragging this to family court. I'm sure that I'll not be living with you." I told

"And you think you'll win the case " he asked

"I'm sure for that " I said

"And I'll make sure that you loose it badly" he gritted

"And what you'll get by this huh. You said you genuinely care for me right! You care for me then let me live my life peacefully. My peace is going away from you. I want to go from here. What will you get if you'll keep me like this only. My hatred towards you will not change and I'm sure you'll not want to live in this hatred." I said and he looked at me

"I can live with your hatred too..but not without you Meera" he whispered

What did he just say!!!
I'm sure he don't know what he's saying!!

"And I can't live in this mansion with you. I'm feeling disgusted in this room. Whenever I see you I just remember what you did to me. I just want to go away from here. I want to go away from your life " I said

"And I want you to be in my life" he told and I looked at him again shocked

He should behave how he's!! Not what he's not...and can be never!!

"I want to part my ways from you Abeer Malhotra. And you know I don't have any problem what you do in your life after that..and you'll not have any problem what I do in my life after that. We'll be free to do anything. And I promise I won't go back to your mom and dad too. I won't disturb anyone of you ever" I said

"And what we'll say to the world. For them we're a perfect couple" he asked 

"We can say them anything. We'll say them we didn't fit together as husband and wife. And that's not wrong also. We don't fit as husband and wife." I told and he looked at me painfully.

"Will you be happy" he whispered and I looked at him!!

"Yes I'll be" I said in a low voice.

Will you really be !!!
I'll of course be !

Then why these second thoughts!!
No I don't have any second thoughts!! I'll be happy!!

"Will.. will you be happy" I asked

"Will you be happy if I say yes " he asked and I looked at him.

"Ye-yes.. I'll be very happy" I said and he looked into my eyes.

"To phir mai kaise khush ho skta hu ( then how can I be happy)"  He whispered and I looked at him

Did we just repeated any famous dialogue!!

"I didn't understand..." I asked

"Leave Meera. Nothing important " He said

"I'll talk with Advik about it. You'll be free from me Meera" he whispered and I looked at him.

Till now he wasn't ready to give me divorce and now.. what happened to him so suddenly that he's ready!!

Why are you bothering!!  Didn't you want this only!!

"Thanks" I said looking everywhere but not at him.

Why ain't I feeling happy when he said yes for what I wanted. When finally I'll be away from him. When I'll be free from him. When he did what I want.

Why ain't I feeling happy when he's going away for ever from my life !!
I should be happy right!! But why I'm not !!

"Will you do me a favor Meera" he asked and I nodded

"Just don't go away from here  till your hand is recovered" he said and I nodded

It will be good in just two days Abeer!!

"Okay. Will you too do me a favor" I asked and he smiled

"Anything for you" he said

"Don't tell mom and dad right now please. We.. We'll keep it away from media and all for right now. Firstly your mom and dad will come to know about this and then media...  I can't tell everything to aunty at just once. She'll not be able to bear a shock!  I'll tell them afterwards.. when.. when I'll go to India for giving exams " I told

"Tell them whenever you want. I've no problem" he said

"Are you really ready to give me divorce" I asked and he glared me but sweet one.

Sweet one!!  Like seriously Meera!!

"I genuinely want to see you happy Meera and if some random piece of papers gives you happiness then be happy with them " he said and looked at me.

Why isn't these words giving me happiness.

Why am I feeling burden and heavy at heart.

"I'll meet Advik tomorrow" he said and I nodded

"Thankyou" I said

"Thankyou to you for coming in my life and sorry to you for ruining your life" he whispered

"Abeer..." I whispered and he looked at me smiling but it's a painful smile!

"Don't pronounce the name Meera, with..without my surname. It will disgust you" he told and I looked at him.

"It's.. It's not like that.." I said

"It's exactly like this only. You know you did just one mistake in life.." He told and I looked at him confused

"Marrying me. It was really a mistake. Your life would've been amazing. Marrying me you ruined yourself Meera" he said and I looked shocked at him.

"It was my decision" I told

"And it was wrong. " he said 

"Yeah... it was" I whispered

No doubt it was wrong.

Even if I try thinking all nice about him...my mind replays what ever happened and I'm not able to see any of his positive point.

"You just take rest Meera. I'll talk with Advik and prepare papers. I'll free you from all the relations Meera" he said

This Meera from his mouth today is so different.

  They're holding some another emotions !! The emotions which I can't understand!!

Or may be I don't want to understand!!!

"Can I go to the library" I asked

"It's all yours Meera" he said

He'll take me there ?

"I'll call home staff to help you go there" he said

"My legs are perfectly fine. I can move by own "I told

"You're still my responsibility "he said and moved out of the room.

This sudden change in behavior !
Is this true or everything  is just a facade.

Can a person really change this soon.

I can't trust him. I really can't.

When I look at him I find everything so genuine but all of a sudden I remember everything what happened last night.

I remember how I was forced by my own husband.
I remember how I pleaded him but he didn't listen for even once.
I remember how I was crying but he didn't care about a single tear.
I remember how he questioned me on my character.
I remember how his each word pierced my heart.
I remember how....................
.........
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I Started Liking Him....

And....

I ended up hating him !!!!!!

Bikhri zindagi ke pal sawarne lage the....
Han tumhare khayal sar chadhne lage the !
Kitna bhi chahe nazarandaz kar de...
Par sach pucho to tum dil mai ghar karne lage the !!

(The broken parts of life were healing...
And yes your thoughts were getting in my head !
How much even  if I try ignoring them...
But honestly telling you were making a home in my heart!! )

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Hello guys. Hope you all are doing amazing. So Abeer is ready to give divorce😢😔😔😔...
Will this relationship end here before starting??
What will happen??
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