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~Driftwood_Heart

•Alan's POV•

I watched as Austin pulled into my driveway and turned the car off. I really wanted to spend more time with him today but I was afraid he would think I was to clingy or something.
"Alan you okay?" I nodded my head and turned to him and smiled.
"I had lots of fun today. I guess I'll see you tomorrow or..."
"Can I come in?" I nodded my head eagerly and jumped out of the car. He followed me to the front door, laughing at my excitement. What could I say? He made me extremely happy when he wasn't making me extremely sad.

I pulled him upstairs to my room and once I shut the door and turned around I kind of froze. It was awkward now. I didn't know what to do. I know what I wanted to do though. I wanted to run up to him and tangle myself in his arms, but I didn't want to step over any unspoken boundaries. I just stood at my door and fiddled with my thumbs as the silence in the room grew.

"Come here." I heard him say and I was over to him as fast as possible. He wrapped his arms around me and I cuddled myself into his chest.
"I'm sorry Alan. I shouldn't have been like I was today. I'm really sorry." He said on my ear and the way his breath fanned on my ear caused me to shiver.
"It's okay Austin." I said and smiled up at him.

"What do you want to do?" He asked and I hesitated a moment before speaking.
"C-can we cuddle?" I asked.
"Anything for you kitten." I smiled widely at him and climbed on to my bed. He laid down and I was busy trying to decide where to lay when Austin pulled me down on top of him like a blanket.

I giggled as he placed his hand on my sides. His fingers lightly tickling them.
He ran them up and down my side and I buried my head in his chest and somehow managed to wrap my arms around his neck even though we were laying down. Due to our current laying position and both of our heights Austin's hand easily reached down to run over the back of my thigh as the other one rubbed my back.

I purred, actually purred, into his chest and before I knew it I felt the tingling sensation of a shift. I sat up quickly on his lap and tried to clam myself from shifting fully. Thankfully it worked but I was still left with my ears and tail. I hid my ears in my hair and curled my tail around my waist.

"Hey why didn't you shift?" He asked and I felt guilty for my reason.
"Because."
"Because why?" He said persistently and sat up so he was closer to me.
I was afraid to shift around Austin. Why? I was afraid he may switch emotions like he has a tendency to do and hurt me. I was by no means a tough individual but I could take a few punches, but my little kitten couldn't. I knew in the back of my mind Austin wouldn't hurt me but I still had a lingering feeling of doubt.

"Kitten please?"
I sighed and looked down. "I'm afraid you may like..."
"Hurt you?" He said in disbelief and I nodded my head.
"Alan I would nev-"
"When you found out we were mates what did you do?" I asked and was met with silence. "You slammed me against a wall and punched me in my stomach. I looked at you in the hallway. Just looked and you did the same thing.  You slammed me into a locker then kissed me. You have a tendency to yell and when you yell it's really scary. You've barely just accepted me as your mate and you want me to fully show you everything but I'm  afraid I'll mess something up and make you mad." I said truthfully.

"You make it sound like you're in a abusive relationship."
"That's not what I mea-"
"I know." He cut me off. "But when you say it like that, that's what it sounds like. Like you're scared of me." He said with a broken look on his face.

"Alan I'm so sorry for everything I've done to you in the past. All the insulting names I've called you. The times me and my friends beat you up." He brung a hand up to my face and rubbed a thumb across my cheek. "I'm so fucking sorry and I'm going to make up for it. For everything. I don't want you to be scared of me."
"I'm not. I'm just weary of making a mistake."
"And that's the point I'm making. You haven't done anything wrong. It's all me. All of it. You're so precious and I don't realize how I didn't notice before. I'm so sorry Alan."
"Austin it's fine." I assured him.
"I'm gonna try and be more level headed. I won't snap on people and I won't yell if it scares you. I didn't know it did." He sighed and wrapped his arms around me.

"I don't really know anything about you Alan, but I want to learn all your little quirks. It's been what two days and we've already had enough drama between us as if we've been together for ages."
"It's because of the bond we have." I told him. "Our emotions aren't just regular. We feel things and we feel them in an extreme way."

"I've never felt attraction for someone quite like you but I'm glad, despite what I've said in the past, that your my mate." He said and I smiled before leaning in and kissing his lips softly. The smile he gave me when I pulled back caused my ears to pop up from my hair and Austin awe'd.  He reached a hand up to pet my head and I smiled at the contact.

"God you're beautiful." He said as my tail wrapped around his leg.
"Shhh." I said and blushed.
"Your kitten must be adorable. Are you ginger?"
"What do you think?" I laughed. "What about you? Can your ears just come out?"
"That's just a cat quality I think, but my wolf is black with a gray stripe down from my neck to the bottom of my stomach."
"Can I see it?" I asked hopefully.
"One day" he smiled at me.