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Ashley's POV

"Anyway, where is your family?"

Rapmon asked me. My family? I only have my mom. Can I trust them?  Should I tell them the truth about my life? I became quiet because of his question. I scowl my face and stare at the glass I held.

"I - I don't know how should I start but I left my mom at our place and my dad died 3 years ago."

I heard both of them sigh and I also felt Jin caressed my back.

"So, who's with your mom? Why did you left her? Anyway, sorry about your Dad."

Jin trying to console me. I suddenly thought of my mom. I will take her with me once I got my first salary.

"The truth is... Jin, the night you saw me at the bus station, that was the time I escaped the bad guys who abducted me from my house. They spare my mom's life in exchange of me coming with them. I was scheduled that night to come with an old man but I ran from them and luckily one stranger helped to get away from them. "

I snort and glance at Jin.

"I owe you everything Jin. I don't even have an idea where I am. Therefore, I need to move on with my life and live so I can go to my mom and take her away from our place."

I drink the wine first and finish it in just few seconds. It taste sweet and bitter at once. I immediately felt my cheeks heated because of the alcohol.

"Then, take your mom at the dorm."

Rapmon exclaimed that made me turn to him, also Jin.

"The girls need someone to look after them."

I quickly put down my glass at the center table and held Rapmon's hand.

"Really? Can I take my mom here? I mean, there at the dorm? No kidding?  Seriously?"

I cannot contain my excitement.  Rapmon smiled and nodded at me but he wince his face when his eyes landed to my hand that holding him.

"Okay, okay. Let's go to your mom tomorrow and take her. Call her before we leave the house so she's prepared when we get there."

That excites me more so I stood up and hugged Rapmon so tight.therefore, he pushed me away and he looked so annoyed. He eye me intently and he scowl his face.

"Just embrace me instead."

Jin pulled me into a hug but Rapmon grab my wrist then he speak.

"Jin."

"Rapmon."

"You want me angry?"

"Can you?"

"I can!"

"I didn't remember it happen, ever."

"This will be first, Jin."

I stare at both of them. They look like married couple fighting for a nonsense thing. I know they are not fighting over me, there's no reason for them to be.

"How about group hug?"

"That's better! Great idea!"

Rapmon glance at me scowling his face and wincing. 

"I am not joining!"

"Please?" I pleaded to Rapmon but he just stare at me blankly.

"Rapmon, hug me."

Rapmon, Immediately hug him without hesitation. Did they somehow forgotten that I am still here? They embrace each other for about 5 seconds. I felt awkward and I don't now what to say.

"Eherm, eherm!"

I interrupted their moment. They both glance at me then Rapmon quickly broke the hug.

"Bro."

"Bro."

"Tsk! Just forget the hug thing! Let's just continue to celebrate. And again,  I want to say thank you. Heaven really brought both of you to my life."

I was about to sit down again on the couch when I feel them hug me suddenly. 

That made me smile. I felt so safe, felt so lucky.

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I am in front of my apartment, here inside my car. I can still feel my heart thumping fast because of the commotion earlier. Some of the them chased me and asked for my autograph. Why can't they understand me saying "don't come near me."? And I told them a lot of times that I am not the author of that book which is a lie. But, that's the only way I could escaped them.

I went out my car and walk towards the door of my apartment. Then a small white paper stick at the door by the use of Scotch tape got my attention. Again, there is a hand written message on it. 

"Why so afraid of touch? I am not dirty."

I felt a sudden headache kick in. I quickly open the door and went inside the house. I left my shoes outside and wear my indoor slipper. I wash my hand first at the kitchen sink properly then got a plastic bag and gloves. I get my shoes from the outside and put in inside the plastic bag. Next thing I do is spray alcohol at the door handle, lastly, get the paper at the door and put it on the trashcan inside my house.

"I guess, that was done by my stalker again."

I snort and get into the bathroom to take a bath and clean myself. I was in the middle of soaping myself when it slide off my hand and I know, I will never pick it up to use again because it is DIRTY.

Flashback  17 years ago.

YOU are so Dirty! 

Fat!

Oily!

You smell so bad!

Filthy!

Gross!

Nasty!

Those we're the things I always heard at my school almost everyday. I am fat too. Obese to be exact. My granny love me so much that she fed me a lot. I can't say no to her food especially when she's the one who prepared it.  My mom is also a good cook, she's the one who prepare my food for school.  So I don't mind those words. I am happy, I am contented, I am always  full. 

I also have friend, Jimin and my younger sister Kelli. We are just fine but we can't be together always because we are in different grade year.

Until one day, the day when my world crash. The day my mom left me, us.  They never told me why. I was so sad. I always cry. If I before did not mind the bullying of my schoolmates, now, I take them personally deep down myself. I only have Kelli and Grandma who stayed with me. 

Until again one day, after few months. Father brought a girl in our house.  She looks younger than my mom and she is with a boy with the same age as me. Therefore, he is fit, taller, have fair honey skin and unique smile.

I tried to accept them, I tried to befriend with the boy. Though grandma did not like them ever, still,  for my dad, I tried. Then one day my dad decided to make my Granny leave the house because that woman and her always fight and since she is the wife.  Granny don't have a choice but to leave.

 That's when my life started to change. The woman started to change her way of how she treat me. She always beat me with NO sufficient reason especially when my dad is not around.  One day I tried to call my Granny but she caught me and threatened  me that she could hurt my sister Kelli too if I would not shut up my mouth. 

I sometimes went to school with bruises on my body. That woman never hit me in the face, because my dad and Kelli could saw it. I just wear jacket when I go to school even the weather is hot. I need to endure. I need to protect my sister from that witch.  Sometimes, I blame my mom. If she did not left, if she did not forget about us then all of this have not happened to me. 

The witch rarely feed me, she always keep me lock in my room. I get thin,  more pale, breathing but not alive.  Until this one night when Taehyung,  her son entered my room. I thought he came to help me, that he pity me. But I was wrong. He break all my toys, kick them and mess my room. I get mad, I pushed him to the ground and punch his face then he cried out loud. So loud that the whole house can hear him.

Then her mom, the witch came. She attended his bad son and inspect his face. When she saw his son's lips bleeding he quickly grab my arms and pulled me up then give me a strong slap on my face. She slap me four times! Then push me on the ground.

"I hate you! I will tell my Granny all of this! My sister and I will left this house ! We will find our mom!"

The woman chuckle and throw me her death stare. She grabbed my both shoulder and shook me.

"Huh! Go tell your old Granny! And your mom? Do you have any idea why she left ?"

I keep shaking my head but one part of myself like to know why my mom left us.

"Your mom is a bitch! She left your dad to be with another man! She have her own family now! And don't ever wish for her to come back because she will never  ever come back to a dirty, nasty,filthy son like you!"

Her words weakened my knees, I like to fell and cry and cry. I can't believe her! My mom is not a bitch, mom will never leave me just because I am dirty!
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he woman left the room stamping her feet while Taeyhung stares at me with his taunt expression. I finally fell off the ground, I don't know what to think.I look around my room, it is messy. 

"What a pity! Your Mom left you because your filthy! Clean yourself properly then maybe your mom will come back! And anyway, even if not. I know you can't let your mom see you at the street looking nasty, right?"

Taehyung, also left. And I am alone.  What if they are right? I soulessly stood up and enter the bathroom. I get the soap from the bathroom counter and started to wash my hand. I felt tears fell off my face. I need to wash my hand, I need to be clean. I can't let my mom see me dirty. She will come back home with me when she met me looking tidy and neat. After washing my hand for about half an hour and my skin already wrinkled. I look at my hands and mumble. 

"From now on I am always be clean,  mom."

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I saw the old lady hapilly looking at some photos in her hands. I wonder why dad let her live again here.  Everything is just fine without her.  Since she's here. My mother get back to her pretending nice attitude and I hate that.

I go to the living room and I caught Kelli there watching on the flat screen television. She's wearing a Patrick color gray loose t-shirt and color black concise short. She's scrolling on her phone as I survey her.

She has white fair skin, small eyes with thick and long eyelashes, small Cupid lips, red painted cheeks. Her body proportion is perfect. Also, she's a confident girl. No wonder she able to build her own company of course with the help of her dad, still she manage to make it grow and bigger. I know she is still my step sister but We are not relative, we share not a drop of blood. A loud ringtone of my phone snap me out from my thoughts. 

That's the time she glance at me. She scowl her face, turn off the t.v and  stand up from the couch and walk away from me.

"Kelli."

She turned to me stamping her feet and wince as she look at my face. 

"What?"

 I put my hands in my pocket and show her the sweetest smile I could give before I speak. 

"Do you... hate me?"

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