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I know Suga and I often go out the date ever since we agreed to become date buddy but the vibes we have today is different from our past dates.

He was very gentleman. He let me order my own food for the first time but explain me first which of the menu is healthy to eat. We even go to the Zoo. The same Zoo where we lost Bam-Bam. I suddenly miss the kid.

We are both standing in front of the rabbit booth. He was eyeing the fluffy small animals intently. He even furrowed his brows like he was problematically asking himself how those kid play around with rabbits.

"Do you wanna go in? I'll come with you." I gave him a smile encouraging him.

"Will they put me in jail if suddenly threw one of them? You know, out of shock." He whispered to my ears careful not others hear him. Suga's warm breath tickles my ears. My heart suddenly throb fast. The thing he confessed to me earlier rewind again into my head. My cheeks heated. 

"Com'on Ash! Let's fight those little things!" Suga exclaimed excitedly. Of course he is wearing a gloves. We get in both. Children are around us looking up while maybe thinking why these huge people are inside the rabbit's booth?

I first kneel down and get offer my palm to one gray colour rabbit with food bits on it. The furry little one excitedly hop closer to my hand and eat the food. After it was done eating. I carried it in my arms and immediately dab a touch on its soft fur.

"Touch it. It feels like a soft blanket. It also don't bite. They are friendly and only eat vegetables." I said and stretch my hand to him that carrying the cute rabbit.

"Of course I know all of those. No need to inform me." Suga react and only look at the little one.

"My arm is hurting! This little one is quite heavy!" I complained and stretch it closer to him. Suga took a one step backward. I sigh and put down the rabbit in front of his feet.

"Let's just go out if you are not ready to touch it. I'm glad though that you manage to enter here." A smile crawl onto my face. Yet, Suga suddenly pick up the rabbit but not nearing it his body. He was like carrying a dirty plastic bag.

"Wow! Amazing!" I clapped my hands for him. Suga smile at me and freed a soft laugh.

"This little one is soft as blanket just like you said." He praised the rabbit's fur.

"How I wish you can touch that rabbit bare hands next time." I tickles the tummy of the rabbit and it response. It scratch Suga's hand and thankfully he didn't throw it and just lay it down back together with its mates.

"Yeah, they don't bite but scratch!" Suga exclaimed and we both laugh.

After the tiring Zoo adventure. We go home straight. I slam myself on the couch and there he was appointing to our shoes putting it inside the plastic bag. He's been doing it everyday. I don't know hot to make him stop. Sometimes, he took a bath twice before wearing his suit and go to work. I cannot imagine how was his life before when he's alone. Maybe he took about more than five in a day and cleaned the whole house almost every moment.

Good thing I am here. I sometimes do remind him that he already did the things he is about to do again and prove it to him. It was kind of tiring but there something inside of me that urging me not to give up. It's my first time to see his other OCD problem. I thought he only cannot touch and hate dirt to death. Yet, I'm doing all of it not because I owe him lots of help but because I want him to finally become better and totally heal. Though some habit will not be erase just like Dra. Morgan have mentioned form our last visit.

I watch him cleaning the already clean small table wiping away the invisible dirt that only Suga can see and put down his laptop carefully. I pulled the single couch near the table and he was annoyed after he saw what I did.

"Ash, please. Put back that couch or else I could not focus in my work." Suga pleaded. I immediately stood up and he is watching as I putting back the couch. He looks like not breathing until finally sigh when he get satisfied.

"I wonder how was your life when you were alone here and not yet taking the medical assistance that you need before." I asked. Suga open his laptop and shrug.

"It was worst but for me it is just normal. I am used to it." It saddened me.

"What are you gonna do?" I asked changing the topic.

"I will send an update to my Boss. It's been one month the last time a update and I promise him that I will send him one after one month. If I will not do it today. These will not let me sleep." Suga smile as he explain.

"Are you writing the ending?" I asked again. I am excited about the book too and I having the previlage to see what's in it before it became a hard bound book excites me a lot.

"Nope. Maybe a turning point. I am at climax already." He answered not taking off his eyes from the screen.

Then I notice his forefinger hitting the enter button for multiple times already as he wait for the file to open. I sigh quietly not letting him hear. I bow near next to him and touch his hand to make it stop tapping the keyboard since it is not necessary.

"Relax, Suga." I whispered and I sense Suga turned to me.

"Thanks." He said next to my ear and I glance at him. Our faces are only one or two inches apart. I can feel his warm breath against my skin. His minty respiration were inhaled by me. My heart goes wild again this time. Our eyes lock with each other. There is something in his eyes that don't let me wanna go. It is very encticingly beautiful. I see his eyes suddenly wander and I gulp tough when his gaze landed on my lips.

"Can I kiss you?"

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My head is throbbing painfully when I woke up. Blame the alcohol! My inner self scream. I massage my temple and weakly sit up from bed. I can smell the liquor from my nostrils breath. I look around my bedroom and confusion welcome me when I see washbin on the side with towel in it and a glass of water. It's cold for sure since some water droplets drooling downward to the little plate underneath it. My stomach churn and my throath yells for water and so I grabbed the glass and drink its content bottoms up.

I sluggishly woke up from bed and I was surprise to see myself wearing my Patrick Pyjama. Right then, realization hit me as slight memories throw back in my brain. I covered my mouth to step myself from squealing then I smack my head few times.

"What have you done, Kelli!" I chide to myself and ran inside the bathroom. I quickly brush my teeth and took a shower. I change into a simple house cloth and go downstairs targeting the kitchen while massaging my temple.

I walk straight to the freezer and get more water. I thought I was alone and scratching my stomach making the stomack skin reveal when I turn around and see Taehyung there at the dining table having his coffee.

He smirk and put down the mug on the table. "I see you really gained weight." I hurriedly pulled down the hem of my blouse while my cheeks heated. I glare to him showing how embarrassed I am but deep inside I am glad. He don't have a clue how wonderful for me to see him first thing in the morning.

"I didn't gained weight!" I hissed and put the glass on the kitchen washstand.

"The belly fat just said Hi to me moments ago." Taehyung put a grin on his face. He stood up from his seat and walk closer to me. So close like I can hear his heartbeat and the air form his breath touching againts my skin.

"Taehyung! Stop it! What if someone caught us and conclude we are doing something incest!" I hissed yet he just chuckled and put distance between us. I finally can breath properly again.

"You really good at acting Kelli huh. What about the Staying by your side 'till the end of the war you said last night?" He put his arms crossed againts the chest and smirk. I tried to avoid his gaze but his already caught mine and lock with him.

"I... I was drunk and... " I sigh when Taehyung's face suddenly replace with sadness. "Look. Okay, I will not take back my words but I need to think about it clearly. I cannot loose either you nor my brother..." Taehyung's smile grow back to his face. He take steps closer again to me and hold my hand.

"Don't worry.  I can wait but... Can I have one request?" He asked. Hope is in his eyes are present. They are full of emotions gladness, doubt, fears. They are mix altogether.

"What is it?" I gulp as I waited for his answer.

"Shall we date?" Taehyung asked like a shy teenager boy, asking out the girl he had crush since elementary days. Yet, dread scenarios across my thinking.

"What if people see us? I mean, we may have paparazzi out there waiting for our wrong move and let out huge news about us." I said with fear and Taehyung cup my cheeks calming my senses down.

"Who told you we'll go out to have date? We will do it here at home. Movie Marathon and eat Pizza? Are you in?" I nod my head. I felt so happy. And now I finally decided to not let go of this guy and fight for what I feel. He is my step brother I know, but there are countries who marry their cousins with same DNA and we don't have that. Besides, this is our love story. The heartaches will remain ours. People may emphatize but they will forever remain as only viewers. I only need to follow what's in my heart and it is yelling this man's name.

"I'm in."

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Update because Hype!

Suley and Taelli in one update! I'm bathing in my tears.

Hope to see Author Suga's update next few chapters!  He he he

Mister
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