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I hold on to the stem of rose I bought from a flower shop while looking through the tinted black window of my car. I didn't notice that it's branch already broken because of the tightness of my grip to it out of anger.

My heart seemed to tear down as I watched Kelli and Jungkook laugh while walking and holding a coffee. They seem too close to each other. I love Kelli's smile yet I hate it that she only smile that bright to other people, especially when she's with Jungkook. Kelli, never once gave me that smile. Moreover, what went into my brain and decided to buy a flower? I know that she will not accept it, even there is an occasion. Kelli, has never accepted a gift from me and that hurts me a lot.

I did not withstand and got off the car. I need to know why are they so happy together. I don't care if this means I'm ruining Kelli's day, all I need to know and see are why, why Kelli cannot smile at me the way she did with Jungkook?

"Hi, Ms. Min."

I greeted her and ignore Jungkook. I saw him scowl his pretty face and scrunch his nose. Like he was irritated to seen my face. Kelli, on the other hand suddenly sigh exhaustedly like my existence was unwanted and I unfortunately ruined her brightful day.

"What is it?"

Kelli asked with shade of annoyance in her voice yet she's suppressing herself to be angry. She shove her gaze into mine yet revoked it immediately and face Jungkook. 

"Go on first, Jungkook. I'll go up later." 
Jungkook gracefully sip in his coffee before attempted to leave. Therefore, he suddenly stop and glance at Kelli. I don't know what was going on until I witnessed Jungkook wipe something at the corner of Kelli's lips and taste his thumb after then said.

"Your coffee is sweeter than mine. I'll sue that coffee shop."

Kelli, didn't complain. Instead, she giggles and hit Jungkook's arm lightly and shoo him away after. I suddenly became invisible. My chest felt so painful like it was being squeezed inside along with it's loud thump. Kelli, surely knows how to break my heart. However, seeing her smile beautifully this close is a dream come true though I know that gesture wasn't for me. Still, it's fantastic and unforgettable.

"Hey? What kind of polluted air brought you here!"

I was snapped back to reality as I heard Kelli's high pitch voice asking me that, hurtful question. Why can't she once treat me as a person?

"I... Come with me. I need to tell you something important."

I told her and all she did was check her gold plated wrist watch and sigh afterwards. I was hoping that she'll give me some of her time. I want to treat her out the restaurant. Besides, I really came to tell her somehing... About her mom.

"Look, I don't know if that was real important but I have meeting with some producers in thirty minutes. If you like, I will come at the MEC later. I also need go to and check Suga."

I made me sad but, the fact that she still give me time later somehow light up my mood. I put my hands inside my pocket and gaze at her chocolate brown eyes and it journey down to her red lips. If we were not in a public place, I will kiss this woman until we both lost our breath.

"Okay. Message me when you're on your way to the premises."

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I took off my huge round spectacles and laid it on my little office table. I massage my temples because my head hurts again. It's real hard to really pretend. I was forced to make a hair bangs and wear old fashion spectacles with a grade.

It's true that I went closer to him, to my one love. Yet, he's still the same. He never gave me smile, he never let me touch his hands. But, I'm happy because we sometimes talk about work and his voice, his raspy lazy voice is a great sound to my ears and it heals my longing heart. I even got an autograph from him.

Therefore, I just found out that he will marry that ugly girl. What did Suga like about her? She is very plain! Not feminine and don't know fashion. I never thought that Suga has low qualification when it comes to a woman. But, I won't loose hope. I won't stop until the day they do their vows. I didn't sacrifice much to gain nothing and besides, I have someone to support me at my back.

My phone vibrates that made a noisy sound within my small space. I immediately pick it up and smile crawl on my face when I saw who was calling me. I need to answer the call yet I walk towards the ladies comfort room first.

I pressed the answer button once I assured that no one is here with me in the comfort room.

"Yes? What can do for you, handsome?"

I heard him sigh first and chuckled. His deep raspy voice somehow tickle my senses. I don't love that guy, but we have some kind of business and we sometimes play in the bedroom when we're bored.

"I will try. Okay, send me the details and I'll be there. I will message you when Suga allowed me to go home earlier."

I hang up the call after the conversation and get back to my small office. I get my black shoulder bag and put inside my cellphone and approach Suga's office. It's only few steps away from mine.

I took a deep sigh to calm my beating heart first before I knock on the door three times. I'm always like this. I see him almost everyday, yet, my heart always celebrate when I know I'm going to see his handsome serious face.

I rotate the doorknob after I calm down my ass and peep on the door. I caught him seriously gazing at the laptop and his perfect white toned hands are gracefully working on the keyboard. I wonder how it feels like to be touch by those manly hands.

I quietly tip toes so I wouldn't disturbed him though I know he knows I'm coming in when I trip on my own feet and unluckily stumble on the pavement. I grunt when the cold marble ground kissed my butt. That's when Suga, eventually gave me his attention and finally look at me. He didn't move at first yet he stood up and approach me.

"S-sorry, I... I came here to..."

I was stopped in mid sentence and I almost cry in joy when I see a white hand in front of me like asking me to held it. I slowly look up and I see Suga's serious face darting to mine.

"Are you going to accept my help or you will stand up alone?" He asked in a cold tone.

Of course, I did not let the chance slide and took his little help. He used some strength to pulled me up. When he was sure that I am standing straight. Suga, immediately pull away his hands from me and walk behind his table and get something from the small cabinet underneath the office table. Afterwards, I witness him spray liquid on his palm and when the smell shove to my nostril. It was ALCOHOL.

"Now, why you here?" Suga asked, while he massage his delicate hands with alcohol. He sat down again on the swivel chair and face his laptop.

"I have an emergency at home. I... I need to go home early, my mothe---"

Suga cut me again by gesturing his hand for me to shut up, which I did. I still stare at him and my heart don't stop thumping so fast and loud.

"Ok, you may go."

He said. I bow down and said my thanks thou he wasn't looking at me. I hastily turned my back and approach the door when he suddenly speak.

"Stop wearing high heels if it will only put you in danger. I don't like to waste any money for your medication."

I continue to walk out and close the door behind me. I immediately grabbed my chest for it gets more wild after I heard his last remarks. I'm not sure if he is insulting me or he does care. All I know is, Suga is talking to me more now and I finally...  I finally touch his hand!

My plan is working.

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Update

I missed TaeLli shipped.  Lol.

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