Thank you for being strong and for everything. Thank you for being a fighter and a survivor of all.
Thank you for keeping yourself standing still. Thank you for waking and trying to live again without those people who let you suffer alone.

You backstabbed a knife. They killed you more than the words and pain of yesterday. They make you dumb for being hopeless and alone wondering how to lived without them in your side. They leave you wondering why everything happened in front of you.

You suffered alone and broken into pieces because you're not perfect. They kicked you more and rejected you like a piece of trash. They killed the independent and strong woman who was weak at that time. They let you broke alone and hoped you may die that time.

And now, they said that enjoying your life while no one can see your mistake? What were those words for? What in the world do you do to hear those bullshit words coming from someone you trusted well? How come after everything you did for them they killed you more.

They want you to be killed and be killed a million times. We don't know why we need to face those shitty acts after all. It's so exhausting to trust when someone always wants you to be alone and be in pain all the time. They hate you and you hate yourself for always trusting the same person who always makes you more miserable.

It's okay to be kind because you love them. It's okay to forgive yet the more they killed you, the more the pain and anger eating you wanted to diminish them in your life. They can't help you to improve, instead they double and thrice your anger to ignore them and be out of your life.

It's hard to trust when trust is not applicable anymore. It's hard to keep friendships when that friendship becomes the worst thing to happen in my life. They killed and always wanted me to be killed in agony. How cruel to trust and love those people. It's hard to keep moving to fix things when they always make something to avoid their toxicity.

I got tired of it. I wanted to let those people out of my life and live alone without their eyes in front of me. I wanted them to diminish in my memories. I wanted them out of concern anymore. It's killing me and their toxicity is hard to handle. It's hard to fix the things that taught us to leave them behind closed doors.

I got tired of their attitude. They push you in your limitations and want to be happy without them. They triggered the anger that you keep it balanced to fix things for them. They killed the hope that you wanted to be okay. How can you fix things when you get tired of them killing and hurting because of their toxic tendency. 

I hate myself for being evil yet this is the one thing I wanted to let go of now because it's too much to fix things when someone doesn't help you with your peace of mind instead they let you question yourself of being kind or evil. They focus on your mistakes rather than your success today…that they don't know how hard to achieve your goal, happiness and peace of mind today.

They leave you when you need them that day. They create chaos when you just need someone who can understand and make you feel you're not alone along the journey. They judge you when you make mistakes and they kill you more when you're already in hell.  They laughed with your immaturity and they pushed you in mud to not be able to stand still and now seeing the lioness in you…they hated you for that.

They create another bunch of attacks to kill you again and stand what your place is at that time. They create suffering in you emotionally and play your minds constantly without blinking what may affect you that day. They blamed you for being weak instead of helping you grow. What the fuck is that story line. What the heck are weaknesses when you're totally bad-ass today?

You choose to stay and stand alone without them in your life. You choose to be who you are without judgment. You choose your dream and be happy again freely. You choose to be happy and have a peace of mind without their chaotic manipulation. You choose to keep yourself in a limitless dream of being you today. What's wrong with being you today? What's wrong being perfect with what you want tomorrow and what's wrong being you and be enough you in the future?...with those people you deserve.