Song: Naked- James Arthur 

Busted

Every second, our kiss gets harder and hotter. I kept moaning every time he's trying to kiss me on my neck.

I reached for him para mabalik muli ang halik niya sa labi ko. He pulled away from the kiss to remove his shirt. Siguro naiinitan na siya. I helped him with it.

My eyes widened a little when I saw his body completely. Never ko pa itong nakita. Behind his uniform, I know there's a god-like body. At tama nga ako lalo na't kitang-kita ko ito ngayon. Harap-harapan.

He did not remove his dog tag so I used it to pull him towards me again. Bumaba ang kamay ko sa kanyang pantalon but he stopped me before I can fully unzip it.

"No, Margaux." Nababahala niyang sinabi. I frowned.

No! I want this!

How come that he made me so hot for him and he's going to be the one to stop me? I don't get him.

"Please... Jaxon. I want this. I want this so bad." I pleaded. Lumiyad ako para maabot siya. I brought back his lips to mine again.

"Margaux... This is-"

"Shh... It's okay." I shut him up. 

My hands reach for his zippers and they finally removed it. Natira nalang sakanya ang kanyang boxers. Hindi na ako nagulat sa laki nito. Of course, he's massive! Kaya siguro natural nalang rin na ganito ang kanya.

He cursed at sa huli ay bumigay na rin. Hindi na siya nakapagpigil pa. He quickly removed my shirt and pants. Leaving my bra and panties on. His mouth traveled its way down to my jaw, to my neck and now to my chest. Lumiyad ako at napapikit nalang. Pinasadahan niya ng kamay ang aking katawan. Tracing my every curve.

I moaned again when his hand grabbed my left breast.

"Oh my god, Jaxon..." I called out for him.

"Tell me to stop then I will." He said in a very husky voice. 

That only makes me want him more.

"No... Don't stop." I whispered. He stares at me for a while before kissing me again.

I don't feel satisfied with what he's doing kaya binaligtad ko ang posisyon namin. Hindi ko akalain na kaya ko palang gawin iyon lalo na sa laki at lakas niya.

Now I'm on top of him. Hinawakan niya ako sa aking baywang. I bit my lip and lowered myself.

I don't know who I am right now. This is a different side of Margaux. And only Jaxon will be able to see it.

My lips travelled down his neck and his chest. Tumingala ako upang tingnan siya. I smiled when I saw him biting his lip. Tinuloy ko ang aking ginagawa. My lips found its way down his stomach. He tightened his hold on me. I gave him wet kisses down there. I heard him moan silently. I smirked.

I thought I will be the only one who will keep on moaning.

"Damn it." He whispered. 

With every strength he got, binaligtad niya ngayon ang posisyon namin. His lustful eyes are looking at me with so much passion. It's like its telling me that he cannot control himself anymore. That he's done controlling himself.

"Do it." Sabi ko.

I need to assure him that it's okay if we will do it now. I just want him so much. Hindi ko kakayanin kung hindi niya mabibigay ang gusto ko ngayon.

"Are you sure?" He gave me a questioning look. Nababahalang baka napipilitan lang ako sa maaaring gawin namin ngayon.

I'm the one who initiated kaya hindi dapat siya mabahala! I nodded and I heard him cursed before he crashed his lips into mine. It gets hotter and hotter every minute. I need him so much right now. And I never thought I would be needing someone as much as I need him right now.

His hands were quick enough to remove my panties. I unclasped my bra. I'm fully naked in front of him. Pinasadahan niya naman ako ng tingin. I saw his lip twitched.

"Damn! Beautiful." I smiled.

May kaunting kiliti akong naramdaman when his fingers brushed my clit. Napaliyad ako nang di oras. His hands rubbed mine kaya naman mas napaliyad ako. I bit my lip and continued to moan out his name.

Oh. My. Freaking. Gosh.

He kissed my collarbones before he inserted his fingers inside of me.

"Ahh..." I couldn't recognize my voice right now. Hindi ko akalain na may tinatago pala akong ganito.

This is because of this man on top of me! Siya lang ang natatanging nakakagawa nito sa akin!

His fingers went gently in and out of me. Binalik niya naman ang kanyang halik sa aking labi. Halos hindi ko na masagot pa ang kanyang mga halik lalo na't ginagawa niya parin iyon.

"Oh my god..."

He stopped what he's doing. Mabilis akong napatingin sakanya. Why stop? Why stop when I'm almost having my orgasm because of him!

Nagulat naman ako nang ibinaba na niya ang kanyang boxers. I helped him with it.

I looked into his eyes. Gone is the Jaxon I know who's capable to hold himself all together. Nawala na sakanya ang pagpipigil na kanina niya pa ipinapakita sa akin.

Tinapat niya ang kanya sa akin. He looks at me at parang nagpapaalam. I reached for his face and kissed him tenderly before he can insert himself inside of me.

"I love you," I admitted. Tiningnan niya lang ako. I saw his mouth parted a little.

He answered me by finally inserting him inside of me. I moaned loud when he did. Hindi na alintala sa akin ang sakit na nararamdaman dahil napalitan agad ito ng kakaibang pakiramdam.

I felt so many sensations when he did that. My nails dugged deeper on his back every time he moves. Feeling ko nasusugatan ko na siya.

I heard him cursed and he slammed harder this time. Nararamdaman ko rin ang pag-uga ng kama niya dahil sa ginagawa. Wala na akong magawa kung hindi ang mapasabunot sakanya. 

Gosh! I didn't know it would feel like this.

I didn't know that...

"Have you proven it now?" He asked in the middle of slamming hard inside of me.

"H-huh?" Medyo napapapikit kong tanong sakanya. 

They didn't inform us that doing this will be so tiring! Daig pa ng pagod ko ngayon ang pagod ko tuwing may fourty-eight hour shift ako sa ospital.

"You told me that sex makes people happy... Have you proven it now?" I smirked. I can't believe he remembers that!

I remember telling that to him. At naaalala ko rin kung paano niya ako nireject noon. But look at us now! He's on top of me and he's slowly going inside and out of me.

I chuckled kahit pagod na pagod na. I hugged him when he slammed harder again this time.

"Definitely... Tested and proven." I whispered and I chuckled silently.

Our chest is covered with sweat because of what we just did. He thrusts one last time until I felt him spill inside of me. He gave me a long kiss bago niya ako tuluyang daganan.

He's breathing hard at halatang sobrang napagod. I laughed and kissed his shoulder. I ran my fingers through his massive arms.

"I think... I need to give some reviews about that article... Proves me right." Sabi ko.

I heard him chuckled. Napangiti ako doon. His chuckle is my favorite sound now.

Kulang nalang irecord ko ito at paulit-ulit na pakinggan hanggang sa makatulog ako. His chuckle his so manly that's why I love it so much.

"Do it." Aniya. Ako naman ang humagikhik ngayon.

Mas nauna akong magising sakanya. Hindi pa sumisikat ang araw nang magising ako. Madilim pa sa labas pero kitang kita ko ang payapang mukha ni Jaxon na natutulog sa tabi ko.

I smiled and admired his sleeping face. His lips are so pink and he also has very long eyelashes. I like his eyebrows, too. I ran my fingers through his forehead and hair.

Naramdaman ko siyang gumalaw. I smiled again. Sa tingin ko hindi na ata mawawala ang ngiti ko ngayon. I feel so happy right now. I couldn't put it into words!

Nakadagan ang kanyang hita sa akin kaya hindi ako ganon makagalaw. My chest is pressed against the bed at pinagpatuloy nalang ang ginagawang pagtitig sakanya.

Siguro mga madaling araw palang ngayon. I'm surprised I woke up really early kahit na sobrang pagod ako sa ginawa namin kagabi.

I bit my lip when what happened last night flashed inside my mind. It all happened so fast!

I can't believe it!

Naalala ko rin ang pag-amin ko tungkol sa nararamdaman ko sakanya. Hindi ko na pinansin pa ang hindi niya pagsagot pabalik noon.

What he did to me last night only proves me that... somehow... maybe he also feels the same.

Hindi niya naman siguro hahayaang mangyari 'yun kung hindi niya rin nararamdaman ang nararamdaman ko. I don't think that it's lust. I also felt his feelings that night.

Napatigil lang ako sa pag-iisip nang nakita kong nagmulat na siya ng kanyang mga mata. I immediately smiled at him nang tumama ang tingin niya sa akin.

"Good morning," bati ko.

He looks at our position. At nang makitang wala akong saplot ay napapikit nalang siya. Hinilot niya ang kanyang sentido.

"What's wrong?" Nagaalala kong tinanong sakanya.

He turned his back on me at hindi sumagot. Bumangon siya at pinulot ang boxer na nasa gilid ng kama. Napabangon rin ako at ginamit ang kumot upang matabunan ang aking dibdib.

"Jaxon..." I called.

He turned to me. He put his hands on his waist and malamig akong tiningnan. Nagulat nalang ako dahil sa tingin na binibigay niya sa akin.

"What's-" he cut me off na labis ko namang ikinagulat.

"You need to get out now." I raised my brows at him.

What?! Why is he throwing me out all of a sudden? Wala lang ba sakanya 'yung nangyari?

Was it only just a one-night stand for him?

"I-Is there a-any problem, Jaxon?" I asked. He ran his fingers through his hair and sighed.

"Nothing. I just need you to get out of here now." I blinked a lot of times. I think I blinked more than I normally blink.

Oh my god. This is not happening.

"O-Oh... Okay." Inalis ko ang sarili sa kama para makuha na ang mga damit ko na nasa sahig.

I changed my clothes quietly pero habang ginagawa ko iyon, may kirot na pumipintig sa aking puso.

I thought everything is going so well. Pero hindi pala...

I wonder how does a moment last forever? Akala ko tuloy tuloy na itong kasiyahang nararamdaman ko. I was wrong. May kasiyahang panandalian lang at isa ito sa nagpapatunay noon.

Pinigilan ko ang luhang nagbabadyang lumabas. You are not going to cry right now, Margaux.

I fixed my shirt at tumayo na. Nagkatinginan kami. I gave him a questioning look but instead, he opened his door as a sign that he really wants me out of his room. I sighed and followed him. Nang nasa opisina na niya kami ay nilingon ko siya. I saw his jaw clenched.

"What's the problem, Jaxon? Last night was-"

"Margaux, please. Just get out now." I laughed kahit wala namang nakakatawa. Ginawa ko lang iyon para hindi mapakita sakanya na nasasaktan ako.

Nasasaktan akong ipinagtatabuyan niya ako ngayon pagkatapos ng nangyari samin kagabi.

"Why do you want me out so much? Did I do something wrong?" Sinubukan kong lumapit sakanya but he stopped me from doing so.

"Please, Margaux-"

"We had sex last night if you didn't know. And now-"

"Yeah. We had sex and it stays there. It's not going to happen again." Mariin niyang pagkakasabi. My mouth parted. Nagulat sa ipinapakita niyang ugali sa akin ngayon.

May kung anong tumusok sa puso ko nang marinig ko ang salitang iyon na lumabas sa kanyang bibig. I can't believe him.

I sighed heavily until I gave in. Lumabas ako ng kwarto niya gaya ng sabi niya.

Maybe he's in shock. Maybe he needs time to process everything. I'll give him time. Iintindihin ko nalang siya.

It's still dark pero may mga sundalo nang nagiikot sa buong paligid. Nang makita akong lumabas galing sa kwarto ni Jaxon ay sinundan nila ako ng tingin.

Nagtataka siguro kung anong ginagawa ko sa loob ng opisina niya ng ganitong oras. I fixed my hair dahil alam kong gulo gulo pa ito. Yumuko ako at naglakad na patungo sa aking kwarto.

I couldn't go back to sleep that time. Patuloy na tumatakbo sa isip ko kung ano bang mali.

Did I do something wrong?

May mali ba akong sinabi?

Is telling him I love him wrong?

Pero kung mali iyon... sana kagabi palang... sinabi na niya sa akin. Sana kagabi palang pinagtabuyan niya na ako.

I closed my eyes to stop the tears.

Ngayon palang, napatunayan ko na... happiness is temporary. Especially to most people like me. We are bound to experience temporary happiness and they will take that happiness away from us when we least expect it.

'Yung akala mong maganda na ang takbo... Akala mo magpapatuloy siya hanggang huli... pero biglang may humarang at nawala lahat ng inakala mo.

I gave him space for days kasi baka iyon ang kailangan niya. Everytime our gazes meets, siya ang unang mag-iiwas ng tingin.

Tulala kong pinagmamasdan ang buong paligid. Iniisip kung ano ba ang naging mali ko ilang araw na ang makalipas. Naramdaman ko namang tumabi sa akin si Ethan. He offered me a cup of coffee. I accepted it at pinagmasdan muli ang buong paligid.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

Hindi ko rin alam. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong mali.

"Nothing," I lied.

"It doesn't look like it's nothing to me." Aniya. He knows me so well. "You have problems with Jaxon?"

Agad akong napalingon sakanya. Tumawa ako para hindi halata na tama nga ang tinutukoy niya.

"Of course not!" I denied. "Bakit naman ako magkakaroon ng problema sakanya?" Umiling iling ako at nagkukunwaring natatawa.

But deep inside, ang sakit.

Ang sakit isipin na hindi mo alam ang ginawa mong mali. Ang sakit isipin na hindi mo alam kung pano mo maiaayos ito dahil sa umpisa palang hindi mo na alam kung anong mali.

It sucks being clueless about what's happening. I think that what we are most afraid of... is not knowing. Not knowing if it's really worth it. Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose. Not knowing has always hurt us. From the very beginning.

"I don't know. Maybe-" he was cut off nang biglang nagring ang aking cellphone.

Kinuha ko ito at tiningnan kung sino ang tumatawag.

Nagulat ako nang makita ko na tumatawag si Daddy sa akin. It's been a while since he last called.

"Excuse me but I have to get this." Sabi ko at tsaka nagpaalam sakanya.

I was just about to say hello when I answered pero naunahan na niya agad ako nang itanong niya sa akin ang isang bagay na labis kong ikinagulat.

"Margaux! Is it true that you were seen outside Captain Ventura's office at five thirty in the morning?!"