"I still hope that you and I somehow end up happy together!"

Arshita's Pov

"Maybe"

That word made me sure that I was going to end at that hurting point once again. And whatever it was I was already trying to prepare myself for that.

An hour or so ago everyone left for their houses and I and Shubman were heading back to the cafe as I left my car there and we still needed to talk!

Both of us were silent during the whole ride afraid that words might hurt us more and might break the only thread that kept us still.

We reached the cafe and kept sitting in the car. I waited for him to speak and tell me what was wrong with him or what was bothering him.

I was trying to analyze his thoughts and emotions by looking at his face when he just kept his head down looking at his hands as if he was trying to fight with his feelings or maybe words!

"Shub" I finally said breaking the silence and he slowly looked up, "Will you say something?" I asked.

He looked at me and sighed, giving me a small smile that was really a sad one! He just shooked his head as a no and.

"I think we both need some rest!" he said.

I was going to protest, going to tell him that I wasn't tired at all, but when I looked at that godforsaken sad smile I knew he was saying this for himself! He looked like he had had enough for the day and he needed sometime.

"We'll talk soon" I said making him sure that I wasn't letting this go easily and that he can't back out.

He nodded a little distractedly but I was relieved when he held my gaze as he said, "Sure"

I held the car's door lock but but before I could open it I turned back and engulfed him in aright hug! He hugged me back instantly and I whispered, "Soon! It'll all be good" I said and he nodded.
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Finally it was a Saturday morning which means I woke up at 11:00 am. As soon as I sat on my bed the first thing I did was check my phone. I don't know why! Maybe I was expecting a message from him!

There was nothing. I walked down and saw mom in the kitchen. I walked upto her and she gave me a smile, "Good morning" she said and I also smiled.

"Good morning mom! What's going on?" I said and she pointed at the pancakes she was cooking.

"So how are you feeling?" she asked and I just nodded, "Better! Maybe" I said.

The next moment my phone beeped with a message and I quickly took it out from my pocket and looked at it! It wasn't him!

It was a mail from that writing contest for which I sent my poem just a day ago! The mail said that I was accepted for the competition and results will be mailed once they are analyzed.

I sighed and kept my phone back to my pocket when mom looked at me, "Waiting for someone's text or call?" she asked and I looked at her.

"No...not at all!" I said and she kept looking at me, I kept my head down and said, "Yess...I mean.... I don't know!"

"You'll get it don't worry" she said with smile and then picked up a rolled paper from the shelf next to her.

"Btw I found this!" she said showing me the paper and it was that competition's flyer! I didn't told her about this competition cuz I myself wasn't sure about it!

"Do you want to read it?" I asked and the next moment I thought why I said this cuz it felt like showing her all the feeling which I kept inside but when I saw the look on her face, I was happy cuz she gave me a big smile and said, "Suree!"

She abandoned whatever work she was doing as we made our way back to my room. We sat on my bed as I opened my laptop and that poem which I wrote.

She started reading it and I kept looking here and there trying not to embarass myself, I didn't know how she was going to react and she was the first person to whom I let read my work.

After a moment a huge grin made its way to my mom's face and she looked at me, "It's beautiful!" she said and I sighed in relief.

"Really?" I asked and she nodded happily, "Yess it's the best I've ever read" she said and I smiled.

"Is it for Shubman?" she asked suddenly and I looked at her, "I guess he was only person on my mind when I wrote this!" I said and she smiled.

I looked at her for a moment "Kuch kehna hai?" she asked and I nodded, "Ek question puchu" i asked.

"Do...do you still miss dad and when he left did you definition of love changed?" I asked and she looked down for a moment.

"Yesss kabhi kabhi I don't why but I really miss him! But you know what that's the thing about love" she said and caressed my hair with one hand and added, "You never stop loving one person, somewhere in your heart there is always a place for them, but if you end up meeting someone who loves you more there's nothing wrong in giving a piece of your heart to them cuz if they really love you they'll never break it" she said and I smiled.

That's when my mind raced and I knew what I had to do. Both curiosity and desperation was killing me and I decided not to wait anymore. I just wanted to know what was the thing that Shubman was feeling so distant to tell.

I hugged my mom and stood up thanking her. I took my car keys and told her, "Mom I understand and so I need to go!" I said and she smiled while nodding.
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I ram out of my house and sat in my car. I took out my phone and called Shubman! It was switched off, and that made me more curious.

I started driving to I don't know where. I kept thinking where I could I find him but my mind wasn't working. I tried calling him again and again but it was still switched off.

Whi is his phone switched off? Where is he? I was getting more and more desperate and so I called Abhishek! He picked it up after two rings.

"Heyy! Is Shub with you?" I asked and while worry was clear in my voice!

"No I talked to him in the morning and he said that he was going somewhere!" he said and then added, "Is something wrong?" he asked and I just sighed.

"No it's..... It's okay!" I said and ended the call.

I checked near the college, but he wasn't there. After that I went to our favourite Cafe but no luck.

Where are you?

That was the only question on my mind and answer to that seemed pretty difficult!

I sat still in my car outside that Cafe thinking of the possible places which he could have gone to! But my stupid mind also stopped working at this point.

Anxiety kept rising inside me as I kept knocking my hand on the steering wheel! And once again I picked my phone and dialled his number. Still switched off!

I kept my phone aside sighing and ran my hands through my hair. I took a deep looked at the time on the dashboard. It's been two hour since I'm driving and I still wasn't able to find him.

I kept thinking and something clicked in my mind. Ane the next moment I was driving again! This place was last I could think of, cuz all the hope I had had already drained!

I kept driving wishing for the best. I was afraid that if he wasn't going to be even there then what will I do?

I reached and stepped out of the my car instantly. I looked around and the beach looked more dark and shiny in the dim lights of the evening. I looked round recalling everytime we came on this beach!

I couldn't find him. I was veryy much disappointed in myself cuz I thought I knew him enough but I wasn't even able to find him when he needed me!

I turned to go back to my car when my eyes landed on a figure sitting under tree exactly where we sat on that night picnic.

I moved closer slowly, "Shub" I called and he shifted in slowly to look towards me.

I looked at him and the emotions rushed up inside me! Relief. Joy. Anger. LOVE.

All of them came at once.

I ran upto him and hugged him tightly scared to leave him as if he'd dissappear! I kept holding onto him as he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me back with the same urgency.

"Why did you find me?" he asked.

I broke the hug and gave him a 'Are you serious' look! "Are you fucking kidding me? Why wouldn't I look for you?" I said and and he just looked down.

"You scared the shit out of me!" I said hitting his arm lightly as he shooked his head slowly, "I'm sorry!"

We sat under that tree trying to comfort each other or maybe we just needed each other and everything could have been alright!

"Shub what happened? Why are you here? Will you tell me?" I said looking at him while he kept silent looking towards the sea.

"Is it about your dad?" I asked slowly and he turned towards me. He shooked his head as a no and finally spoke up, "No.... It's not! He's back and you know he is geeting better with mom!" he said and I kept looking at his face.

"They're getting better and I'm really happy for them" he said and I gave him a small smile, I grabbed his hand in mine trying to give him even a little bit of comfort.

"But you know what? I don't feel like I'm happy at all and it's all about me!" he said and I kept quite letting him talk and take it all out.

"I don't know what's wrong with me! I'm hurt! I'm angry! I'm lost!" he said with a shake of his head and looked down, "And I want to sort things out!" he added.

"You don't!" I said pressing his hand a little, "There's nothing wrong to have multiple feelings at once! You know what you are and what you want and so no matter what just listen to your heart Shub!"

"Arshita!" he said and I looked in his eyes as he stucked a hair strand behind my ear and then added, "You make it so hard not to fall in love with you!"

I kept looking in his eyes and felt the same spark and feeling I always had whenever he's near me. Did he felt the same spark? What was going on with him?

He looked don't and again gave me one of his sad smile,"Arshu" the way he said my name made me catch my breath in my throat!

"I'm leaving"
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I tried to take in his words but it didn't made sense, nothing made sense. I kept making myself sure that I misheard him as it was so difficult to take in!

I looked at him as curiousity kept rising inside me and when I was sure he said 'I'm leaving' I didn't even knew what to say.

"No.... No you can't!" I said as shifted closer to him scared that he'd leave me now! "But why Shub? Where are you going? Is anyone forcing you?" I started throwing questions at him not able to understand what he was even up to.

"No I'm just going to New York!" he said looking away from me and couldn't take in his words.

"Nooo.... Is it your dad or your mom? What do you need to leave?" I asked making him look at me.

"No, Arshu!" he said and his voice was nothing but a mere murmur, "It's my choice!"
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Heyaa peeps!

I really tried to update soon and I hope you like the chapter and my hardwork 😝

So what do you think will happen now? He decided to leave! Will he change his mind or will he leave everything behind?
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