"I left because you never asked me to stay"

Arshita's Pov

I was woken up by the loud ringing of my phone that too on a Saturday morning when I didn't planned to get up.

I reached for my phone from the side drawer groaning and looked at the name which showed, "Donald"

As soon as I picked it up he started speaking, "Hey gud morning sleepyhead!" I sighed and sat up on my bed, "Morning!" I said in my sleepy voice.

"You were still sleeping?" He asked and I made a face, "Yess and you decided to ruin it." I said and he chuckled. How can he laugh after ruining my sleep?

"So what is it?" I asked, "Are you free today" he said and I thought for a second and that's when it hitted me, "Shitt! Shitt! It's Saturday. How can I forget?" I blabbered.

"What happened?" He asked confused. "I need to go to the museum today for my project with......." I stopped.

"With Siddharth?" he asked slowly and I replied, "Umm.. Yeah!"

"Umm fine!" he said which sounded annoyed, "But don't forget that we're having a cookout at Ayushi's on Sunday okay!" he exclaimed.

"Yeah right! I won't" I said and after that hung the phone and got ready to leave.

It didn't seemed difficult before as it did right now when I was here in the museum's parking lot sitting in my car. I could see Siddharth standing at a distance but he didn't noticed me.

It felt as I didn't wanted to step out of the car and just drive back right now but I couldn't so I took a deep breathe telling myself I can do it! And finally I stepped out of the car and walked upto him.

As I walked closer he looked up and saw me. I came and stood in front of him, neither of us spoke for a moment and when the silence was too much to tolerate I finally blurted,"Let's go"

The museum was nearly empty, leaving the old people roaming around and a group of some school kids with thier teachers.

I and Siddharth didn't talked much, just discussed about our strategies and how we'll be doing this and then we just worked as to ourselves, clicked pictures and made notes.

We were like two complete strangers, like two classmates who were simply forced to spend a day together to work on this shitty project and who didn't even knew each other and I'd assume it was like this only .

I mean sure he was the same Siddharth I'd grown up with but in this short span of time which we spent apart from each other, we'd changed.

Atleast I did.

We finished our work early and I looked at him as he was packing his stuff not once looking at me and then I thought maybe we can stay like this, like nothing happened and just bury our past deep to even remember it.

I was bought out of my thoughts when a man mistakenly pushed me from behind on the stairs and made my leg sprain becoz of which I fell on the floor.

Immediately Siddharth came and sat beside me, "Shit! Arshu are you okay?"

"I'm fine, it's okay" I said trying to get up and he helped me holding by my waist and pulled me up and took us out of the museum to the parking lot.

"I'm fine, it'll be okay" I said but he didn't listened. He made me sit in my car sideways and tried twisting my foot slowly.

"Shit!" I said out of pain, "I'm sorry" he said and I nodded, "It's okay it's not your fault"

"I'm sorry" he again said and I looked at him, "It's nothi—" I was saying when he cuts me off, "I'm not talking about this!" he said.

"Ohh" was all I could say at that moment. He twisted my foot and it finally felt a bit better.

After a moment he again spoke up, "Are you happy with him?" he asked.

I looked at him but he kept his head down not quite looking me, "Umm yeah" I said, "I am"

He nodded, "That's good" he said slowly.

I lowered my gaze and asked him, "What about you? Is... Is there someone new?"

He didn't looked up neither spoke and just shooked his head in denial.

I knew this was time I could get the answers to all my questions, this was the time I can get a proper closure and I wasn't letting this go because I wanted to make sure that if I leave I don't leave a part of me behind with him, so I asked the question which I wanted to ask since he said the words 'Let's break up' "What went wrong Sid?"

He kept looking down and didn't spoke a word and I kept looking at him just to make sure that he don't back out this time and when he still didn't spoke I said, "I like him Sid!"

"I like Shub and I want to know why we're over" I said in a pleading tone so that he would consider, "Cuz this is fucking killing me!" I said and he looked up.

"It wasn't you" he said.

"Tell me" I said.

"I can't"

"Sid please"

"I'm sorry" he said and got up from front of me running his hands through his hair, "I'm sorry" he said again.

Now this was too much to take in and my own vision started to blur because of the tears which welled up in my eyes, I wiped them willing them to stop but they didn't, it was like all the emotions came at me together and once.

In that moment I could only choke out an "Okay" and I sat in my car.

He nodded looking anywhere but me and it felt like a goodbye without saying goodbye, and then I knew this is it, this is my closure and so I turned on the ignition of the car and took off telling myself to never look back again.

I returned back home and and was thankful that mom wasn't home and I quickly ran upto my room and laid on the bed hiding myself in the blanket.

As if on the cue my phone rang and it was Shubman. I picked it up and he spoke up, his voice calm and soothing, "Heyy Arshu just wanted to remind you about our plan tomorrow at Ayushi's" he said, "You coming right?" he asked.

"Yess" I replied.

Silence. And then he spoke up in a worried tone, "Are you... Are you crying?"

Hearing this made me cry even more and tears started flowing and I hung up the phone cuz I wasn't able to mutter a word.

I closed my eyes and promised myself that this was going to the last time I would cry over Siddharth, the last time I would think that what would have happened if things would have gone different between us.

So I let it out, I let it all out and decided to let him go, too.
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When I woke up after some hours, my room was filled with darkness and I couldn't see anything. I shifted rubbing my eyes which were swelled because of crying and that's when I felt something shift beside me.

I quickly turned in the dark and picked the alarm clock from my side drawer just to be cautious and as soon as I was going to hit he stood upto his feet.

"It's me!" Shubman said raising his hands in surrender.

I sighed and kept the clock back and he sat beside me on the bed.

"How did you get in here?" I asked.

"I found the spare key" he said, "Under the mat! Really? Arshu?" he asked.

I flushed in embarrassment and looked down, "Itne salo se wahi rakhte hai and we didn't like got robbed or anything" I said.

"Still!" he said and I sighed, "Did you really came here to give me a lecture on hiding spare keys" I said and he shook his head, "Okay sorry"

There was silence after that. We kept looking in each other's eyes without speaking a word because we both knew why he was here and when he still didn't spoke up I finally asked him, "Why did you came?"

"Tum call pe ro rhi thi" he said and kept looking down, "and you hung up without even saying goodbye"

I just shooked my head a little telling him, "I'm fine Shub"

"No" he said shaking his head in denial and his voice showed desperation and worry, "No you're not! You came after spending the day with Siddharth and then you suddenly burst into tears on the phone that's not what I call fine!" he said.

"You didn't had to come here and—" I was saying when he cuts me off, "What was I supposed to do Arshu?" he asked.

"I was so fucking worried when you cried like that over the phone" he said and his voice showed how genuinely worried he was and how much he cared. And that shut me up.

"I'm sorry for making you worried" I said keeping my head low but I could feel his intent gaze on me.

"You better be" he said and we sat there in silence once again and and I knew by the way he spoke that he had already forgiven me. He leaned closer to where I was sitting and tucked a lock of strand behind my ear, his thumb caressed my cheek and the area under me eyes.

For a moment I hitched my breathe with the sudden closeness and I could do nothing but stare in the deep brown eyes.

And that was the moment he decided to say, "Well you look like shit!"

I laughed and swatted his hand away, "Seriously?" I asked chuckling.

"Well mai sach ka sath deta hu" He said chuckling.

"So I really look that bad?" I asked and at this his eyes soften to show his worry.

"It looks like you've been crying for hours" he said and then looked down, "And that makes me feel like crap"

I looked at him and he was silent now, the way he knew everything so fucking well always surprised me. Here this stupid heart of mine wasn't ready to stop thumping loudly as I looked at him.

A part of my heart which was held by Siddharth for a long time and even after we broke up now was back to mine and was loudly beating for Shubman.

"Umm....Arshu I wanted to ask something" he said.

"Yeah?" I looked at him.

"Actually you've been acting wierd lately" he said and it was true.

Because I've been trying to avoid him since the day I realized my feelings for him and right now he genuinely looked like he had no idea about what was wrong with me.

"Does it have something to do with him" He asked slowly.

I shook my head negatively.

"It doesn't?" he asked.

"It has nothing to do with him" I said swallowing past the lump in my throat, "Nothing at all"

He looked at me still not convinced fully and nodded his head and blurted out an, "OH"

I wanted to pull out all my hair right now because that 'oh' sounded so normal for an answer was it like 'Oh good for you' or 'Oh that's fantastic' or 'Oh that's fuckin' good'

What is it Shub? Tell me? Please?

"Question game?" he suddenly said breaking my chain of thoughts and I looked at him wondering what could be his question.

"Okay"

"What if he asked you to come back with him?" he asked looking straight in my eyes, "would you go?"

I scoffed, "You wouldn't need to worry about that anymore" I said.

"Arshu" he said and looked at me asking "What happened earlier?"

"I mean he didn't asked me to get back with him" I said and then looked down, "He asked for the exact opposite!"

"Shit" he said and shifted closer "Arshu are you okay?... No sorry.. It was a stupid question.... Is this the moment I should prepare a ice cream tub for you or make you watch some movies" he started blabbering.

"Shub" I said trying to calm him down, "I'm fine and I don't need any ice cream" I said and he chuckled.

"Even if it's your favourite ice cream?" he asked smirking and I nodded my head, "No, yes maybe" I said and we laughed.

"Then I'm glad that I'm here" he said and smiled at me, that smile was so soothing, so him which always touched my heart.

"I'm glad too" I said and he grinned.

He let the words hang in the air and I wondered if he knew how deep those words meant.

"So what does it mean?" He asked slowly as if this question could come out as anything, "You and Siddharth being..... over?"

And in that moment I knew that even if those words could hurt me most but still I had to say them and so I looked in his brown eyes not looking away even for a second when I spoke up.

"That means..." I said took a deep breathe still staring in his eyes, "We should 'break up'"

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Holaa peeps!

I'm back with an update and hope you all liked it.

Please don't kill me for this as for 'Break up'. What do you think will happen now, how will their story go? Keep guessing!

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