"The heart knows when the search is over"

Arshita's Pov

I and Aditi were sitting the our favourite Cafe where we talked for the first time. We decided to come here first as I'll be going with her to the hospital to see her mother.

We sat in our usual spot and I realized how much I missed being here with her and enjoying our silly talks.

I told her how the last night went and Shubman's mom was really nice to me and we had a great time.

"You know what's funny?" Aditi said smiling at me, "You used to hate Shubman." You used to say he was disgusting for being a player and everything"

I looked at my pastry nodding my head a little, "I was wrong."

"Yes you were" She said and then hesitating a bit she said, "You know, I'd always thought you and Siddharth were, I don't know, the real thing"

She was not the only one, I also thought that but I was stupid and before I could reply she was speaking again.

"But don't get me wrong" she said, "Like...... looking at you and Shubman.... you look good together, like you whole character fits with his, like you're meant to be and it's.... it's pretty amazing."

I looked up in her eyes and then only I wanted to tell her the truth of my and Shubman's relationship. I never hid anything from her and I couldn't see her rooting for us like this when all this was nothing but fake.

"You got that look on your face" she said and I looked at her confused, "What look?" I asked.

"The one when you are deciding whether to tell me something or not" she said and I stared at face once again realizing that she knew me very well.

"There's nothing like that" I said looking down.

"I'm not convinced" she said.

My thoughts were all mixed up and I was having a debate with myself and my feeling. I wanted to tell her but telling her would declare that all this was really fake and I couldn't take that.

Somewhere I got so used to me and Shubman that sometimes even I forgot that all this thing was fake, because all the talks we had, the moments we spent together, everything felt so real and good.

I was busy with the train of my thoughts when Aditi spoke up, "I guess it's still not easy to tell me about stuff. Sorry"

"No it's not like that" I said looking at her.

"It's not?" she asked with an expectant look.

"Noo" I assured her and then hesitantly said "It's about me and Shub"

"What about him?" she asked.

"Promise you won't tell anyone" I said and she gave me a flat look, "Of course! now tell"

I stared at her for a moment, and then spoke out everything, how i changed, how I and Shubman happened and how everything was nothing but fake.

"OH my God!" she said in shock when I finished talking, "This is..."

I looked at her, "This is?"

"This can't be Arshu, tell me you're joking" She said shaking her head in denial.

"No I'm not, I'm telling the truth" I said hesitantly.

She was still in shock, "But — but you and Shubman are just perfect" she said.

"What?" I asked in shock.

"Yess! Nothing about it looks like fake" She said looking in my eyes.

I looked down fiddling with my hands, "Well then, maybe we're just good actors" I said.

"Bullshit"

"What are you talking about?" I asked curious about her thoughts.

She then said raising her voice a bit, "I... I think you really like him. For real."

I stood up in protest, "I don't"

"Yess, you do" She said.

"No, I don't. Trust me" I said trying to convince or I guess myself.

She stared at me for a moment looking in my eyes and there was a knowing look on her face when she said, "Arshu, have you always been this blind"

"I don't know what you're talking about" I said and picked up my bag coming out of the booth, "Come on, let's head to the hospital"
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At night when I was tried to sleep some weird dreams kept coming to me. It was like a small me was chasing something running here and there in nothing but empty and white corridors.

It was not like it was scary dream but I had them earlier too and that was what kept disturbing me. Then I thought that it would have to do something with me going to the hospital today.

I was always afraid of hospitals since I was small as my grandmother died and from that day I kept on having those weird dreams.

Now at one at night I woke feeling uneasy and when I tried to sleep I only ended up tossing and turning over my bed.

Without any other thought I picked up my phone from under my pillow and dialed Shubman's no. like it was nothing out of ordinary.

Then only Aditi's thought came to my mind that how she told me that I like Shubman. Like how can she be so sure, were my feeling for him this visible and did I really liked him?

"Arshu" His voice made my heart skip a beat.

Then hesitantly I told a deep breathe and said, "Hey!"

"What's wrong?" he asked and there was some shuffling.

"Tumhe kyu lg rha hai ki something's wrong?" I asked.

"Kyuki aise hi koi raat me ek baje kisi ko call nhi krta" he said, "So what's up?"

Honestly I felt bad for waking him up when I exactly didn't had any idea that why I decided to call him cuz if he would have called me at this time I surely wouldn't have been calm enough like he was.

"It's nothing" I said, "I'll.... um.. sorry for waking you up" I said embarrassed. "I'll just hang up and just pretend this never happened"

"Arshu tell me" he said and I could hear the noise as if he was moving here and there.

"Really I'm... I'm fine, just go back to sleep" I said.

"No I can't"

"Yes you can"

"Nope"

"But why" I asked and there was clinking of keys and and noise of door shutting.

"Cuz I'm already on my way there"
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We came out of the car as soon as he stopped. He took out a backpack, one paper in his hand and guitar in his other one.

"Do you need help" I asked.

"No I can manage" he said and started walking.

We were walking side by side taking the fresh air and sea breaze on the beach which was looking more beautiful at night.

"Why did you bring me here?" I asked him.

"Psnd nhi aayi? Tell me if you want to go anywhere else, I'm all for it" he said looking me and shook my head in denial, "No no this feels really good" I said.

Shubman came to a stop and took out a blanket from his bag spreading it on the sand and settled on it. He patted the place next to him saying, "Come here"

I sat beside him trying to keep myself calm which I wasn't able to do nowadays whenever I was around him.

He took out three containers from his bag and opened them one by one. One had some sliced fruits, one had chocolate cookies, and one had some chips.

When he saw the look on my face he smiled embarassed, "What? I'm always ready for a midnight picnic" he said and I smiled.

Then he took out a silver thermos and two mugs, "I prepared hot chocolate" he said.

How was this possible? How did he do it? And that to only because of my stupid dream which wasn't even close to scary.

"How did you do all this?" I blurted.

"A magician never reveals his magic tricks" he said and I chuckled.

Suddenly overwhelmed with gratefulness and guilt I turned to him, "You didn't had to do all this"

"I wanted to" he said without missing a beat. He poured the hot chocolate in the mugs handing me the one with an assuring smile.

"So" he said and looked at me, "What's wrong?"

"It stupid" I said shaking my head, "Really... This... all this wasn't necessary"

"Ab chup chap btao" he said smiling and I know he wasn't going to backout, "I know you enough to tell that you're upset"

My eyes snapped to his.

For a brief moment we just looked in each other's eyes and the way he looked at me compelled me to speak so I did.

I told him about the dream, about the hospital visit. How those pictures kept irritating me when I tried to fall back asleep. He kept his eyes on me listening every word without interrupting. The way he was listening, somewhere I knew he really cared.

When I was done talking I finally said, "Maine kaha tha kuch itna important nhi hai" I said looking down.

For a moment he didn't speak and threw a stone in the sea and then turned to me, "Seems pretty important to me"

"But ye sb krne ki jarurat nhi thi" I said looking at all the things he bought, "I just wanted to talk"

"Well, we're talking right now" he said again throwing a stone in the sea.

"We could've done it on the phone" I said.

"Well yeah, but you sounded upset" he nodded and turned to look back at me, "What else was I supposed to do"

I didn't answered too busy to remind myself to breathe.

"That was really brave of you" he suddenly said and I looked up.

"What was?"

"Going to the hospital" he said and turned to me smiling and shifted a bit closer keeping his hand in my head as expected to ruffle my hair. The way he looked at me wasn't different but I don't know it made me catch my breathe in my throat.

Then he quietly picked up the guitar from the other side and held it in his hands looking down and started playing it humming some kind of tune.

I don't know why but whenever he sung or even hummed a song I felt a different and soothing feeling even if his voice was far away from perfect.

I kept looking at him taking in the tune of love me like you do which he was playing.

He turned to look at me and grinned.

That sight sent shivers down my spine

My mind flooded with his pictures. The way he cheerfully smiled when we went on a picnic. The sad smile on his face whenever he talked about Shahneel di. The way chuckled and joked when he's with his friends. The vulnerability in his eyes whenever Manasvi was mentioned.

The way he kissed my cheeks and forehead gently, making me feel as if everything was real.

My mind filled with his voice and I couldn't believe that there was a time when I thought badly about him when he was guy who would get out of the bed in midnight just because I was upset.

The butterflies continued to flutter in not only stomach but in the every fucking part of my body. The way his smile could make my day, I couldn't believe this was happening to me.

It was impossible to ignore right now, right there, when my heart was doing continuous flips along with the sound of my mixed thoughts. I realized.

I was falling for Shubman Gill.

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Hola guyss!

Finally updated and hoping you all will love it.

So finally Arshita realised her feeling for Shubman. What do you think about his feeling? Does he feel same?

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