POV ROSE

After Mateo, he could only bring so much to the table. It wasn't until I truly realized what his game was. Why he choose me and what his true intentions were.

(How naive of me to believe in the good of people but then again this was only the first one to double cross me. It wasn't until the next one that I started to pay more attention but even then things never go as plan and the pain seems to continue to get worse as the game continues on.)

He wanted a girl who could play by his rules. A girl who would change for him, to be what he had in mind. Someone to give him the pleasure of having a naughty girl and showing her off to the world.

I was nowhere near what he had in mind being a shy bookworm girl, who all I wanted was to find a friend to share my own story and to ask for advice.

(This was the first year of high school being a little freshman.)

My prayers were answered when I met her. A beautiful and fearless girl who showed me the true pain of a friendship. Tears shed and hugs given to only find the truth of a side game called Friendship. These rules were more complicated than the actual game.

It's as if the littlest things would tick her off the edge only to find the real truth two years later as to why she treated me so horribly. All due to her ex who said I was trouble even though I didn't like trouble at the time.

Again I was so naive and my innocents started to fade away due to her, my love. She opened up my eyes to the LGBT+ community and how to deal with toxic relationships.

She taught me love, she taught me pain and she taught me patience. I feel in love with her and her sarcastic tone, beautiful image, and amazing personality four years later.

I'm still hoping she gives me a chance to show what her little prodigy has become and give her the best night she's ever had. A night filled of mischief and taking risks because we live for the fear of having a little too much fun of getting high on adrenaline and naughty fantasies coming true.

(Flashback)

At first my love, Eli, filled my mind with stories of her and her ex's mischiefs experiences. She would talk about her partner with passion and 'love' but I could tell that she wasn't all that happy for she would always hurt every other week because of what her partner was doing. Her partner would blame Eli for not taking care of them like they should and would threaten Eli by saying "I'm hurting myself" (implying they were cutting themselves) and "are you happy with how I am and how I look" (they didn't like their appearance and would often times blame Eli). Her ex gave Eli so much pain, anxiety, and stress of always having to take care of someone who would do anything for attention and in return hurt the person who loved them to the point of realization of what a truly toxic relationship she was in.

(But that wasn't until sophomore year Eli realized that.)

(Flashback Ends)

At a certain point Eli left me due to her ex. Our conversations became less frequent with less stories. But what I do remember most about my Eli at that point in time. Was how much she rubbed off on me. Today we joke about how I lost my innocence because of her and I'm thankful she was the one to truly show me the world that I was kept away from for so long.

Eli plays a huge part in my story and this is just the beginning of her. She is the girl I feel in love with all over again. Even after all the heartache she put me through I'll alway love her with all my heart till we grow old as friends.

But she also brought out the part of me that used to keep her dirty little fantasies a secret. It wasn't until senior year I let her in on a little secret that I've been dying to tell her.