Hi All, 

Here Comes next Chapter on Untamed. Please ignore any errors or typos and do please let me know your thoughts on same. Happy Reading.

"You are my Life,Losing you could be end of me."

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Beep ..Beep ..

The heart monitor followed the beat inside her chest and called out in it's voice "She's still here." Her breathing came in short bursts and fell away for what seemed a moment too long .

"I think we are losing her ... " Doctor's voice came in but she couldn't hear it..all she could hear was him ..her sanskaar..somewhere deep down ...a voice .. a memory down the lane.

10, 9 , 8 , 7 , 6 , 5, 4 ,3 2, 1

"Shona ... Main aa raha hoon ..Shona .." His voice rang in her ears.

11 year old Swara ducked herself quickly behind a huge tree in garden , hiding her giggles. Sanskaar will not be able to trace her this time.Hide and seek had always been their favourite game as kids and today, one sunny afternoon, in Shanti Nivas was no different . She purposefully traded her places with Ragini, for Sanskaar knew all her hiding spots and Ragini will be caught before her .As time passed ,Swara peeked curiously from behind tree. Her eyes frowned . shouldn't he be here by now.. He never took so much time. Wondering she stood up and peeked out little more " Kaha chala gaya ye Sanskaar?' she told herself.

Bow ... a sudden sound had her startled from behind which stopped her beat for a moment and there he was, laughing at her with that " Look I got you " expression.

"Sanskaar .."Swara sighed and hit him playfully.

"Dar gayi na Shona .. "he laughed more ,"Sujoy ,Ragini .. aaja vo, dekho shona pakdi gayi .. "he called out and they rushed out from their hiding places .

"Kya Sanskaar?" Swara pouted " tumhe haar baar kaise pata chal jaata hain ki main kaha hoon."

Sanskaar shrugged his shoulders " Bas pata chal jaata hain .."

"Achi baat hai Shona,Sanskaar kabhi hamare peeche aata hi nahi ," Sujoy laughed "hum aaram se chup sakthe hain..kyu ragini?" he looked at her smiling.

"Phir hum kyu khel rahe hain," Ragini glared at Swara and Sanskaar,'inn dono ko hi khelne do "and walked off . Sujoy sighed watching her main usse leke aata hoon." he told Swara and Sanskaar and rushed behind her.

Swara shot Sanskaar an accusatory glance " Dekha .. gussa kardiya na ragini ko," She complained as they settled on their bench " aur tum dekhna Sanskaar , iss baar main aise jagah chup jaa vungi .. you will never be able to find me."

"It will never happen Shona .." Sitting besides her Sanskaar replied confidently "Tum jaha bhi jaoge na, main waha aa jaunga."

"Acha! ..agar aise jagah chali gayi ki kabhi wapas nahi aayi tho ..bolo bolo ." She raised her eyebrows in question.

Not thinking for a second Sanskar replied "Main tumhe jaane doon tab na ...try karke tho dekho ..I bet Shona ..tum mujhe chodkar jaa hi nahi sakti ..aur gayi bhi na .. tumhe wapas aana padega, mere liye ,nahi thoi main aajvunga tumhe lene ...kyunki jaha Shona hain, waha Sanskaar."

They might be words of a 13 year old kid ..but then neither of them knew then, those words are to live for.

"Jaha Shona .. Waha Sanskaar .." words rang somewhere deep down in her ears." Pata hain mujhe , iss liye main tumhe chod kar kahi nahi javungi.. Kabhi nahi..Shona ki Promise ." She could hear her own voice .

Then just out of nowhere the monitor changed its tone. ..the lines dashed up and down on the screen with continuous beep sound and with every beat and every moment, her life hung in the balance of that sound.

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Seated on bench in corner ,Tears trickled down Sanskaar's cheeks .With his blood soaked shirt and stained cheeks ,he stared blankly into the space obvious of hospital surroundings, where Gadodia parivaar stood tensed outside operation theater .The silent sobs of Sharmistha .. consoling words of Ragini, Dadi silently hurling curses at sahil. Sujoy and Laksh rushing here and there busy with hospital formalities and police statements,.nothing reached his eyes and ears.All she could see and hear was her .

"Tum samjhte kyu nahi..mujhe bas tumhara pyaar chahiye ..thoda waqt chahiye jo hamara ho ..bas .. woh Sanskaar joh sirf Shona ka hain." . Her tear stricken face flashed before his eyes, then that smile on her tired pale face as she looked at him in godown, how lifelessly she sank in his arms after taking bullet.

"You will die" ..she told him years back to scare him

"It would be before you ," he told her then

And then after few years ..It was time, when he met with accident and she tended him

Sanskaar ..her voice and face flashed before his eyes "It would never be before me..It will always be together .. I will never let you go away from me..never."

As her voice echoed in his ears ,Sanskaar wiped his tears ,she will be fine ..she has to be fine,for him ,for them.He lifted his face as a hand held his shoulder .It was Sekhar. In their worry for Swara ..no one seemed to notice how lifeless Sanskaar looked.He walked up to him .

"Sanskaar .. "

"Baba .. "Sanskaar rose to his feet ,wiped tears off his face " Shona ko kuch nahi hoga . aap dekhna , woh bikul teek ho jayegi , usne promise kiya hain mujhse , ki woh mujhe chodkar kabhi nahi jayegi ,..iss liye," Sekhar smiled through tears and nodded in consent .The confidence he had seen in Sanskaar's eyes was enough assurance for him, that his gudiya will be fine . He gently hugged him offering him comfort

" Shona ko kuch nahi hoga baba ..kuch nahi " Sanskaar mumbled clutching Sekhar hard drawing comfort."Kyunki woj jaanti hain agar Shona nahi tho uska Sanskaar bhi nahi."

Sharmistha stared at Sanskaar bewildered listening his words and a dim memory crossed her mind . The day when Swara left with Sanskaar and she tried to stop her " abhi tak aap samajh nahi paayi Maa .. meri har khushi Sanskaar ke saath hain, woh nahi, toh aapki Shona nahi" she told her then and now ...

If she had any ounce of doubt about shona and sanskaar , even a tiny one , it vanished now ,as realisation stuck her .That's why her every attempt to drive them apart failed and now she knew when Sekhar said" Jo jodiya upar wala banata hain unn par kisi ka zor nahi chalta .." ..That was true. Shona and Sanskaar..they are like two halves who complete each other , they would cease to exist without each other .

Just then doctor walked out of operation theatre " Humne bullet nikal diya hain ..she is stable now." Everyone heaved a sigh of relief as doctor continued "She is under sedation .. hosh aane main time lagega We will shift her to ICU in sometime...then you can meet her and Mr. Sanskaar ..aap please mere saath chaliye ...kuch baat karni hai."

Sanskaar nodded Baba main abhi aaya" he told Sekhar and followed him. After sometime Sanskar walked out of doctors cabin recalling his words " Dekhiye, Mr Sanskaar, Aap ki biwi bahut lucky hain. Usually in gunshots the extent of tissue and organ trauma will depend on type of bullet, its velocity and mass as well as the physical characteristics of the penetrated tissue.Shoulders ka anatomical structure aisa hota hain ki bones, joints, muscles, soft tissues, blood vessels and nerves all are surrounded in a comparatively narrow region.Agar bullet thoda idhar idhar ho jaata tho .. she might have had very slim chances of being saved .Unko jo gun shot laga ..it didn't cause severe damage to tissues probably because jiss gun se shot laga, it's might be a low impact weapon , more importantly and thankfully naa koi bone fracture hua ..naa arterial injury.Here I am talking about subclavian artery ,jo hamare arms ko blood supply karta hai..aur agar kahi nerves ko laga hota tho," Doctor paused for a while and Sanskaar didn't want to hear further , But doctor continued "Operation ke beech main, unka blood pressure bahut high ho gaya tha . ek baar hume tho laga ki we lost her .aur bleeding bhi bahut jyada ho raha tha .. but miraculously she came back...Indeed she is very lucky."

After few hours Sanskaar slowly opened the door and stared at Swara lying on bed unconscious , connected with lot of equipments around her, probably to monitor heart, blood pressure, and respiratory rate.As he approached her in gentle steps he found her excessively pale, like blood drained out of her face. Settling beside her he gently clasped her hand and galnced at her for long. " Ek pal ke liye tho laga maine tumhe kho diya .."his voice cracked with pain , with tears gently streaming down from his eyes "itni bada sazza dene jaa rahi thi tum mujhe, Lekin main jaanta tha ki tum mujhe chodkar nahi jaa sakthi ..kabhi nahi ."He rested his head by her side "Bahut hurt kiya ne maine tuhme..I am sorry Shona ..I am sorry."

He felt gentle tap of her finger on his hand, and raised his head. As Swara tried to open her eyes , she felt them weighing down with heaviness..yet she caught a glimpse of him, next to her , holding her hand and smiling through tears ..

Sho..na ... he murmured softly.

"San ... Sans..kaar she tried to find her voice yet it came out very faintly .She tried again ..

Sshhh .. Sshh...Sanskaar stopped her and gently laid on finger on her cheek " kuch mat kehna ...kuch bhi nahi..Shona ..sshhh ..he wiped his tears and squuzed her hand gently "pehle tum teek hojavo , phir hum bahut saari baatein karenge.. Tumhara saara bak bak sununga ..Her lips curved upwards as she watched him talk and talk " hum khulfi khaane bhi jayenge aur dekhna ..hum .."

That one moment when she thought she would lose him , that one moment when he thought he lost her ...It felt they had been apart and not for hours, days but for an eternity and now they are together again .

"Tuhme pata hain Shona,Jab mujhe laga maine tumhe khodiya, "the pain in voice , tears on verge of his eyes , tugged her heart, " meri duniya jaise rukh gayi Shona...jaise ...jaise sab kuch khatam hogaya, mujhe kuch samaj nahi aa raha tha , jaise sab kuch tham gaya , tum mere sab kuch ho Shona ..mera sab kuch, agar tuhme kuch hojaa tho ..main .." He paused and bent his head down for the fear ,he would break down before her ,causing much distress A small tear slid down sidewards from her eyes as his forehead touched her hand and murmured " nahi jee sakta tumhare bina Shona.."

How much she wanted to hold him in her arms and take away his every pain .. tell him she is sorry too, for every pain she had given him unintentionally ..It was because of her, they landed in such a big trouble ,and above all tell him he is her life too. She slowly raised her hand, it pained ..but her fingers managed to reach the tips of his hair, stroking them gently..which had his head rising , and gazing into her eyes. His finger quickly reached to wipe that lone tear off her eyes. Sighing she closed her eyes as his lips pressed softly onto her forehead, his fingers gently stroking her cheeks . I love u ..she heard his soft whisper and slowly drifted off to sleep , holding his hand with a small smile on her lips.

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After 3 days ,as her condition seemed much more stabilized, Swara had been shifted from ICU.Her family had been visiting her in parts but Sanskaar had been by her side most of the time. In the start her wound needed dressing more often and most of time she felt drowsy being on sedatives ,specifically painkillers. That didn't give them much time to talk but everytime she opened her eyes, he would be next to her.

Swara noticed how worn out he had been physically but what might have passed on him emotionally , she is absolutely aware of .Her family visited her in parts.. Making sure either one or two of them stayed in hospital with Swara .

It was on 10th Day when Doctor said Swara can be discharged , the question came in .

"Sekhar mujhe lag raha hain hame shona ko ghar le jaana chahiye" Sharmistha held hand of her daughter, who sat leaning onto a pillow on bed turned to Sekhar who stood next to her " Waha hum uska khayal ache se rakh payenge , agar kuch jaroorat padi tho.." She paused waiting for an reply . Swara eyes immediately moved to Sanskaar who stood near door ,trying to gauge his expression but she could trace nothing. Sekhar nodded in understanding and turned to Sanskaar .

" Sanskaar ..kya kehte ho ?" he asked

" Baba .. aap ko jo theek lage." he answered short and simple where in reality he didn't want to part with Swara especially after that " Haadsa". Being by her side was all he needed and he couldn't yet come in terms with fact that he almost came so close losing his shona , but at this point he would do what is good for her . No doubt being at her Mom's place will give her much needed care and perhaps emotional support.As doctor has mentioned , being shot by a gun is traumatic. One may feel shock, fear for safety, Anxiety ,nightmares or trouble sleeping thinking about the event over and over and it's important to be under care of loved ones.He had already hurt her a lot , and he wouldn't want his indifference to sharmistha to give her more pain. Afraid , he might change his stance if he stayed for long in room

" Main Discharge ki formalities dekh ke aata hoon." Sanskaar rushed out .

Swara watched at door for long .. and turned to Sekhar and Sharmistha .." Maa Baba, ..main ..-

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Sanskaar walked in after bidding bye to Sekhar and Sharmistha. He calmly settled down in chair next to Swara " Tum ne Jaane se mana kyu kar diya.?"He asked looking at her .When Sekhar mentioned Swara wanted to be Sanskaar ..and denied coming with them, He went through array of emotions. She did this for him .. and he knew what to do for her

Swara looked at Nurse who had been attending her " Sister , If you don't Mind ..Kya aap thodi dher..?. Nurse simply nodded and stepped out for a while.

"Shona.."

"Sanskaar ..Will you hold me close ..please?" She asked looking at him, Sanskaar looked at her a while and silently stood up and settle besides her on bed , his one hand softly wrapping around her shoulder, giving her support . Swara gently leaned onto him , feeling the warmth of his embrace. As minutes passed " Kyunki mujhe sabse jyada tumhari jaroorat hain Sanskaar .." she said echoing his thoughts , just like he needs her .

" Tumhe pata hain .. Jab Sahil gun pakad ke khada tha .. mujhe tho laga ki,"she snuugled closer,seeking comfort as events of that fateful day rushed to her."mujhe tumse dur nahi rehna Sanskaar .. and she lifted her face to meet his eyes "and I am soory .. she said tears spilling out " Sab meri wajah se .."

"Ssshh .. shona..Sanskaar wiped off tears of her cheek gently " Tum kyu sorry bol rahi ho .. Galti meri thi .I am sorry..Itna gusaa kiya tumpe bewaja ..aur tumhe laga ki woh phool maine bheje hain .."Swara nodded " Iss liye main bina soche samjhe ..aise chaligayi ... par ab Mujhe tumhare pass rehna hain Sanskaar ..hamesha ."

"Mujhe kaunsa dur jaana hain tumse .. woh .. "he took her handly gently into his " Sack Kahu tho mujhe tumhe bhejne ka mann nahi tha lekin,...Wiase ..maine baba se baat kar liya hain ,woh Maa ko lekar hamare saath rehne aayenge kuch dino ke liye .. "

Sach! Swara looked at him surprisingly .

"Haan!", he softly stroked strands of her hair pusing them off face " aur dadi ko bhi bolne ko kehdiya ..kyunki woh bhi tumhe miss kar rahe hone aur pareshaan hojayenge ..aur ..agar Maa baba saath rahenge tumhe ache lagegana .. iss liye.."

And She caught a glimpse of her old Sasnkaar . He didn't have that naked hatred in his eyes and bitterness when he took name of her Mom and dadi and he called sharmistha Maa .. Only if Her mom had been here .He didn't have a need to do this . She would have been extremely content just staying with him , but he did, for her burying his differences ...Smiling through tears she snuggled back into his arms sighed contentedly as he kissed her forehead.

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And Once back home .. Swara soon realised , the awkwardness still prevailed between her Mom and Sanskaar . There are mostly silent exchanges , with only few words when needed. Their Love for her is common factor which brought them under one roof and all she has to do is team them up together.

"Shona Zidd mat karo .. Ye soul peele .. Tere liye acha hain " Sharmistha tried convincing her daughter

"Yuck .."Swara made a eww face

"Zidd kyu kar rahi ho Shona .. Peelona .." Sanskaar came in

" Acha Hua Sanskaar tum aagaye ..lo ,"Sharmistha handed him over soup bowl " ab tum hi pivalo ,tumhari shona ko , aur Yaad hain shona ,Bachpan mein tu dawaai lene se, aisi hi zidd karthi thi.. Aur sirf Sanskaar ki baat maan thi ," She reaclled fondly which brought smile on Swara and Sanskaar' face

"Ab bhi waise hi hain , Ziddi " Sanskaar smiled looking at Swara and held spoonful of soup before her Swara pouted and turned her head away putting up price . Sanskaar and Sharmistha exchanged a glance and smiled

"Sanskaar .. dekho, Poora soup kahtam hona chaiye .. nahi tho tumhe daant padegi." Sharmistha playfully warned sanskaar for which he simply nodded . About to leave she turned at door way, "Waise maine tumhare liye badam ka doodh banaya hain .. tumhe bahut pasand haina!"

And that overwhelmed Sanskaar , It felt like the one who had taken care of him , loved him all these years , is back. He felt same love and warmth in her eyes and at at that point he realised, sharmistha no longer held the feeling of he not being good enough for Shona and he was accepted wholeheartedly . That was his undoing .His eyes turned misty and all he could say was " Ji Maa."

And that had Sharmistha's heart tugged , hearing him call her Maa. She recalled her own words on day of marriage and hurt they caused to sanskaar.All these two years Her every attempt was met with contempt ,might be because somewhere deep down she still harboured the feeling of Sanskaar being not fit for Shona and her all her attempts were not 100% genuine.And as realisation stuck her ,in hospital as she watched Sanskaar's condition , how lifeless he turned into and his words with Sekhar ,she genuinely accepted him to be best choice for her shona and no one could love her like he does and that made her efforts easy .All she had to do is to love him ,, like she had been doing all these years , from the time Sanskaar had become part of their family .

Swara quickly wiped off tear about to slip from her eyes ..Finally.. A good start

" Acha! Tho Sanskaar ke liye Badama ka dhoodh aur mere liye palak ka soup ..not fair maa." Swara complained

"Kyunki tere liye wahi acha hain aur haan, bahut laad karliya tujhe, ab Sanskaar ki baari.." Sharmistha teased Swara joined by Sanskaar which had Swara pouting more. As Sharmistha left Sanskaar turned at Swara ,"Shona .. tumne suna na ..Maa ne kya kaha? Tum chahithi ho ki mujhe daant pade?" he asked

Swara smiled and nodded yes and her smile widened as he said " Kya! ?" and next minute she nodded no and took a spoonful of soup" now that's like good girl .. My shona .." Sanskaar smiled and fed her more, little more .---------------------

As Days passed ..everything fell into an easy rhythm.Ragini and Laksh dropped in frequently , Sujoy and Dadi too.Sanskaar mostly stayed away from work...unless his intervention was required , and soon he realised where he had been going wrong all this days.Now the company is well established , processes have fallen into place and with able teams to manage.,all he had to do was programme manage but his need to be a part of everything and anything related to work, even smallest one, led him to being obsessed drifting him apart from his love and he intended not to repeat the same mistake.He visited once a while to make sure things are in place, attended calls and answered mails from home.

He wanted to have time with his family ..his lost and found one .Sekhar and Sanskar , sometimes joined by Laksh and Sujoy would discuss business while Ragini , Sharmistha, Dadi would spend time with Swara. They played indoor games with Sanskaar and Sharmistha teaming up against Swara and Sekhar . They would talk, recall childhood days and would laugh out together.For Swara .. she couldn't ask more.Her every wish, a simple one would be fulfilled and all Sanskaar would say was " Your wish, My command." Once when she expressed her desire to have kulfi, He drove her to the park, and they fought over flavours just like old times .They would stroll in their garden as Sanskaar would gently hold taking care not to hurt her wound and would listen to her talk and she loved cuddling up to him on stone bench, which Sanskaar had put up on her demand at their new house and she had him carve their names as well " Shona aur Sanskaar"

As Swara's wound healed and her hand movement become more fluid, she no longer needed sling support and as for Romance , they maintained distance when they were around people especially before Sekhar and Sharmistha but once back in their room, Sanskaar would kiss her to heart's content , For Swara always told how his kisses lessened her pain and every time she wanted a kiss, she complained of pain , passing on hint when between crowd. Sanskaar would just smile and whisk her off making some excuse, which Swara willingly obliged and played along.

Sahil want behind bars under charges of abduction , attempted murder and Sanskaar made sure Sahil would spent considerable and good amount of years over there, thwarting every attempt by Amit Gupta to get his son out .. and It deemed good for him to be under jail , for if Sahil would have stepped out, he would definitely be dead in Sanskaar's hand .

Swara's recovery took less time than expected. And there's no denial of the fact that , her inward happiness played a major role in the same. Doctor was impressed with her recovery and very soon she started taking part in daily home chores, slowly. And the day she had become completely fine, with no trace of pain ..They celebrated , with a family get together and that night Swara didn't even have to ask Ssnskaar. He made love to her so softly and gently pouring in all his love and longing for her, which brought tears in her eyes.She felt his love in every tender kiss he pressed on her body, his every teasing stroke just had her asking for more and he happily took care of her every demand, with his need being met equally and when they joined together it was nothing short of bliss'. They made love till they were totally exhausted , sated and slipped into deep sleep, holding each other in tight embrace.

Sanskaar joined back office and Swara her music school, Sekhar and Sharmistha returned to Shanthi Nivas, but things have changed for good, for everyone.Swara no longer complained , Sanskaar didn't give her a chance to . They went out on a week trips more often or would be just content, having a candle light dinner which Swara planned back home, would munch on their favourite ice cream ,watch a movie together cuddled under warm sheets, which would always be left midway.

"Sanskaar ,please dekhne do movie." Swara would complain trying to focus her attention back on screen as Sanskaar would resort to mischievous ways kissing, nuzzling, trying to distract her, for he absolutely hated attention Swara would give to either Shahrukh , Salman, Ranbir or Shahid in movie and Swara was no less, when Sanskaar would be glued to screen watching action sequence or leading lady in film, she would pull him in for a kiss " Shona.. Ye .." his words would be lost as her lips would curve and mould on his lips and rest all forgotten, they ended up beneath sheets all tangled .

Family picnics and get togethers had become a part of their routine.. It just seemed life was going great.

That was the day when Swara and Sanskar dropped by to Shanti Nivas for tea time . With Laksh Ragini joining them too ... it turned out to be a fun filled evening . Munching on yummy pakodas made by Sharmistha along his favorite adrak elaichi chai by Swara , Sanskaar couldn't ask for more but today he dropped int Shanthi Nivas with a motive . In midst of jokes Sanskaar rose on his feet, and had everyone's attention diverted to him.

"Mujhe ek bahut jaroori baat karni hain" he told everyone and approached Sharmistha." Maa" he said holding her hand " Pichle do saal main maine aapke saath bahut batmeezi kiya hain .. You had been trying set things right but I didn't give you a chance ,hurting you and Shona especially. Aap ne jo kuch bhi kiya shona ke liye hi toh kiya ..Samja sakta hoon..and .. I am sorry."

"Nahi Beta .. I should be sorry" Sharmistha replied with tears in her eyes." For being unfair to you , for seeking a pay back ..kyunki pyaar kabhi sharton ka mohtaj nahi hota ..lekin phir bhi sirf issliye ki maine tumse maanga, tum maangaye ... Chup chaap apne pyaar ko qurbaan kardiya, she held his hand in return "jab ki shona teri zindagi hain...Maafi tho mujhe maangni Chahiye beta ..I am sorry."

With tears Sanskaar hugged her .There was no single soul in that common room whose eyes didn't turn misty watching scene unfolding before them . If Swara thought she could be no more proud of Sanskaar , she was wrong . He just rose to great heights for her and her Mom, she couldn't love her more. Swara wiped tears of happiness and looked around ..

" Bas Bas ..Bahut hogaya ab ye rona dhona " Sujoy tried to lighten the atmosphere " Shona ab tho tu maa ki favourite nahi hain .. teri jagah Sanskaar legaya." He teased Swara who poked her tongue out

"Tho kya Hua ... Mere paas tho Baba hain " Swara replied playfully holding shoulder of Sekhar, drawing smile from the group .." aur mere paas Dadi hain" Ragini joined in hugging Dadi which had Laksh and Sujoy exchnaging and nodding " Ab Saaale saab , aapko apni jijaji ke saath kaam chalana padega." Laksh winked playfully .. and Sujoy joined him too with smile followed by rest of Family .

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"Ye Shona kaha Chali gayi...Dher ho rahi hain ..aur.." Sanskaar went around house trying to trace Swara , just them his mobile rang distracting him .Sanskaar sighed and picked the call " Shona .. Kaha ho tum .." and before he could complete his words .. He was pulled into Storeroom which had him startled .

Sanskaar took a deep breath .. "Oh ! God Shona" Sanskaar looked at Swara who stood before him" Tumne tho dara diya mujhe .. tum yaha store room mian aur ye darwaja kyu lock .." and next minute he was backed to wall with Swara leaning onto him Kitna baat karte ho tum Sanskaar" Swara smiled trailing her fingers over his cheek and moved down to his neck

" Kya kar rahi ho tum " he blurted out which had Swara breaking into giggles recalling their encounter in store room before they were married "Sanskaar, tum na ..abhi nahi badle.." Swara wound her arms around Sanskaar's neck, leaned closer, "rahi jawab tumhara sawaal ki " she leaned more closer feeling his hot breath "Trying to Kiss you." she whispered over his lips and brushed them softly once ,twice setting his heart on race .His hands curled around her waist pressing her hard to his body ,one hand dug into her curls, tugging her close. " Let me show you how" he mumbled against her lips and in next few minutes Swara found herself gasping with pleasures as he ran his tongue sensuously on her lips,planted a kiss at the edge of her mouth, nibbled her lips in short sweet bites..He teased her, tasted her in bits , driving her to a point till she could take it no longer..then he kissed her .. their lips fused with an intense fervor just like their bodies as they sank into each other's arms. They kissed and kissed until both fell fell short of breath.

As they parted, their breaths came in hot against each other. Sanskaar gasped trying to calm his racing heart . He was absolutely sure he couldn't hold back himself for much longer .. " I think we should go home Shona" ..He murmured "If not, I might take you right here." Still feeling dazed by his kiss , Swara simply nodded.They quickly bid bye and rushed out.

Once back home , as they stepped in Sanskaar pulled in Swara for another breath searing kiss and scooped her up in a split of second .Neither Of them wanted to break the kiss ...Kissing he carried her to their room and that night turned out to be a sensuous passionate and a bit wild too

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Sanskar leaned back on bed post with Swara in his arms,basking in warmth of their after love making,her petite nude frame pressed on to his strong one, beneath sheets

" Aaj tumne jo kiya na Sanskaar .. I am so proud of you."She placed a light feathery kiss on his neck where her face snuggled in. " Jo sahi laga woh kiya Shona.." he said lacing his hands through long tresses.

"Kuch poochu tumse?' She asked softly as he took her hand into his. "Kuch bhi"he said kissing her fingertips slowly . " Jab tumhara baba ki gaadi se acacident hua ...uske pehle tum.".She paused and looked at him , and swa his expression go grim . " Sanskaar .. she cupped his cheek ,"main bas aise hi pooch rahithi ...agar tum nahi chathe tho .."

"Haq hain tumhara Shona .he replied gazing into her eyes meri har baat jaane ka ..woh maine kabhi iss baare main baat nahi ki yana .." He waited for a while and continued " Bach pan main ek din maine hamare annath asram main ek aayi ki poocha ki main unhe kaise mila , tab pata chala ki kisi ne mujhe anaath ashram ke bahar chod diya.I felt bad shona ...I felt unwanted , agar chodna hi hain tho paida kyu kiya ..aisa kitne saare bache jinko pata bhi nahi ki woh kaun hain kaha se aaye hain. Swara felt and saw the pain in his eyes.. He squeezed his hand offering him comfort needed .

"Woh kabhi kabhi asharm se so,me kids get adopted , jinke bache nahi hote. Waisa hi ek din .. I was chosen by a couple. Bahut khush hua tha main ki mujhe bhi ab parivaar milega, jo mera hoga..lekin .."he paused as his voice cracked .

"Lekin kya Sanskaar . she gently caressed his cheek Aaj bol hi do ." .May be she was right. It would let him go off one burden he had been carrying for long , one bitter experience of his early life " Lekin waha jaane ke baad mujhe pata chala ki .. all they needed was a servant. They wouldn't let me go back ..I cried and pleaded but no ,There were days when I had to literally starve aur ek roti ke liye tho pucho mat,"Swara's eyes pooled with tears for that kid . "Shona khaalo please ,meri achi bachi," She recalled how her mom ran behind her to feed that roti , her tantrums and here there was someone who literally waited for piece of it.

"Agar kuch galti hota tho ..mujhe maarte the , peete the ..and they locked me up at nights . I use to cry whole night not knowing where to go , what to do , but finally One day I managed to escape. Main khush tha .. aur wapas apna aashram chalagya.. Lekin .. tab tak ..bahut dher ho chuka tha. Those people accused me of stealing and running away from their place, aur ashram waalo ne mujhe bahar nikal diya. And those people wanted me to come back , if not they threatened me to handover to police .Main daar gaya tha aur bhaag raha tha waha se ... tabhi.. Baba ki gaadi se...' Tears slowly trickled down Swara's cheeks

"I am sorry Sanskaar ..I didn't know .."

"Hey !Shona ..Sanskaar wiped off tears on her cheek gently and his too You know what .. I am glad ki mere accident hua ..nahi tho .".he cupped her face " tum meri zindagi main kabhi nahi aati..mujhe meri shona kabhi nahi milti. Tumhe pata hain .. tum hi ho jiski doti aur pyaar ne muhjhe ek nayi zindagi diya .. uss saare khadavahat ko nikaldiya .. you healed me shona .. you made me a better person , then and now too ..thank you and I Love you .." he said with pure adoration in his eyes .

Swara smiled through tears and hugged him back " I love u too sanskaar ..I love u" she softly whispered holding him closer.

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"Shona ... Kaha ho .. jaldi karo ..Office ke liye late ho raha"Sanskaar called out checking his files.

"Haan baba aa rahi ho ..Swara walked holding his lunch pack "tumhare liye lunch pack kar rahi thi aur haan .." she took out smaal container "iss main maine fruits rakha hain ,.khaalene ..aur ye nuts shaym ko 4.00 baje khaalo aur haan ..." her words halted as sanskaar pulled her onto him.

"Haan baba theek hain .. Sab khalunga..lekin pehle ..,"he smiled mischievously and leaned forward "kuch meetha hojaaye ..jaise ki.."

"Jaise ki ye .." Swara gave him a gentle slap , smiled as he rubbed his cheek and quickly placed a kiss on spot" Abhi ke liye bas itna hi .. pati dev .."she whispered softly in his ears, her arms wrapped around him" baaki sab .."

"Raat ko.." He whispered back and felt warmth of her cheeks as she blushed " love you" ..he kissed her softly on ear and headed towards door and just like he remembered something ,"Arey haan Shona! he turned at door way "..bhoolna mat!

"Haan baba yaad hai!Swara replied " Tumne aur laksh ne milke saare ghar ki ladies ke liye health check up plan kiya hain .. Maa dadi ko lekar main time pe pahuch javungi aur Ragini seedha aajayegi .. Khush! Ab jao .. Dher nahi ho rahi hain .." She smiled as he bid her bye and left to work

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A week later

Swara walked out of doctor's cabin holding her reports. She had gone through few other tests recommended by doctor .When she asked all Doctor said was " Nothing serious bas .. karwa lijiye ..it's good for you." and she did .. But ...

"Mrs Swara ..If you planning to have kids , I would suggest not,"Doctor Sakshi looked up from reports she had been scanning , "kyunki aapki pregnancy main kuch complications ho sakte hain .." she told in absolute sure tone.

"Matlab Doctor?" Swara asked her face turning pale.

"I mean the risk factor might be high which would lead to complications during childbirth ,aap ke liye aur bache liye bhi .Dekhiye aap ka blood pressure kaafi jyada hain..aur.."

"Lekin Sirf Blood pressure hi toh hain .. can't we treat it?" Swara cut her in between.. Just a blood pressure nothing to worry she told herself.

"Of course it can be treated Swara ji ,"Doctor replied, " Dekhiye! As a doctor it's my responsibility to let you know all risks involved .In first time pregnancies, this high blood pressure can lead to a condition called Preeclampsia, - when your blood pressure, or the force of blood against the walls of your arteries, becomes high enough to damage your arteries and other blood vessels. Damage to your arteries may restrict blood flow and can also prevent the placenta from receiving enough , which can cause your baby to be born very small or kabhi premature delivery bhi ho sakthi hain .. aur maa ke liye .. there is always risk of stroke seizures,or heart failure bhi .In simple its an high risk pregnancy for you , We can take all care we want lekin .. kuch bhi ho sakta hai ..iss liye .. I would suggest..."

Swara walked aimlessly over the corridor of hospital and settled on bench she found near by .

"Shona .. Mujhe na ek pyaari si beti chahiye jo bikul tumhari jaisi ho .. jiski badi badi aankhen ho, itni badi he made an O with his fingers and smiled as Swara hit him ..dekhna main usko itna pamaper karunga na ..just like princess."

"Acha! Agar mujhe beta chahiye tho ! jo bikul tumhare jaise ho .. naak par gussa waala aur ye cute cute chehra waala , "she smiled stroking his nose.

This had been their favourite talk over past few weeks ..It's been more than 2 years of their marraige and since everything had fallen into place ,they have decided it would be right time complete their family.

" Yaar kitni baar kaha hain mujhe cute mat bola karo." Sanskaar complained and next minute he circled her in his arms , his head leaned on her shoulder " Waise madam ,we can always plan a football or cricket team you know ..." he whispered huskily his lips grazing over her neck softly and grinned as Swara's mouth widened " Acha ji ..pehle ek beti thi ab poora team chahiye .. "

As Sanskaar nodded his head cutely Swara started hitting him playfully " Arey Shona Lag raha hain , ouch dheere se ..." Sanskaar mocked pain.. And Swara's concern took over "Sch main lagi hain Kya?" she asked worried

"Haan! lagta hain meri haddi toot gayi " Sanskaar broke into laughter and pulled Swara back into his arms as she mocked anger over his drama and Sanskaar exactly knew how to pacify her with his kisses.

As they rested in each other's arms ...

"Tumhe pata hain Shona ...maine hamesha socha hai ki ...jab hamare bache honge na ..main unse bahut pyaar karunga, unhe koi kami hone nahi dunga .. I will be the best father in world .. tum dekhna." Sanskaar told Swara fondly.

"I know you will be," She smiled rested back on his chest. She knew how much Sanskaar loved kids and she herself secretly adored the idea of having a team of kids...

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Swara sat frozen as she recalled their convo ..If Sanskaar gets slightest knowledge of this ...He would never be ok to have kids and in fact he might distance himself from her...

"Dekhiye .. you can always go for surrogacy, or adopt kids ..or .." Doctors words rang in her ears. That wouldn't be child of their union , a part of him and a part of her .Their symbol of love.

Swara stood resolutely and wiped her tears . She took a risk for her love then , she would take one for their child..let whatever the consequences would be.

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