To the guy I didn't mean to like, but I did.

I know, I should have pulled my hand when our fingers accidentally touched then. I know, I shouldn't have let the tingling sensation of your skin linger on my thoughts. I didn't know then how a simple brush could paint a blush on my face. Then maybe now, I wouldn't be yearning for another accidental touch of your fingers with mine.

I know, I should have looked away from your bright and smiling eyes then. I know I shouldn't have let those eyes bring sunshine on my stormy days. I didn't know then how a simple eye contact could make the butterflies in my stomach fly around. Then maybe now, I wouldn't keep searching for your eyes.

I know, I shouldn't have laughed at your silly jokes. I didn't know why I can't help but laugh even when you pulled the lamest joke. I didn't realize then that it wasn't about the joke, it was you. Then maybe now, I wouldn't compare their jokes with yours. And yeah, yours is still funnier..and lamer.

I know, I should have taken care of myself more. I know I shouldn't have felt good everytime you lend a helping hand. I didn't know how your simple gesture of help and concern would make my heart flutter. Then maybe now, I wouldn't have depended on you a lot.

I know, you care too much for the people you value. I know I'm one of those. I know, coz I'm your friend. I know I shouldn't have read between the lines coz I know how you focus your eyes only to her. I know, coz I'm your friend.

I know you will never see me the way you see her. I know how different it is when you look at her. I know I'll just always be beside you as a friend, coz you're walking only directly towards her. I know it all, yet I didn't expect to feel this way. Knowing all these, I didn't mean to like you. But I did. I still do.