In The End, It Only Left You, Me And Our Sad Ending

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Jimin's Pov

Shock...

Dishearten...

Repudiation...

Worst of all; wrecked...

I couldn't perform a word. I was too shocked and confused about everything that happened. Wasn't it Mr. Jeon supposed to come back to me? He promised that he will come after all of this ended but where is he now? Why are there police officers instead of him? I want him!! I don't want to see anyone else except for him!!

"What are you saying officer?" I asked them coldly, unable to believe that they asked me to confirm Mr. Jeon's body. I know, I'm not stupid... There's an 80% chance that the dead body is indeed Mr. Jeon and NO. I'M NOT READY FOR IT. He should be here right now, in front of me, telling me that everything is over and he will happily dating me again.

"Sorry Mr. Park, we here to bring you to with us to confirm Mr. Jeon's body." The officer repeated his words and bowed down apologetically to me. No. I don't want to confirm anything. He's alive and well and he's going to come back in my arms and we're going to live happily ever after. These officers are liars!! They purposely said that so that I will let Mr. Jeon go. No way in hell I'll ever!!

"I'm sorry but I think you've mistaken someone else. There's many Jeon Jungkook in this world. Have a great day." I said in denial as I turned around but what the officer said next stopped me in my track. "Yes, there are many people with the name Jeon Jungkook in this world but only one in this town that put Park Jimin as his emergency number." I widened my eyes by the information as I cupped my mouth, trying hard to not cry.

I never know that he put my number as his emergency number. I didn't know that and now when I know it, it's already too late to say anything to him. I know it's the Jeon Jungkook. The one who I love, the one who promised to marry me, the one who talked about my future with him, the one who makes me fight against MinJoo, the one who I know, will always be there for me no matter what state I am in but I just can't accept it.

He promised to come back in my arms but what now? He only left me alone...

I should have known better that everything beautiful in this world doesn't last long and so is him. The doe's eyes that will always scream for love every time he looked at me, the veiny hands that were perfectly wrapped around my waist as if it was there in the first place, the deep yet soft voice that he uses to make me fall for him, the thin rosy lips that turned to be my obsession every time they were against mine...

Yeah, he's beautiful and perfect in any way...

"Please give us a second." I heard my mom said before he bowed down politely and walking up beside me. "Jiminah... I know it's hard but we are there just to confirm the body. That doesn't mean Mr. Jeon is gone, there's a possibility he's still alive." She said softly and I could feel my heart dropped and break before shattered around. The mere thought of Mr. Jeon leaves me scared me the most... "But m-mom, you know the chance is thin as paper right?" I asked her and she went silent.

"I should have known... I should have stopped him from going if I knew all of this would happen. I should have but I d-didn't." I confessed and she didn't hesitate to hug me there, hiding my face inside her chest, unknowingly this makes my heart broke more. Deep inside me, wished that the one who hugs me is Mr. Jeon, not my mother.

I don't want anything else now. I want Mr. Jeon to come here and tell the officers that they're wrong. Tell me that he loves me and he keeps his promise. "Don't assume anything Jiminah, we need to see the body first." She said and I couldn't help but pushed her away in anger. I couldn't help it, everything was too blurred for me to process.

What I do know is that I want Mr. Jeon...

"NO!! THAT WILL NEVER HAPPENED!! I DON'T WANT TO GO THERE!! I KNOW MR. JEON WILL COME HERE!! HE PROMISED ME!! HE SAID HE LOVES ME SO I KNOW HE WILL NEVER LEAVE!! I'M SURE THAT BODY IS NOT MR. JEON!!" I yelled out loud, catching the officer's attention as they moved towards us. Please, Mr. Jeon, come back in my arms and tell me how much you love me, tell me how it would look like when we live together in the future. Or, punch me, slap me, do anything you want but please come back to my arms.

"No. It's okay. He was just in shock. He will calm later on." My mother interpreted when the officers look like about to hold me down by the sudden action. I know in this case, I shouldn't blame my mother, I shouldn't blame anyone but Mr. Jeon himself. He promised me to come back but he didn't. What's the point of promising something if you don't know what will happen later?!

"Fine. I promise to come back to you after all of this end. Now, go inside my love..."

My head, shot upwards when I recalled the moment he promised me. If I trust him enough why am I so scared that he will leave me? If I believe that he will come back to me then why did I think he's already dead?

“Because you know he will never come back.”

Pft- Jimin you're so dumb, he will come back.

“Not dumb, just in denial.”

Not in denial, I'm facing the reality which is Mr. Jeon is not DEAD!!

“Yeah keep fooling yourself, you know he's no longer live.”

Shut the fuck up!! Why the hell did you even assume Mr. Jeon is dead?

“Because you know he's already dead.”

NO, and SHUT THE FUCK UP!! He's not dead, watch me go there to proved that he's alive!!

"I will come." I cut my mother who was talking to the officer. Her face turned into a shocked one after realizing what I've said. "Baby, are you sure?" She asked me worriedly and I nodded without hesitation. I need to prove to those officers and voices in my head that he's not dead. Mr. Jeon promised me and I know he will fulfill it no matter what happened.

If he says he will come back in my arms, then he will. End of discussion.

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"Are you sure about this Jiminah?" My mother asked from my side as I stare at a big white building which is the Hospital where they kept the dead body from the officers said. Unfortunately, Jungkook didn't record nor family that they could ask for face confirmation, that's why they invited me because my number was listed in emergency number.

Now that I think it back, it hurts. Hurts not knowing anything about your lover. Hurts not taking the chance to know him more. What I do know is how to spend time with him but never take the opportunity to savor every moment. I guess what they said is indeed true... I'm selfish and unmatured. All I think is how he treats me, but I never think of how I treat him...

"I'm sure, Mom..." I answered, already feel my eyes burn implying my tears will appear soon. No matter how much I try to assure myself that Mr. Jeon is not dead, my head will always go around and speculated he's dead. Even though I keep searching for the point that Mr. Jeon could be alive, it just won't work for my head. "Okay, then... Let's go." She said as I feel her hand intertwined with mine, surprising me by her act.

I looked at her in surprise but she just shrugged off and started to walk inside, following the officers from behind. As much as I'm happy that she holds my hand during that time, I couldn't help but wished it was Mr. Jeon and not in any way around. Could you blame me though? I was desperate to prove him alive.

We walked inside the hospital as I watched, how all the nurses were busy ran around with the trolly bed and some people with stressful facial expressions sat in front of the emergency room while some of them cried. Not a minute later, I saw an entrance to another hospital section which I believe is the Autopsy room, which caused my feet to go almost wobbly.

Perhaps my mom noticed my body suddenly stiffen, she glanced at me, silently asking if I want to go in there as I nodded slowly even though I hesitate to. Now that I think about my decision again, I'm not ready and was not ready nor I will ever be ready to face the dead body. Every step I took, seems too slow and it seems like the floor moved, separating me and the Autopsy section far away; making me restless by the endless road.

But nonetheless, I arrived there, and oh, I couldn't explain the amount of stress I have back then. The officers lead us inside and take a left turned before finally stepped into the autopsy room where I could see there are three dead bodies on the stainless steel table or bed– or whatever the hell they called i– from outside the transparent glass.

"Calm down. Don't panic." My mom said beside me as I looked at her and nodded. I don't really have any choice but to come there either. I don't want them to claim that Mr. Jeon is dead though he's not. The officers then lead me to the first body which is I pray not to be Mr. Jeon...

They grabbed the thin white-colored layer on top of the dead body before revealing their face and I couldn't express the grateful feeling I had that time. It was not Mr. Jeon but someone else that I don't know... We then moved to the second corpse as they do the same and luckily not Mr. Jeon too but someone else.

I couldn't help but smile, thinking my speculation is right but my heart immediately dropped when I looked at the last corpse. I could guess it was a man, judging by the body structure but that's not what caught my attention. What took hold of my eyes is a familiar ring lay in his palm. I could feel my heart shattered by the view.

Of course, I know who's belongs to, I'm not blind to know that it was Mr. Jeon. It's the promise ring he bought for us...

Without thinking further, I turned around and ran out from the room, passing my mother who shocked by my action but did I care. NO. Not at all. What I do know is that Me. Jeon is not dead!! Everyone could buy the ring right?! There's no special thing about it.

"I love you Jimin..."

Lie...

“I want to marry you.”

Lies...

"Don't worry. I'm doing this for you. There's nothing will happen."

LIES!!

"Fine. I promise to come back to you after all of this end. Now, go inside my love..."

FUCKING LIAR!!

I hate you Jeon Jungkook!! You fucking liar!! You said you want to marry me!! You said you love me!! You said you wanted to make love with me!! You said you will come back to me but WHERE ARE YOU NOW?! You left Jeon. You don't love me... All this time you only love yourself...

Pft- I should have realized earlier. I should have stopped him from going. I should have returned the I love You. I should have taken the opportunity to know him better... I should have fulfilled what couples usually will do to their lover...

I should have...

But I didn't...

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