Mother's Love.

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Author's Pov

The spacious room is filled with nothing but pain reflection coming from Jimin. He was still in Taehyung's house and now, laying on the latter's bed.

Jimin's head was facing up to the ceiling as tears didn't stop crawling from his eyes, wetting his cheeks before landed on the pillow cover. 3 hours have passed and yet there he is, crying like Mr. Jeon is the one who dumped him and not the other way around. Jimin was surprised he didn't fell unconscious by the number of tears he made that day.

If tears could count, surely it would be already sea. Jimin didn't get off the bed nor he planned to. He turned his body to the side and glanced outside the window before noticed it was already dawn. By this, Jimin wondered how's the male doing? Did he suffer too? Or only Jimin is the heartbroken one?

All these thoughts were running inside his head, making him restless. He didn't have the energy to do anything but somehow his body managed to produced gallons of tears after hours of crying. Jimin noticed the once beautiful sunset was now dull from his eyes sight...

Slowly, he hold out his hand to removed the blanket on top of him before walking towards the window, wanted to look at the sunset clearly. He reached there and unknowingly another set of tears rolling down from his eyes. No matter how much he wanted to deny it, the pain will eventually come back to him and burned him inside, alive.

Jimin feels as if there's a circle around them and he keeps running away from Jungkook but at the end of the day, he came back to the male. Yeah, that explanation is what seems matched in the boy situation. He tried to do other things that could make him forget the pain but he couldn't. There's no escape from this painful feeling...

"Did he moved on already?" Jimin asked and watched the sun slowly goes down at the same time, taking all colors along. He knows he shouldn't be crying after what he decided but could you blame him? As much as he loves Jungkook, he couldn't bear the thought of leaving his parents behind. Well, to be fair, Jimin didn't mind losing his mother but his father?

No way...

Like Diamond and rings, they shall never be apart from each other. His father what makes his life goes on... They're so close–

Jimin's Pov

My thoughts broke when I heard knocks coming from outside the door. I know who it was but I'm not ready to face him... At least not now.

My heart... I could feel the pain. It hasn't stopped aching from the moment I left Mr. Jeon. Why am I hurting? We all know the relationship eventually will end when both of us get bored with each other. I don't know if I ever got bored of him for years to come but I know he'll leave me when he found the one he wanna marry.

I made the right decision in choosing my mother over him but why it hurts me? Shouldn't I be happy and enjoying my life right now? I couldn't handle it... Somehow, everything I saw today reminded me of him. My front yard, the abandoned room at school, Taehyung's front door... Everything that I saw.

It hurts, I'm not gonna lie. You feel like there are a million people in front of you and they were punching your chest over and over again. Oh, the universe knows how much I want to run back to Mr. Jeom and let his arms wrapped around me like he usually does.

I miss that... I miss all the memories we made and I made sure to bury them at the bottom of my heart so I won't forget them. But at the same time, the more I remember it, the more my body suffers. That little corner in my heart? It's now empty. Fully empty. There isn’t any love, affection, care, feelings left in there.

It’s hollow...

There is only silence that surrounded me. I become the definition of emptiness. My whole world crumbles and falls apart, but still, it's silent. There's a cruel realization because I get to know that for a good amount of time I am gonna live in a place where the sun doesn't shine, where the clouds are grey, where there isn't any nature, just thorns and bushes.

I realized that I'm gonna be a dead soul in an alive body.

Not everyone can understand this feeling. Not everyone can understand how it feels to get their heart and soul crushed into a million pieces. How it feels when in every drop of your tears, you see memories. How you try to sleep at night but all those conversations and jokes you had with them keep you up.

How it feels to think about all of the things you did together and how you planned your future, remembering that secret make out at school, invites tears to my eyes again. That lump in your throat you get when you think about all the promises you did, and then remembering they have betrayed you… Not everyone can understand it–

"Jimin... Your father asked me to send you home." I heard Taehyung said softly from outside, catching my attention and breaking my thoughts. I sighed and turned around before walked towards the locked door to talk to him. I grabbed the doorknob as I pulled the door open before wiping off my tears along the way, meeting a sight of my best friend holding his phone.

"Hey..." He greeted me as I smiled at that despite the aching I feel inside. I promised him hours ago that I will stop shedding tears for Mr. Jeon but could you blame me? He's my first love and I think will be the only one. "I'll get ready. Give me 20 minutes." I said, smiling sheepishly so he doesn't notice that I was crying for the past few hours.

"Sure. But be faster. Your father said it's important." Taehyung said looking at me and I nodded playfully before closing the door and leaned over my back against it, finally burst out again. Ugh, I'm so weak I couldn't even hold my tears? Jimin you are so stupid to cry over this?

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"Bye. See you soon..." I said watching Taehyung walking back to his home as I gulped hard, standing in front of my door. Now that I think it back, why would my father want to see me?

Did he probably know my relationship with Mr. Jeon? Is he going to kick me out too? With all these thoughts filled my head, I sighed and knocked on the door before pulled it open. Hell, I'm scared to meet them but there must be a reason why my father wants to meet me.

Whatever it is, I hope is not because of me and Mr. Jeon...

Unexpectedly, I met the sight of my father sitting comfortably on a sofa wearing tuxedos with two pieces of luggage placed beside the door when I entered. He noticed my appearance as he stood up, smiling and walking toward me. "Jimin, my son... Welcome home..." He greeted me happily and I just froze there before I realized he was hugging me.

Something is not right... I could tell.

"What's wrong with you Dad? Did you bang your head or something?" I asked confusion clearly in my face caused him to laughed out loud before breaking the hug. "Well... I wanted to tell you that I'll be going to HK for a few months." My father said and walked away to his seat before, catching my attention.

Oh... Not bad like what I expected.

"I want to say goodbye before going to the airport of course. I'll miss my dumbass there. " He mumbled and I smiled. He does really loves me... I walked towards him before hugged him from behind and since I'm short, my forehead barely touched my father's shoulder. "I'll miss you too..." I said as he didn't say anything about it but a grin appeared on top of his face proved enough he likes my hug.

"Hate to bother the sweet son-father time honey, but the driver already arrived..." I heard my mom said as I broke the hug and looked at the kitchen where she had just come out while holding a Tupperware filled with food, probably for my father's flight. My father didn't waste any time as walked towards her, leaving me alone.

What the fuck this old man?! I'm more important okay?!

"I'll get going. I'm going to miss you for sure..." I watched my father said to her, before peck her forehead and grabbed the food in her hand. Reality hits me when I remember Jungkook used to kiss me like that before. I looked down, trying hard to not cry there since I don't wanna make a scene.

It hurts...

"Okay, son. See you in few months..." He said to me before patting my shoulder as I watched him stepping out from the house, walking towards a car which I believe is the one who will take him to the airport. I feel sad somehow, the scene of my parents just now stuck inside my head.

Is it possible for me to have to end like that? Is it possible to have me and him?

"Close the door Jimin. We don't want mosquitoes to enter our house..." My mother said plainly from behind, breaking my thoughts as I gulped when I realized there's only me and her now. Now... I really hope she doesn't ask for my decision because I'm not ready to face her.

I closed the door when I realized my father already go away before turned around, about to make my way to my room when my mother–of course who else–called me out. "Jimin. I think we have something to talk about." She said plainly and I, being the exhausted human, slowly walked to her before sitting on one of those couches.

"What is it?" I asked harshly.

I don't know where this bravery came from but surely I was surprised when I said to her like that. I shouldn't have act like that, no matter what she did to me. At the end of the day, she's still my mother; the one who carried me for 9 months in her stomach, the one who took care of me ever since I was a baby.

At the end of the day, she's the only one and will forever be my only mom.

No one could replace that...

"I wanna know your decision." She spat and I almost choke. I'm not ready to tell her but if she wanted to know then– I'm not really in the place to against right? So with a deep breath, I looked at her before opened my mouth.

"I left him," I said truthfully and unexpectedly, I feel like there's a knife stabbed right through my heart that knocked my breath out instantly. I saw her smile at my answer but I didn't say anything because the pain in my chest was still there the moment I spat those words.

I didn't realize she was walking towards me until I feel her hands wrapped around my head while my face was buried inside his stomach. "I know you will make the right decision... Remember Jimin, I'm doing this for you. We didn't know if Mr. Jeon really loves you and planned on marrying you." She said and I found myself agreeing to her words.

Yes... She's doing this for me. It's for my own good and my future but then why am I hurting? Why can't I see my future without Mr. Jeon?

Usually, when I closed my eyes, I would imagine one day, I'll be in the studio and wear all of those model's clothes as they took a picture of me. But now, every time I closed my eyes, imagining what my future would be like; I would only meet with darkness.

But what if... He's my future?

Wait– what? No, that will never happen. Believe in your mother Jimin. She did this for your good...

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