We Need To Stop Here

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Author's Pov

Just like the beginning of the story, it was in the morning where all people in the neighborhood wake up and were ready to start their new day however this time there's a little bit of change...

The certain titanium hair-colored boy who was usually in his deep sleep is already wide awake while laying on the bed, staring at the ceiling. Jimin couldn't sleep after their little argument last night.

He has been thinking for hours about who to choose... But he just couldn't... He knows he couldn't live without both. He loves Jungkook too much it will hurt him the most if he chooses his parents.  But at the same time, Jimin knows himself better than anyone else... He needs his parents.

He sighed as he sat up and glanced outside the window, noticed the sunlight greeted him just like usual. Jimin didn't smile nor anything, he keep his emotionless state as he moved his legs, landing them on the cold tiles.

"I don't wanna go to school..." He mumbled under his breath, as he stood up and walked towards the window before slid the curtain slowly, letting the orange-colored sunlight greeted his pale yet smooth baby skin.  He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, wanted to clear his mind but then a certain teacher entered his mind.

Jimin immediately opened his eyes in shock because he almost forgot the fact he will see Jungkook every morning. He loves to see the teacher every morning, but now that he got into a hard situation, meeting Jungkook in the early morning is not what he wants. It doesn't help him but only made him sadder than he already was.

Unplanned, a tear left Jimin right eye, wetting his cheek by all of these thinkings. He wanted to scream, shout and even yell at the world for being unfair but he knows he couldn't. He knows that their relationship is legal in the first place. But could you blame him?

After Jimin got assaulted, he couldn't see the beautiful rainbow colors from his sight anymore. He began to be fierce, unkind, and even cold making everyone around him left him. He didn't say much or even conversing with others like he used to. But then, Jungkook came into his life without any warning and makes him see how beautiful a rainbow can be... Jimin couldn't help but fall in love with Jungkook for that.

"How could I choose?" Jimin asked himself, silently hoping to get an answer from out of nowhere but he knows he will never get it because he, himself needed to choose. Jimin whimpered a little as he wiped his tears harshly before walked away from the window and heading towards the bathroom, decided to come early to school.

He paced inside the toilet after stripped himself away and was about to step inside the shower area when he accidentally catch a glimpse of his face in the mirror. This caught his attention as he halted his steps and looked at himself in the mirror for the second time that morning.

Jimin has bags under his eyes, probably because of the lack of sleep and his skin looked so pale... Not enough that, his lips that used to be plump and rosy pink are now purple-ish and dried out as his hair is blown. Easy to say, he still looks like him but in a different kind of way.

SLAP!!

Undoubtedly, Jimin slapped his face hoping he will get stronger after and his cry will stop but tears crawled up from his eyes further. "Shit!! CONTROL YOURSELF JIMIN!!" He yelled angrily at the mirror, telling himself to stop crying because the problem is not that big of a deal. Well, indeed the issue is not that big but somehow it managed to damage him deeply.

He knows sooner or later this will happen either way. He knows whatever he has with Jungkook will end eventually but he didn't expect it has to be right after when the male said he loves him back. No, Jimin didn't anticipate this to come shortly and the fact that his mother force him to decide, make him more frustrated than ever.

"STOP IT!!" He cried out at himself, harshly wiping off those tears that fall like a river, not planning to end any sooner. Another slap echoed the bathroom, as now his right cheeks were already reddened with his hand mark on it. Jimin realized that no matter how much he slap his face, those tears won't stop any sooner so he decided to let it flow.

Jimin then turned his gaze away from the mirror, unable to see his reflection anymore because he thinks he looks pathetic and disgusting. He will never be in this kind of state if his heart didn't change for the man and certainly, none of this will happen if he didn't let his guard down. Jimin couldn't help but blame himself for everything that happen right now. 

He blinked his tears away, letting the liquid crystal fall down smoothly on his reddened cheek, and entered the shower area, decided to start his morning shower so that he won't be late.

Beside... He promised Jungkook, he will come early today...

By this, he stood still under the shower, before slowly twist the pipe open, feeling the cold water dropped on his skin. Somehow, whatever he feels or touched that day was cold. Either the warm floors or the heated water manages to make Jimin shivered by the amount of cold.

The scene of their arguments flashed back inside Jimin head, he understood that his mother just worried about him but still it hurts Jimin when she threatened him. He never faces her like that... Usually, she will smile and spoke softly to Jimin even though the boy repaid it with nothing other than harshness.

Recalling all the moments where he treated her like nothing caused regret to filled his inside, almost burst out by the over-amount of guiltiness. He doesn't want to be like old him anymore... He wanted to love his mother right but then again, what she wants is impossible for Jimin. He couldn't imagine his life without Jungkook nor his parents.

Jimin closed his eyes as he ran his fingers through his wetted hair while thinking back on his decision. He needed few more days to think about this so that he won't regret it later but even after that, he still couldn't decide. He knows that too well... He will never choose one of them.

“Or not, leave this house and don't ever come back!!”

“Jiminah, are you crazy?!”

“We both know this relationship will fail eventually Jimin!!”

By the last voice of his mother, he immediately opened his eyes in realization. His mother was indeed right, this whatsoever relationship will ends eventually when Jungkook grows tired of him later. Now, Jimin rather leave him first before the male leave him right?

After finished his shower, he quickly get out and wear his school uniform. Surprisingly today, he wore his tie neatly and his shirt that is usually bobbled was now tugged perfectly inside his pants. Jimin didn't waste any more time and stepped outside the room, not forget to bring his school bag along.

No matter how much he wanted to skip today school, Jimin couldn't because he promised Jungkook.

He walked down the stairs and didn't even bother to have breakfast since he didn't want to meet his father nor his mother but oh, the woman already woke up hours before and was now waiting for none other than Park Jimin to come down. She wanted to remind him if in case he forgot what she said.

Jimin didn't notice the woman's existence as he reached the door and swung it opened before Ms. Park spoke up. "Remember what I said yesterday Jimin..." She mumbled under her breath while holding a cup of tea in her hands wanted to warm them up since the weather outside in cold moreover in the morning.

This caught Jimin attention immediately as he turned his gaze and glared at his mother who seems relaxed. He knows, she's saying that on purpose so that he won't forget but to be honest, could he? Could he forget what she said? Of course not.

"I give you two days to think about it. I want an answer after that." She said before stood up and walked away with the hot tea, provoking Jimin to not just snatch the cup and spilled the hot tea over her face. Oh, how much patience takes Jimin for that.  He didn't say any word left and wore his school shoes before slammed the door loudly.

Reaching the front yard, he couldn't help but recall yesterday's moment where Jungkook dropped him. Another set of tears fall out from Jimin eyes for thousand times that day. He couldn't help it. No matter how he tries to denies it, it hurts him more than ever.

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"I don't want to r-run away but I can't take it, I don't understand~🎶" Jimin sang while whimpered slightly, keeping his blurred gaze outside the abandoned room window.

He arrived at school not too long ago and realized there's nobody here yet except for him since he attended extremely early that day so he decided to come to the abandoned room. He didn't think much about it until he reached the area and remembered the moment he had sex with Jungkook yesterday.

It should be one of his dirty memories but now that he thought of it back, it only turned him sadder and at last, broke down for the third time that morning. He was now, facing a window, allowing his eyes to scan those neighbor houses from afar even though his sight was blurred by tears.

"If I'm not m-made for you then why does my h-heart tell me that I am?~🎶" Jimin continue as he blinked his tears away, letting them ran down his cheeks. Even though the melody is barely heard since whimpers filled the area, you still could feel the amount of sadness he bottled inside.

"Is there any way that I can stay in your a-arms?~🎶" Jimin proceed with the song, unable to express how he felt but could tell he was unhappy judging by the song he sang that time. Jimin couldn't say anything further, he knows what he had to choose and he knows what effect it will have on him.

Did he really have another choice than to leave Jungkook?

No.

He's sure his father won't let this relationship going further just like his mother. The song was already forgotten as for now, whimpers and sobs filled the quiet corridor. He couldn't believe everything that happens is too fast for his liking. He didn't even get to date properly with Jungkook yet, how come he needs to leave the male?

Jimin wiped his tears harshly, silently forcing himself to stop crying because that will not change anything. Realizing that his tears won't stop, he holds out his hand and slapped his face two times, creating red marks over his cheek, hoping this will halted him from crying. But none avail, the tears keep rolling down like a river...

No matter how much his cheek stings by the slap, deep down his heart pains more. Jimin hold out his hand once more, decided to give the harshest slap on his face hoping the injury is sting enough to covered up the pain he feel inside.

"You better stop that."

Another voice suddenly interrupted Jimin as he turned around, searching for the owner's voice. There, Taehyung stood still, looking handsome than ever. Before Jimin could process anything, his body had already been pulled and crushed into a brotherly hug.

"Tell me... What's wrong..." Taehyung said softly and stroked Jimin's titanium hair. He heard and saw it all... From the moment Jimin starts to sing until the moment he begins to slap himself. He wanted to ambush but he knows better than to give the boy time alone. However then, he couldn't take it anymore so he stepped into the room.

By this, Jimin couldn't help but burst out inside Taehyung's hard chest while the boy keep his warm embrace to support his cold body.

"I d-decided it already Tae... I'll l-leave h-him..."

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