Aoi's POV

I moistened my slightly dry lips, slightly biting on them as I gripped on the chains, softly swaying the swing back and forth. I looked down in anticipation for Jimin to talk first, and I literally had no idea why he wanted to meet me here. Specifically at 10 pm, for some reason. I hadn't talked to him for quite a while, so it was difficult for me to look at him in the eye. All I could feel was the awkward atmosphere and the disturbing noise my heart made inside my chest.

Jimin then cleared his throat to ease the tension, causing me to flinch. I don't even know why I flinched, I'm not that sensitive to noise. It was probably too quiet, the swinging motion I was making created even more noise than the crickets. The sky was completely blank, starless, just boring. Usually the skies would be the first thing you'll talk about when it's awkward outside, or how good the weather is.

But I guess not at this time.

Even if the setting is a playground, it's not that interesting.

"So, good news. Jaehyun is going to study at university abroad, next year. Probably in America, or Australia or something; I just thought that you would want to know. When my parents told him about him going he was overjoyed, because he wouldn't see me anymore. That was their original plan, actually, they wanted to separate us twins. We never really got along really well anyway," He released a chuckle, then made our eyes meet for a second.

"Good for him then," My throat was almost dry as I replied.

I didn't know how to respond but it's kinds painful how someone would be waiting for the moment to separate himself from his household because of his brother. The day Ah-young gets married will be the day I would probably be depressed for a month or so.

"Well it was unfair because I didn't want him to go, I got to used to seeing him here. He'll probably stay there for good if that meant not seeing me forever," he continued, his expression dropping into a miserable frown. My blinking quickened in panic, so my left hand broke loose from the chain and immediately held his hand in comfort. His head turned to me slowly and smiled.

"I'm a stupid brother, you know?"

"Well, not completely smart but no, I didn't know. But it's not the end of the world for sure," I honestly said.

"It is, for me."

"Look, you can try talking to him, you know? You could actually fix this, Jimin, it's not too broken, I know. You're brothers, not just two friends who spent a few months together and breaking up because of some fight, you're related by blood for God's sakes. It's just a small bend, it will get better if you try to reconcile," I tried to tell him.

How much do I even know about relationships?

I can't acknowledge what a real caring relationship is like. Not even family. I rarely ever spend time with my family, or my sister, all I know is that I respect them a lot. We had already known how to mind our own businesses and rarely ever spent time together as a whole.

Friends? Don't even get me started with them.

Pretty much, they have to put up with how rude and how sassy I could get. That also adds to the fact that people talk shit about me all the time, and they also have to put up with that. My friends probably think I'm a bad person but it's how I present myself to others that just irks them anyway.

"I have a confession to make," He started. I shot him a glare in anticipation. "To be honest Aoi, I think you're worth it. If there's one person someone would ask is worth becoming a better person for, that would be you," He smiled.

"Why do you sound like I deserve that coming from you? I don't have the ability to do something like that," I spoke lowly. He teasingly poked the side of my head.

"I love you, okay?" He said again, sending my goosebumps from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. My irregular heartbeat is becoming more noticeable, but I hope he didn't notice.

He held his hand out, "Can you accept me, Aoi?" He asked, and I wasn't sure if he was serious or not. My stare dropped on his palm, and I could just smile at the fact that his hand was just as big as mine. It was adorable, usually guys would have bigger hands than girls.

"Can I make you wait?" I asked with a gulp, "When we both resolve things, we can think about us. You know that I love you too, Jimin," I laughed.

He nodded, "Okay, I'll wait."

We could call it love, but I know that it's just attraction. A strong infatuation. Only a few people my age would know what it is. Honesty, trust, patience, affection make real love up- not some puppy love between teenagers. But it would be nice to stick to what I should know, who knows Jimin and I are actually meant for each other?

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I coughed, batting my eyelashes at the two idiots sitting on the table opposite to me. Both of them were biting their nails in sync and avoiding my gaze. I ruffled my hair in frustration and rested my cheek on my palm, tapping the table with my finger impatiently.

"What do I do with you two?" I irritatedly asked the two of them. Joo-eun spared me a very short glance, while Rina shifted her gaze to her lap as if it was the most interesting thing ever.

"Do I need to talk first?" I asked, awkward silence taking over again. None of them made a sound, not even move a millimeter. "Why show up when you're not going to talk anyway? Hell," I rolled my eyes.

"So, nobody's gonna talk? Alright then, I'll talk to you all about something," I seriously stated, and they looked at me so suddenly.

"I need friends," I took a deep breath, "I know, it sounds stupid but I need you two in my life. I lost a lot when I tried to live my life without the both of you. Sure, there will be people out there in our school who want to be my friend because they could use me to make them seem cool or some shit, but I need you two," I may sound desperate, I know.

Rina bowed her head even lower,then gestured to wipe her tears or something. Damn, I didn't know I can make people cry. Damn Aoi, you're so talented.

"In short, I need people to trust, I nedd people to stay by my side. I don't want people to stab my back, I want you to be honest with me so I could be with you both too. It's easy to find someone to share stories with, but someone to be open to? I need people like that, and that's you two," I bit my lip.

And after that very moment, it dawned upon me that maybe I did something very wrong to deserve that. Or maybe she did. Because the next thing I knew was the fact that Joo-eun stood up, grabbed her things and zoomed out of the door.

In guilt, hatred, confusion? I couldn't tell, but why?