Dear future partner,

Will you have the patience?

Will you be understanding when I lose my train of thought?

Will you wait and give me the time to find my words?

Will you try to see past my crimson cheeks and shaking hands?

Will you have the patience to uncover the unspoken words in my silence?

Will you have the patience to slowly unravel the layers to my personality?

I know that I don't make it easy.

I throw walls up when you try to get to know me.

I know that loving me might be more difficult than loving another.

Please know that it's not for a lack of interest.

It's only that I care so much, and that I have long feared letting people see the real me.

I hid my true words and self for so long that I'm still trying to discover how to fully uncover them.

Will you understand that sometimes my old insecurities and habits will rise again?

Will you appreciate all the baby steps that I take towards opening up?

Will you stay long enough to uncover all of me?

And if you stay that long, will you stay afterwards?

My biggest is fear is that you will be patient.

That you will take the time and give me the space to fully shine,

Only to be disappointed with your discoveries.

Will you resent me,

If you put all this work into getting to know me,

Only to realize that I was never what you wanted?

I certainly hope not.

I hope that enough of the real me shines through now,

For you to understand what you're fighting for.

If you stay long enough, I hope that you deem the wait worthy.