It's because I'm weak
That I can't take
What everyone else can
That my smiles are fake
When I pretend to be like them
They all seem to do so well
And are heading forward so fast
While I am stucking on a treadmill
Scared of the future, hunted by the past

It's because I'm weak
That I don't look
Like the models on a silver screen
As never the right diet I took
Like I was told to by the magazine
They are so tall, pretty and thin
Smiling from glossy pages happily
While I sit here, not fitting in
Forever imperfect and ugly

It's because I'm weak
That I cry
Way more often than I should
It's not that I don't try
To get harder, I wish I could
It's just impossible to built a wall
High enough to keep all out
Sooner or later, it will fall
And expose itself as fraud

It's because I'm weak
That I can't fight
I'm always giving in
Even if know I'm right
I just hate arguing
To scared of hurting ayone
I leave my words unsaid
It always feels so wrong
But I could never speak instead

It's because I'm weak
That I feel jealousy
And anger, and hate so easily
As my demons are stronger than me
So a good person I'll never be
They fill me up and hold me down
And I'm of guard with no defence
They burn my soul and let me drown
But all I got to offer is pretence

It's because I'm weak
That this pain has control of me
And I know you would think the same
So I don't let you see
Like this I will remain,
Don't know for how much longer
Just that it hasn't killed me yet
But it didn't make me stronger
Just wishing I was dead.

-A/N ....okay but on the positive side, this is chapter 100 -throws glitter- thanks to everyone who sticked to my poetic trash until late here. You all mean a lot me 💙 (okay, I could tag you all amazing people here...but I kinda hate that because I am always scared I will exclude someone who would have deserved to be mentioned........you can still all 1.) Name a poem I wrote you like and I will dedicate it to you or 2.) Tell me something you want me to write about, and your wish will be my order 💙)
Anyway, you all are awesome ...and strong as hell. I mean, if you are reading this, it means you made it trough this world until today, which often takes a lot. Be proud of yourself, you deserve it!
Keep all fighting, warriors,
and stay human,
Sero 💙
Damn, that was a long note....-