Dear one who died,
I wish for rainy summer days only
If you won't see the sun no more
That should count also for me
Nothing will ever be like before
I'm victim of my own crime
The crime of living as you died
Of how as you suffered, I was fine
How I left as you faded into the night
My soul remained, yours taken away
Just a twisted move of fate
Could have been right other way
Yet it is not a cheap price I paid
For still breathing this worlds air
My sentence lies heavy
Even though I know it's fair
So I will never be free
It's the survivor's guilt I live in
My mind build me a prison
Where all happiness is a sin
And I will never again be safe
Since in my head, danger is still real
As I am standing at your grave
Where pain is all I feel
And everything  is grey
Since with you, colours left my world
As they took your soul away
Where I can't smile about the sun
And wish for a rainy days only
Since it only reminds me you are gone
As it's light you will never again see
As I survived and you died
Since they had you killed
And I ran away into the night
Where I live in the survivor's guilt

Yours, the one who survived

-A/N writing this was may more emotional than it should be, taking into consideration it was inspired by experiences of others and books....whatever.....I am strange...
Stay human,
Sero 💙-